After a long silence, she slowly began, "Jian, do you know? If it hadn't been for him, many things would have ended right at the beginning."
"I know!"
Jian's voice had a hidden sob, "He was not like this before, Karen, you have no idea how much pain he has suffered over the years."
Musheng choked, but ultimately she did not voice the words "I don't want to know."
"I know he did many things that are hard for you to accept, but he didn't set out to do them. All these years, his only goal was to recreate the genetic element to save himself, he had his dire reasons!"
"So I should feel sympathy for him?" Musheng's eyebrows furrowed deeply, "I know what you're trying to say, that all these years he watched me grow splendidly in secret, watched all of my glorious achievements, saw his own paralyzed legs, knowing he would never reach where I have. That's why he couldn't bear it, and became what he is today? But have you ever thought, Jian, that none of this is my doing!"