Chapter Twenty One.

2018

For two weeks Josh and I had been distant. He had work I guess. The awards were a big deal and he had to spend all his energy on that. I understood the absence caused by the working hours but I didn't quite understand the private calls or the suspiciously dim light on Josh's phone...the smiling down at his messages...... I didn't understand the sudden lack of interest when it came to intimacy or Josh's urge to leave every time he was around me.......Every time I kissed Josh it felt forced.....it looked like he didn't enjoy it. Maybe I was over thinking things. I usually made so many assumptions and most of the times they were always false.

I often don't know the difference between a relationship falling apart and a simple absence of attention.