CHAPTER 5

"What's wrong Bobby?", Sam asked. What else could go wrong tonight? Sam wasn't sure he wanted to hear what Bobby was going to say. But, it was far too late now. Bobby walked farther into the room and wiped a hand down his tired face. He heaved a giant sigh and Sam KNEW he didn't want to her what Bobby was going to say.

"Crowley wanted you on his side, Dean", Bobby said. "He told you what Abaddon was planning and showed you how to kill her. He never said so, but I have a feeling that if it weren't for Crowley, she would not have known that Y/N even existed in the first place. I think Crowley convinced Abaddon that the best way to take revenge would be to turn Y/N. Crowley said that he knew that you were close to her. He knew that Abaddon wanted to hurt you in the worst way possible".

"She got her wish", Dean said bitterly, looking away. Bobby looked at the floor feeling guilty for having led Dean to this line of conversation.

"I'm sorry Dean", Bobby said. "My point is, this was all set in motion by Crowley so he could get his hands on a Winchester. He knew you were reckless and the one that would go off half-cocked!" Dean dropped his head and nodded. Crowley was right. He had always been the one who acted without thinking about the consequences.

"But if Crowley wanted me on his team, why did he help you cure me? What went wrong?" A small hand grabbed Deans shirt, tugging on it. Dean looked down at Y/N and her face was pale.

"You went wrong, Dean. You wouldn't do what Crowley wanted", Y/N said in a small voice. "He couldn't control you like the other demons." Dean looked at her with a puzzled expression on his face.

"How do you know this Y/N/N?", Dean asked. He didn't have all of his memories back yet so all the details were still jumbled up in his brain.

"You told me that when you were...still a demon", She looked away when she said the last three words. Dean sighed and hugged her close again. He had hurt her so badly, yet she still loved him. He couldn't comprehend how she could be so strong.

"I think Crowley was afraid of you, Dean. You had power that he didn't", Bobby said. "He said that there could only be one king of Hell. I think he was afraid that you would come after his job." Dean looked at him with wide eyes. He looked down at the girl squeezing him around the chest and his anger started to get the better of him.

"So Crowley put Y/N/N's life in danger just to get me on a leash?", Dean spat. "HE WANTED ME TO BECOME THAT MONSTER! THAT TWISTED THING THAT HURT...that hurt my best friend." He swallowed down the lump in his throat and sighed. Dean felt Y/N trembling in his arms. "I'm so sorry, Baby Girl. I didn't mean to scare you". She just nodded as she buried her face in his chest.

"Why didn't you tell me this sooner, Bobby?", Sam asked. "Like after he first came to you?" Bobby heaved an exasperated sigh and looked at Sam with his signature 'YOU'RE AN IDJIT!' expression.

"Well, it wouldn't have gone so well without him, now would it?", Bobby growled. "And if I had told you, you would have gone and done something stupid, like try to kill him!" Sam looked away and shrugged. He couldn't argue with that, because Bobby was right. That's exactly what he would have done.

"Why can't I remember everything?", Dean said. The room fell deathly quiet as Sam & Bobby both looked at the small figure huddled against Dean. Dean saw where they were looking and glanced down and saw Y/N looking down at her feet. "Y/N/N?" Dean reached down and lifted her chin up so he could see her eyes. She looked ashamed. "What is it, Sweetie?"

"I...I had C-Cas erase our m-memories", she stammered. She was trying not to cry. "I didn't want those memories, Dean! And I love you enough not to want you to live with...with what happened". She looked away from him again.

"Hey! Look at me, Y/N/N!", Dean's voice was quiet but serious as he gazed at her. She stared at Dean and a single tear rolled down her cheek. "You are the strongest woman that I have ever known. After everything I've done, you still cared enough about me not to want me have to live with what I've done to you! I don't deserve a friend like you." Y/N smiled at him as more tears leaked from her eyes. Dean caught them with his thumb, wiping them away before they could reach her chin.

"You risked your life and your soul to protect me, Dean", Y/N murmured. "I won't forget that. Even when my nightmares star a demon with your face, I will NEVER forget that." Dean closed his eyes and the muscles in his jaw twitched when he clenched his teeth tightly. She reached up an cupped his cheek. When he opened his eyes and looked at her, she was smiling warmly at him. "It won't be easy, but we're gonna get through this", she whispered. Dean smiled back and shook his head.

"I think that's my line!", Dean said, hugging her tightly again. Y/N giggled. That sound melted his heart. It's the first good thing that's happened since he walked into her bedroom a few hours ago. He looked up at Bobby with a very stoic expression. "Can you set up a summoning spell, Bobby? There's a certain demon that I'd like to have a word with". That small hand tugged on his shirt again. He looked down and saw that same stoic expression on Y/N's face.

"So do I".