I somehow came to my senses before fully waking up, like I was in a dream within a dream. I could see the outside of me. I saw him sitting by my bedside, with his head down.
Had he fallen asleep?
He looked so childlike in this moment, so vulnerable and strange.
But just like the one I had found - and the one who had found me.
I wanted to touch him - comfort him, in a soft caring way.
In a way that expressed how much I cherished him and appreciated him.
Without using words.
I wanted to kiss him - and hug him, say that everything was going to be okay.
That I was here and he could count on me for whatever he needed.
Before I woke - I thought of all these things.
I wanted to tell them to him - but I couldn't - something pulled me back.
I wanted to cry, I felt tears running down my face, my body soundly sleeping in his bed.
We were in his room.
I could feel the morning shining through the window, behind his curtains.
There were so many things in this room - little knickknacks that were his.
He was a surprising reader.
Some comic books and graphic novels - stories that inspire him.
A clean desk with everything he might need to write a letter.
He also had some strange-looking keys tossed carelessly, next to a leather wallet.
A closet full of clothes, and the best part, a couple of small plants that seemed well taken care of.
There wasn't much - but it was his.
I didn't know why I was crying - were they happy tears?
I wasn't sure.
How could I be so cold - he used the word husband.
And we technically were.
I had agreed to it - and we had gotten married.
Nuptials - how could I not see it before?
I had rapidly and hastily agreed to form a marriage bond with him - except this world gave it a different name.
Inamorato
Still rings of a word of love.
I'm not sure how I feel about this.
I'm not sure if I was okay with this.
I saw my wedding differently in a past life maybe.
Arslan also seemed quite needy in filling that contract.
Alas - what's done is done.
I married a guy - just because he has muscles.