Chapter Thirty-Eight: Stepping-Stone

THE SAME OLD, SAME OLD WAS HAPPENING in the Karasuno photography club. Wada Katski and Ito Miki were arguing, not surprising. It had started with Shimada telling the club about the finishing touches for the set up and layout for the gallery that was about an hour away from starting. Then Wada had made a suggestion, one that Ito disagreed with, and then the bickering ensued. 

Sakura had already tuned the pair out as she's gotten used to it by now. Besides she had her own internal debate to deal with right now. When she had first been given the topic for this gallery, there was an instant idea that popped into her head. Who did she really find inspiration? Who did she see as her hero? That was obviously her brother. People might think that it was cute for her to think of her twin brother as her hero and looked up(more like down) to him and his passions. Though after their fight, after her own realization, she found herself seeing that her constant need to have him a part of every aspect of her life and vice versa was not too healthy. 

It left quite a bit of a bitter taste in her mouth, if she were to be honest. She was obviously going to keep this topic for her entry into the gallery. It was too late for her to change it. Though it wasn't like she really wanted to. Even if they had this fight, it didn't mean she didn't value him any less.

If anything, she was using this moment as a stepping stone, at least in her eyes. One of the last odes to her brother before she finally goes all in on finding who she is as a person. A dedication to him, going to the Tokyo practice camp as her one last volleyball adventure for them both also being a part of that. Perhaps she should have said that she wasn't going to go. Just like the last training camp, she didn't really think that there was a need for her to be there. Getting a few photos would be nice, but she didn't have to be there the entire time.

That was something she usually wondered about. Why Ukai and Takeda let her tag along for so long. It wasn't like she was a manager or anything. She didn't provide all too much, in her eyes, to the team besides helping Yachi and Kiyoko with some managerial stuff. Perhaps she made some comments about the guys and how they played, but nothing more. Maybe they had her there because she was a good way to reign in her brother and Kageyama sometimes. Whatever the reason is, she didn't really care. She got the opportunity to be with her brother, and she was grateful for that. Though she certainly wouldn't be asking to go along after this one. Doubt she'd really be missed, she might miss getting to see Kiyoko and the others she tolerated most days, but it would have to happen. The real question was whether she would miss it herself.

Just as Sakura was going to continue over-thinking things about her and her brother, it seemed like the bickering that had been happening in the background had suddenly become nonexistent. Looming over the once arguing pair, the angelic Mori was giving them a closed-eyed smile. Quite a menacing aura surrounding her and stealing the breath from the others in the room. 

"I think that the layout would look better with Yokoyama placed here, Ito, Shimada, Wada, Hinata and myself." She gave them all an angelic smile that had an edge to it. Despite giving them a pleasant expression, they all knew that she was daring any of them to speak up again. A silent threat that no one wanted to see her make a promise. It caused them all to shiver, even Sakura who never really gets scared by anything.

Shimada clapped her hands loudly, causing the others to jump, "well, with that settled, we should get these to the art club too. Wada take these to them, please."

The boy pouted, "Oh, why me?" Though he did just take the papers from her without saying anything else.

"Because you annoyed me the most, now let's go!" Wada, sulking just a little bit, but doing as he was told. As he left, Ito stuck her tongue out at him, just being as childish as possible. Shimada then spun to scold her, "Ito! Stop antagonizing him! Now you and Yokoyama make sure that the displays are all set."

Yokoyama stood up and saluted, "yes, ma'am." So they grabbed Ito and started to drag her away to do as they were told. All the while, the mousy second-year was complaining about Wada as they went. Though after the two start going, it's normal for Ito to start whining about him.

So that left Shimada, Mori and Sakura in the club room. With most of the preparations more or less done, besides some odds and ends that have to be taken care of, things were going smoothly as usual. That meant that the president and vice-president could relax. So while the others were tying up those loose ends, Shimada took this as an opportunity to slide over to Sakura.

"So are you excited?" She asked the younger girl, "Last time you were obviously quite anxious about it, so you must have gotten over your nerves this time!"

Sakura pursed her lips, "That's not entirely how it works. But I am less nervous this time." The initial fear of showing others her work was more or less overcome last time. She had grown confident enough in herself and her photography to be in the gallery. So it certainly wasn't like she was going to be nervous about it this time.

"Great!" Shimada smiled, nearly jumping for joy. Obviously, she was happy for her underclassmen and her getting over her nerves. The last thing that she would want is for Sakura to end up as nervous as she was last time. "You'll definitely enjoy this one more, I think."

She shrugged her shoulders, "maybe." Though she knew that Shimada was right. However, she wouldn't want to admit that Shimada was right to her face, that would just cause the older girl's ego to grow bigger. Sakura definitely doesn't need that, in her opinion.

Shimada nodded her head, content with her underclassmen's lack of nerves over this. "I'm gonna finish up anything and make sure the set up is the right way." With a short pat on Sakura's head, Shimada skipped out of the room to supervise anything that she could find to keep herself occupied.

"Are you sure you're okay?" Mori's angelic voice asked, now that it was just her and Sakura in the room. She sat down on the chair in front of Sakura with a slightly apprehensive, yet encouraging, expression on her porcelain face. "I know that your subject is probably going to be a bit… awkward to talk about."

Sakura thought for a moment, really trying to think about this. Yes, the subject of her photos, her hero, really was going to be awkward to talk about. Even more so if he did actually show up to the gallery. It certainly was a thought that had crossed her mind. More like it hadn't really left her mind all too much. She cleared her throat, "I'm more than happy with who I chose as my hero. It's not like I could lie to myself about who I have viewed as my hero for basically my entire life, you know." She drummed her fingers on the table in front of her. "My hero has always been my brother. He's resilient and stubborn, determined and certainly never one to back down from a challenge. He's also quite an idiot, but he has his moments."

Mori gave her a sweet smile, "having a brother you admire is adorable, you know." There are times that Mori wished that she had siblings. Younger or older, brother or sister, it didn't matter to her. Though she then hears some stories about her friends and their siblings that makes her glad to not have one. Still doesn't stop her from thinking about what it would be like.

She supposed that she could see her closest friends as siblings. Shimada was very much a sister to her, since they had joined the photography club in their first-year. The others who have come and gone in their little club held a place in her heart. She values her friends as much as she would family. Sakura certainly was a part of that sentiment too, even if they weren't that close with each other. Mori was more than aware that Sakura liked to keep to herself, only opening up every once in a while. Shimada had really taken the younger girl under her wing, and Sakura really confided in her the most. So attempting to have a bit of a heart-to-heart with her, Mori figured that it was going to be a bit more difficult than with others. Though it was going pretty well for the time being.

Sakura blushed at her words, "Well, it's not like he's actually going to come to see it."

There was a bitter undertone to her words. One that she wasn't sure if she wanted to admit to. Either way she could still taste how sour her mood and words were. It definitely wasn't pleasant. She did want her brother to be there for her, to support her in the same way that she has supported him. He has encouraged her and been to the first gallery, but who knew if he was going to be at this one. They hadn't been talking to each other, at least the way that they usually have. So there was no telling if he would come to this. Sakura really hoped he did, even if she was still a bit annoyed with him.

Mori nodded her head, "Still, whether he's there or not, you're going to do amazing. He should be proud of you regardless."

It wasn't necessarily about if Sakura thought her brother was going to be proud of her or not. She is more than assured in the idea that no matter what argument or disagreement that the two could be in they would never stop supporting each other. No matter what he might say to her, or vice-versa, they would help each other achieve their goal. This misunderstanding wasn't going to stop them from being family. They really just needed a moment. Though that didn't mean it didn't hurt any less. 

So this was that moment, a stepping-stone for both of the teens to skip their way onto a new chapter of their lives. A time where they could develop themselves in the right way as individuals. It could be hard right now, however, it certainly would have some happy outcomes at some point. 

Sakura let out a heavy sigh, "I just figured… This is a point that we can move onto a new point in our life. After this and the Tokyo camp, I think it's best that Shōyō and I… do our own things. Actually, do our own things."

"A good step forward." Mori cheered her on. While she didn't completely know how Sakura was feeling about this or her brother, she really hoped that this was a good thing for the both of them. The last thing that they would need is for something like this to just hurt them further. Mori didn't want to see her good friend hurt or worse because of the relationship with her brother deteriorating further.

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Tsukishima shouldn't be here. Really he shouldn't. Whatever had possessed him to walk towards the commotion by the art club, was completely unknown to him. He already knew what was going on there, since he had been here for the last gallery that they had. Though that time he didn't really have a choice. The entire team had wanted to go, and Yamaguchi had asked him to come with. Of course, he went.

Perhaps that was due to his own curiosity. He had wanted to see what Sakura had done, and how he could bully her for it. Then again, his mind flashed to the last gallery when he tried to do the same thing.

 He wasn't exactly expecting her to stand up for herself. It kind of annoyed him. He couldn't really get too much of a good gauge on what she was about. Yes, he knew that she was protective of her brother, that she would stand up for him no matter what. However, after having her stare him down and tell him that she was confident in herself and her work definitely threw a wrench in his mind. He thought that she would be an easy target, much like her brother, and he hates that she's quite the enigma.

So maybe it was his curiosity gnawing at him again, or some sadistic part of his mind that wanted to try and bully her again. Still there was a smarter part of his mind yelling that it really wasn't going to work. So why the hell was he peaking at the exhibits that people were gushing about?

As usual, there weren't all too many people at the gallery, but that didn't mean any of the students were less than excited. Art students were explaining their work to others, enthusiastic to show off their work. Just about everyone was more than happy to explain their work and process to anyone who was willing to listen. The only one who seemed to be not as enthusiastic was Sakura. 

He watched as she talked a bit to an eccentric third-year next to her. If he remembered correctly, that was Shimada-senpai, the president of the photography club. He doesn't know much about the older girl, never really caring to know about anyone in this club. Then again, he could care less to know about anyone else that he didn't deem necessary. Hell, if he didn't have to know most of his team, he knows his life would be easier.

He did his best to spy into the room and see her work. Not wanting to be seen by her and questioned why he was there, he needed to make sure that she wouldn't see him. The last thing he needs is her smug face looking up at him because he was caught.

He rolled his eyes when he saw the few shots that she was displaying. Her brother. Of course they were of him. Who else would they be about? Apparently there was something about Heroes for this gallery's theme. Not that he was really paying too much attention. Though it didn't surprise him that it was her brother that she used for her hero. Everything in her life was about him, so why would this be any different?

"Why don't you go in?"

Tsukishima jumped a bit at the sudden voice next to him. He certainly wouldn't admit it but it nearly gave him a heart attack. Perhaps he was too stuck in his own head to realize anyone could walk up on him. He turned to see that it was Yamaguchi.

The green-haired boy smiled at him and asked again, "Do you want to go in?"

Tsukishima grunted and turned away from his friend, "No." He could see Yamaguchi's expression and didn't like it all too much. It seemed like he was going to tease him about something, and it bothered him.

"I'm sure Sakura would be glad to see people she knows coming to see her work!"

Tsukishima scoffed, "I'm not here to see whatever she's done."

Yamaguchi blinked, a tad bit confused, "so why are you standing out here like a creep?"

"I'm not being a creep!"

"So you're just watching Sakura from afar for…?" He raised an eyebrow, proving his point that Tsukishima was being a bit creepy.

"She's annoying," Tsukishima clicked his tongue. 

His friend gave him a look, one that frustrated Tsukishima. Yamaguchi pursed his lips, "That isn't an answer."

He huffed harshly trying to say the right thing. "I don't get how she's able to annoy me so much. Her idiotic brother is easy to read… But I can't understand her." Even after being around her for a few months, he still hasn't come up with exactly how she worked. She got into 

Yamaguchi tilted his head, "So you came here to understand her?"

Had he come here because of that? Then again what was he going to understand from her by watching her from outside? "It just felt strange that she wasn't at the practices."

His friend's eyes widened, "Have you been missing her?"

Tsukishima glared at him though he didn't say anything. No. He wasn't missing her. What was there to miss?! Though if he did go in, she would undoubtedly pester him about him showing up. Tsukishima didn't want to have to explain himself since he wasn't even sure why he was there. Sakura got under his skin in a way that no one else has. Tsukishima sees most people as idiots, especially the likes on his team. However, Sakura wasn't really an idiot. He could admit that she was smart, perhaps as smart as him, though he couldn't pinpoint why she was just… different.

"Well," Yamaguchi said, breaking Tsukishima from his thoughts, "I'm going to go and say hi to her. If you want to keep admiring her from afar, you can."

Tsukishima jumped at the implication, "Yamaguchi."

"Sorry, Tsukki." Though with the tone of voice and teasing smile on his lips, Yamaguchi didn't seem to actually be apologizing. He seemed to be happy in this moment to tease his friend, which he rarely ever gets to do. Though he knows just how funny Tsukishima can get sometimes about Sakura. There was an inkling that Yamaguchi had a feeling as to why. Though he was going to leave it alone for the time being, since he isn't even sure.

Tsukishima was then left to stew with his own thoughts. He watched as Yamaguchi walked up to Sakura, and the two shared some smiles as they talked about the gallery. The way that Sakura's face brightened at the sight of her friend didn't sit right in Tsukishima's head, and he wasn't sure why. 

Perhaps he was envious. Sakura had a great relationship with her brother, if not a bit too good. Was that something he wanted? Was that why his chest was tight when he thought about her smirk and narrowed eyes? Not that he should care. He gritted his teeth before marching off. Tsuikishima didn't need to worry about this. It would just annoy him further. Though it wasn't like she left his mind right away. She lingered behind in his mind and he hated that. She really was annoying him.

While on the court, Tsukishima knew that he couldn't compare himself to Shōyō. That little ball of sunshine was the star of the court, while Tsukishima was just a stand in until Shōyō was needed again. However, when he found out about Sakura, he had thought that he could say that he was better than her. She wasn't athletic, so he could say that he had that over her. Academic-wise, they were more or less on the same level. However, after at least figuring out that she was insecure about her photography, he felt gratification to know he could bully her for it. Maybe it was wrong of him, he only ever really did it to take his frustrations about her brother out on her. Though he didn't care. Why would he? Though after time has passed and he's had a moment of time without her snarky remarks in the gym… he missed it. And he couldn't put his finger on why…

Elsewhere, also doing his best to go unnoticed, a certain decoy was hiding amongst the small crowd in the gallery. He thanked his height at this moment as he was able to keep himself from being spotted by his sister. He had wanted to come here to see what she did since she had been excited the last time they properly talked. 

Shōyō knew the theme of the gallery. How serious Sakura took these topics to heart and how important they were. He wasn't going to miss out on it, even if they weren't exactly on talking terms. He is always excited to see her happy about her work, so why would he miss out on this? Though it certainly warmed his heart, yet struck his chest with a wave of guilt, as he saw the photos that she had taken of him.

He knew that Sakura looked up to him. As she should, in his mind. He's the big brother, so he wants to be a hero for both of his sisters. To make sure that they are safe and happy was one of his greatest goals in life. Of course, he had his personal journey to become the next Little Giant, however, his family also came first. 

Their argument was taking a toll on him. Shōyō had been reflecting on their childhood most of the time. Wrapping his head around what Sakura had said about wanting to be her own person seemed to be a bit more difficult than he thought. Their whole life, he thought that Sakura was happy. He thought that she was content with how they were never really apart. How bad of a brother is he to not have seen that?

Though after this, he was going to try. He wanted to try to completely understand what Sakura was feeling, how he could help her, and what they would do going forward. Sure, he doesn't really see her issue all too much, but he wants to. Shōyō wants to listen to her and see where things went wrong. Maybe then she wouldn't want to abandon him. So with the last fleeting look at his sister as she talked happily with Yamaguchi, Shōyō headed to find his bike. He had to head home to get ready for their trip for the camp. After tomorrow, he definitely was going to do what he could to make sure that Sakura really was okay.