Disaster as a project.

How can you reject someone who you must be with for a long time?

Well that's what I've been wondering about for a long time now, and what's even worse is that I can't even do anything "harsh" or else I will end up doing that project alone.

The project which is the source of all of my current problems.

I hate the way I have to act.

Ever since that dumb project has been given to us Hyungwon has been ruining my days with his annoying texts.

He acts like we have something else going on between us besides a project we must do.

Hah, keep dreaming Hyungwon.

And today my execution came because I will also have to meet him since we sadly can't magically put the project together without meeting and talking about what we should include etc.

I knew this will be a pretty hard day, as throughout the whole time we were in school he couldn't be removed from anywhere near me, it was like he's glued to me.

I swear to God I never in my life got so many weird stares and even Aiden has noticed that we literally spent the day with each other.

I could see him put me in the "people I will never talk to" category.

Like I had a choice.

Believe me I also don't want to feel the presence of some try hard gangster.

The time where I actually had to tell him off was when he decided to follow me to my practice?!

I mean as ridiculous as it sounds he definitely has no boundaries.

After I told him to go home or do whatever he wants, he left me with saying "Whatever you want babe."

I got goosebumps from that and it wasn't a nice feeling, it was more of a disgusted expression I let out after hearing him.

I wasn't surprised when Hyeri didn't stand up for me.

She has a huge crush on this guy too, but the main crush of hers is still Aiden, so I guess deep down she's hating me in a way.

Like I wanted this all to happen, why does everyone think I need all this in my life?

I finished my practice, went home and got ready to go to his house both mentally and physically.

I brought some stuff with myself, thinking that It is nearly impossible to have such things as highlighters, or even any books when it's already rare if he even has a bag with him in school.

As I knocked on the door he gave me the address to I got more and more nervous.

I had a very bad feeling about this. At this point I just can't figure his intentions out,

and I think that maybe I should have been more careful and we should have gone to a public space instead of his house...

Does the author hate me this much? I guess so,

because as I got bored of waiting and turned around to go away and give up I heard the front door open.

Something died in me at this saint moment.

-Ohh, Yunseo, you actually came!- his annoying voice hurts my ears, but I have to bare with it for a while.

I still don't like how he enjoys this whole thing so much.

Then let's start this nightmare and get over it as soon as possible..

-Yeah. Seems like that.- I said with the most awkward smile I have. I can't act mean unless I want to do everything alone. Yet I'm still unsure about how he could help though.

I just honestly don't like this guy. He drinks like an alcoholic, constantly makes parties and always has some girls over.

For example he has me over right now...

At least this time I can definitely state nothing will happen besides studying.

I hate this whole situation, the more I think about it the worse it gets, so I should quit thinking..

I got inside, and to my surprise it was a pretty average family house.

I imagined it to be some horrible place with all those parties and things that have happened there.

It was full of family pictures, and I actually somewhat calmed down after seeing I'm not inside a jail cell.

I guess his parents might not even know what kind of a song they have, I'm sure most parents would be a bit ashamed..

Or at least mine would be, or would they? I barely know anything about them or my own life.

I actually wrote some more in my diary, and it has been helping me sometimes, when I read it back I know what I actually did in a day.

Before doing anything he asked me.

"Are you thirsty?" The way he stared into my soul was pretty awkward.

I kindly refused stating "I'm fine without it, but thanks anyway."

He asked again just to make sure, but no way will I accept anything from him.

Just because he wasn't acting like his usual self for a minute or so, I won't drop my guards down.

And I still couldn't figure out what the creator wants with this whole thing, so It's better to be aware of my surroundings.

We got into his room and then got ready with the things we might need for the project.

Which basically meant that I packed out everything while he was staring at me like he has never seen any girls in his whole lifetime.

"What's up with you?" I asked since he wouldn't stop even after I finished packing out everything.

"Nothing, just staring at a hot chick".

My jaw literally dropped six feet under the ground because I know damn well he didn't just say that, like I'm some paid service girl.

I told him to shut his mouth right now as my last and final warning, which he actually took to my surprise.

This will be a long ride, a really long one.

And before I actually go to jail sooner than him because of his dumb comments he feels mandatory to make, I should take some really deep breaths.