chapter 14 Holding back

Sabastian Danovan's P O V

I closed the files and raised my head to see Jasmine sitting there and reading something on the PC with her beautiful curious eyes, like a little kid. 

What is she even looking at? 

I got up from my seat and walked behind her in curiosity, and she didn't even notice me.

So I leaned in a little, placing both of my hands on either side of the chair to check her computer screen, and I saw the articles that I told. 

For a moment, I thought she had been checking some messages from her so called boss, but when I saw that, she was not. My lips curled into a smile. 

"So, you have been looking through these things?" I said, turning to her big innocent eyes, staring back at me like I had done something. Her cheeks turned red with each passing second, and my heart skipped a beat. 

"No... Nope! Stop this and take a step back, Sabastian!" My conscious tried to warn me, hold me back, but it was too late and so hard when her eyes are pulling me in like a magnet. 

It's so fucking hard to resist her, and each time I tried to fight this feeling, this urge to devour, and I still failed. I fail miserably. Just like now. 

Finally, I let my control go and gave in to my desire and urge, smashing my lips on hers, kissing, and almost eating her lips like I was starving. 

But that's true! I was fucking starving for her! For this touch! For every fucking thing about her! 

My hands slide around her waist as I lean in and pull her closer, not getting enough of those lips or her. 

Both of her hands are on my coat, clinching and holding on to me like always. 

I stopped for a second to look at her, breathing heavily as I stared into her teary eyes, filled with desire and want mirroring mine. 

"God!.... Fuck!" I whispered in between those heavy breaths before taking her lips again and moving closer, like I couldn't get enough. 

Yes! I can't get enough of her! I am so fucking hungry for her! 

I let her lips go and moved to her cheek, leaving wet kisses, and down to the jawline as I curved for more of her. 

Before I could reach down to leave my marks, she pushed me a little, saying, "We should stop this here." 

My eyes searched for hers, but she didn't meet mine and was avoiding them like I could do something. 

"You want this too," I tried to reason out, feeling my boxer tighten. 

"Yes, I do, but this is wrong... We should stop this!" Her voice filled with plead sent a shiver down to a certain part, and it's getting so hard to hold back, but I have to! I am not someone who forces my woman!

I moved back and turned around, and just left the room, trying my best not to jump on her. 

I AM FUCKING HOLDING ON TO MY LAST THREAD! 

As soon as I stepped outside and closed the door. I leaned against it and let out a grunt in frustration. 

Why am I being so weak for her?! I didn't fucking feel anything, or should I say, I didn't even think about those things for all these years, and why the hell am I suddenly losing control?! And that too .... For her! 

"What the hell, Sabastian?!" I whispered in frustration , still closing my eyes and standing in front of the door, embarrassed of each and everything. 

"Boss...? Are you okay?!" My eyes shot open as I heard Mark's voice. I turned to him, corrected my clothes, and said, "Let's go." 

He was not sure for a moment, but then nodded his head and answered "yes," not asking any extra questions. 

That is why he is still my personal assistant. 

"Is everything ready?" I asked, walking to the elevator and passing the file to him. 

"Yes, Boss. They are prepared and waiting for you in the meeting room," he replied, walking next to me. 

"Hmm," I just replied, trying hard to fight back those feelings and memories of her lips. 

I can still feel those soft lips and her smooth skin that I missed so dearly for all these years. 

I got out of the elevator and walked to the meeting room, trying to clear out all those feelings and memories, but it was hard. 

I got in and instantly locked eyes with Ethan, who was standing near the screen like he was the one presenting. 

Wait? Is he the one doing it?

My conscious mind intentionally went back to our last memories. He never takes no for twice, and as I rejected his group's concept last time, he is here to do it himself now. 

I didn't react and just walked to my seat like I always do, looked at the screen, and gave him a nod to start. 

He smiled at everyone and got down to his work. 

I tried my hardest to focus, but all I could think about was her. She got in my head and is playing with all my senses and making me lose my focus.

I am getting distracted in the meeting, and that too is one of the important meetings. 

I tried hard, but I mostly didn't concentrate on the meeting till the end. For the whole two-hour meeting. All I can think about is her. 

"This is good, but I want more! I am not satisfied." I got up from my seat, making everyone turn to me. 

I didn't care as always and walked out of the room, fellowed by Mark, leaving Ethan dumbfounded. 

"Mr. Danovan." I heard Ethan's serious voice from behind. If he is pissed and is planning to make things worse for me, that's the only time he calls me by my second name.

I stopped because I knew this could happen. 

As I said before, he will never take a no for an answer and will do everything to get a yes. 

"What didn't you like about planning? If you give the feedback and option, then we could correct it, Mr. Danovan".