In Love once again

So, I held Andromida down for a while and didn't want to let her go unless I kiss her on the mouth. She kept on struggling but I held on to her so tight and gripped her on both arms her legs close to each other while I imprison her whole butt with my master move.

Andromida was steaming with anger and was about to cry but I held on to her tightly until she has no strength to fight me. I kissed her lips slowly and gently, then, all of a sudden she bit my upper lip so hard that it bled profusely. The blood dripped on to her cheek as I gulped the droplets hard and looked at Andromida with lust now. She can't refuse a pharaoh but I composed myself and remained patient. I loosen my grip of her legs since I felt numb already for we're like in a submissive position for about two hours now.

Andromida looked so furious and kicked me on my groin that my eyes flared in anger and my head heated up. It hurt so bad I punched her on the stomach, which she growled in pain thus coughing steam off after.

I never hit a girl on purpose and I apologized, but she slapped me on the face and my bloody lip fused so bad the blood flushed all over my cheek and her face. Andromida was so mad she managed to hold my neck and about to strangle me when I kicked her side that she now curled up in pain.

She lost her grip from my neck and I held her chin to pin her on the ground again. I used all of my powers that this tiny brave girl couldn't even flinch or move as I kissed her mouth again and again.

Andromida refused to kiss me back and spitted on my face twice. I kissed her again and now it's harder and colder, and touched her privates up to her chest. In my rage, I tore her armor garments until I can only touch her skin and her breasts which are bigger and healthier than mine. Andromida knew that she lost and gasped for air. She laid still and started to cry. Now that the strong Hydra is sobbing while I touch her breast up to the neck. I took pity on her and stopped what I'm doing since I never force anyone into liking me nor the inkling of having sex with me forcefully, ever. "I'm not a monster, whatever the people or your people thought of me and who I am is not true. I'm not a beast, Andromida. I'm human too, just like you. Though I'm believed to be god and blessed by the gods, I have feelings just like how I want to be with you, to touch and make love to you. Forgive me for forcing myself, or my way to have you. I didn't mean to...I explained as I breathed my despair while stopping my touch of Andromida's body. As I was about to move my hand off her skin, Andromida held my hand and placed it on her private part. Then she kissed me on the lips giving me sloppy and inexperienced kisses. I smiled at her and almost cried in the hope and excitement, giving me a clear sign, permission to be with her. I held her face with both of my hands for her to stop whatever she's trying to do. I kissed her gently on the lips as if teaching her that this is the way to kiss me or a woman. And we kissed and tasted each other's palates, cavities and souls all night long.

I saw Andromida bare naked right in front of my eyes and started to feel guilty about Meraek and how she was so invested in me, in us, our relationship. I think it's never her in the first place. It's always been me, my selfish whims, needs and lusts for other women because I get blinded by my desires.

I get tired of myself sometimes. I hated it when I lose control and cry over something I have done or didn't do. I thought I have figured all out, having a kid and being with Meraek. But as if I still feel empty inside. I still feel I am missing a part of me from somewhere. Or maybe I just miss father and the love he used to give me or how close we were when he was still alive. Or maybe I miss my mother who died when I was a little girl, not because she died of physical death but because she lived in the asylum all her life. Until now I wasn't able to see her because she is in deep state of craziness which was lately diagnosed as Schizophrenia. Father didn't tell me this until I reached a certain age where I could understand her situation and how hard it is to raise me and my dear mother at the same time. Father was a good, loving and responsible

man. And I miss him so much. Recently, I learned that mother, who named me after my great grandmother, Hatshepsuna, where my mom's name also came from as Henshuna who gave me my name, Henshupta, passed away due to Alzheimer's disease that has been named after Alchemy and Zimmerman, two famous people from New Egypt who are becoming popular nowadays since they rose to a sudden fame a couple of years after Ancient Egypt came to a serious historical and scientific halt, especially when the medical field is concerned.