Chapter 198: Meetings, So Many Meetings

As the dreadful thoughts of the equally dreadful deeds I will have to commit settles into my head, I lose my vitality.

Not long after, I feel his eyes on me.

"Is...something wrong?" His questions almost melts my heart.

Time and time again, I'm reminded how he feels for me.

He loves me just as much as I love him, which is why...I find myself...hurting.

"Do you..." I clench my fists, as I find this question hard to spit out. "Do you...really forgive me?" I ask, keeping my gaze steady on the table.

The answer should be obvious, but I want to hear him say it.

Probably stupid of me as...the prospect of a different, unexpected response looms on the horizon as a possible answer 

And the quiet filling my ears doesn't help.

"My...my feelings for you is, no longer a secret I should assume. And, you know it's because of those feelings I've...been distancing myself from you."