CHAPTER 7: ACCEPTED!

Everyday seems to run like a car wheel and as if things we're happening so fast, my friends taking every decision that includes me, I would always be taken unawares or just by surprise like this one, and why is that? Why am I always in a fix, a hard spot like a swindle that shook me by every nerve.

Even in a phantasmagoria, it seems that I should still accept it, like should someone like me not find anything fun filled especially with what I've been through, sometimes you do not even remember to or even be precautious of the consequential probabilities.

This was a hangout with my friends and I was going to the Texas College for the orientation, my first view of East Austin, Texas, to meet new people and make new friends though I wasn't fond with that, I got the euphoria but whatever it was that these people we're chasing, it was wild like fire that I couldn't put my hands in it, but it was accepted and I was willing to give it a try no matter the shocker.

The day was dawning and the bright west light that shun west of the window usually shun on the couch I rested my head to sleep and this faithful Thursday morning, Billy woke us up by a weird sound I had never actually heard from it before in the house, it mewed like a cat but in a very shrieking manner, that even if you we're in the dream world you would come back here to the physical so fast that you may begin to wonder whether that's what woke you up. Ugh! Steve stretched out loud, and was like Gooood morninnnng! Ugh! yeah, the fuck we up, you're so freaking loud, Tess yelled.

Tess you there, she interrogated?

I had drooled a lot of dried spit down the break of my lower lips while I was asleep, struggled to clean first with my blankets before I answered, we all up, right. Rise and Shine!

And what was that you just did with your duvet? Tessy interrogated, Eeew! You freak me out sometimes, you slobbered while you we're asleep. That's quite unlikely, you ate so much that you forgot yourself, she added. I think so, I replied her

Ignore the hate, Ignore the funny shit. Okay! Okay!! Steve hesitated; we all have creepy stuff we all are sub conscious about. It's fine, Trace thought you were mature enough to say that in a nice manner, queen discourse!

I hate you, Steve. Why would you just say my kwarf name like that? She asked frowning, so you know it doesn't feel good for someone or people to fault you in something you fault in frequently and trying to correct, said Steve.

Hmm lessons, I said with a low voice. Trace turned to me and hugged me and was like I know that was for me, I heard you. I'll try and learn but let it not always have to be the hard way, huh? Steve shrugged his shoulders and said if it is not the hard way, how do you learn lessons? I'm sorry though, you know I'm always boyfriend material and the first guy that is never outclassed. That's right baby, she jumped and hugged him, he carried her up and kissed her.

Mmmmhmm! I cleared my throat, and it distracted them. It cut them like a sharp blade from their intercourse. I faced my head down and I walked away, while strolling out. Think we have to be in college in a couple of minutes from now, do you guys even remember school or even schedule it on your plan of timely activities, I said quite frankly.

Tracy barked at me, that's unaccepted, you do not just break a deep romantic session like that with saying something this sass, said Tess. She went on and came down from his lap, he tried caressing her but she shunned him and came to me questioning, if you want love? you can find love only when you are fully ready for it. So don't make what we do her seem strange, you can find yours too if you wish. She posturized round me while elegantly giving me the love drill.

Wow, so why is it that you two never tell me you had this relationship thing going on, I inquired. We just wanted you to find out yourself and ask just like you did right now.

Steve broke into the dialogue, school's not now, we're scheduled to have lectures from 12pm in the early afternoon, we still got time no stress. I interrupted, so pent-up in their love equation. So do you tell people outside too what you told me when I first moved in here.

Dear, she called out while holding my shoulders. We are not shady; we are not living double-lives. Right baby, Steve answered that's right. Everyone out there knows our relationship status, we do not hide what we are, she added. Last question, I insisted.

Okay, what is it? She asked me I asked to clear my doubt, my head and mind from its most bugging question. Don't you guys feel insecure of me staying here and breaking your love ties. Steve struggled to make an attempt. Let me take this first, he told trace. We are together as a relationship couple and not the actual couple yet and we are sure ready to take some risks to test our love for each other, I mean that's crazy right. Yeah, Tess concurred and added, I mean you are not even here for any sort of love test shit crap, you are here because we want to help you and we feel that you can also be of great help to us, to help us launch, me most basically launch my career. You are not here for a love experiment but by coincidence which we felt that with all that had been going on, you needed help.

Okay, I get a whole lot clearly now, I said quiet and forthrightly. I still got some questions but don't want to bug you with all of them now. It too early to begin with a lot of questions, I dragged my words like I said that to myself but I was still fucking heard. This is the most marveling wonder I have seen in a relationship, that both partners decide to test their love through jealousy and insecurity altercations and occasions, that's crazy , risky, legendary like but is actually worthwhile.

Steve while lying on the three-sitter couch asked me about the visit to their college with his words clearly as I will state him, seem like you made up you're mind to join us to school today for the truth or dare game. What you say? You sounded optimistic.

Okay, I thought about it and I thought that though it may be a bit tight and rough, since it's going to be a lot of firsts for me. I am willing to give it a try. It's a YES from me, deal accepted. I am coming and that's why I asked about it earlier. They both seemed to have been listening to me with rapt attention.

I and Trace walked from the balcony back the parlor. We sat on the couch, Steve at the other side of the couch. We were about to begin another stack of convos, before I reminded, we have not prayed since we woke up. Trace replied, that's true, we should pray like right now. We joined our hands together and prayed 'THE LORD'S PRAYER'.

Immediately after, Steve stormed me with another question, I'm curious but before that him and Tracy together did a hurray gesture, yay, she's coming to the party. What party, I asked curiously but Steve interrupted with his question, what are the lot of firsts you'll be having, hanging out at the Texas college playing truth or dare with some group of new friends you'll be making.

I actually do not know where to start with that question, but I will attempt it, I dictated. Attempt, au seems there will be some freshers becoming? said Tracy. I turned to Steve, it will be my first time of being to East Austin, Texas, USA. I feel it will be my first time of stepping into the halls of learning, school, college whatever? I have never stepped into any learning facility before. Think, this will be my first time playing dirty and a truth or dare game. I feel that they should not just know a lot about me that I do not want just anyone to know just at my first entrance, or my first impression. I am afraid and at the same time very eager to adventure this part of Texas, I feel that all this just has to be happy and sad moments maybe, just maybe as for me, I feel that I should explore they both.

Hmm, Steve heaved a sigh of relief. Are you sure you want to go; I am no longer pressuring you. Will you or will you not because with hearing all the first times, it sounds more like a lot that's made you in between trying to think about it this whole while. What do you think trace, she replied. But if you promise us to come, we will protect you. You will not have to do or say what you dislike.

Okay, I am coming. Want to experience everything, I replied hastily with nervousness and strong anticipation without giving it a second thought and by the way, I asked Tracy, as you both are a thing are you still going to play this game. They both answered, yes, we will, it is one of the things we would like to test as ideal lovers, we decided to go crazy this week actually, they stated concurrently. Wow, I gushed. That is freakin' daring.

Trace further threw me some remarks, with hearing all these firsts, I actually would like you to live them in actuality than in dreams. I was deeply touched, face your fears and explore your firsts. I'm glad you accepted.