Chapter 16 - Bonding

Esme's POVHe's standing there with his hands at his sides waiting for me to either accept or reject him. My heart and head know exactly what it's going to do but I wanted to keep him waiting a moment longer just to see if he's serious.I can hear everyone at the door which means his heart must be beating loudly for him to not know that they're there.I start by looking at him in the eyes and I can see many emotions in his eyes."I, Esme west of the waterside pack, soon to be mid-night Pack. Accept you, Alpha Jaxon from the midnight pack to be Your Mate and your Luna"His face lights up like he's just Won a toy at the carnival and I can't help but smile at him. He doesn't move but I can hear Blaze in my mind. He and Alana are getting on pretty smoothly so to say we only just accepted each other.He's just about to move when my door gets swung open and there is his mom and dad, Charlie (his brother) Hunter who is his best friend and my best friend/brother all standing there smiling and clapping.His mom rushes in and gives us both a big hug and his dad claps him on his shoulder and gives me a fatherly hug while my brother and the others walk in, talking and laughing.It's 8:30 pm and everyone's left. Alana doesn't want us to sleep alone tonight but I'm extremely nervous to ask him if I can stay with him." You want to come back to my room and continue eating food and watching The Vampire Diaries?" He asks pulling me in for a hug. The big build and muscles that ripple through his clothes and his 6ft 3 height make my 5 ft something seem tiny in comparison."Is that okay?" I ask him while beating myself up internally."Course it is beautiful."I think he wants me to get used to this first because we walk out but he doesn't try to do anything we just start walking side by side.I nervously reach out and go to lock my hand in his. He's quick to lace our fingers together and we walk back to his room in comfortable silence."You get yourself comfy on the bed I'm just going to get us a cup of tea okay""Okay," I say back. It's the only word I know that doesn't make me sound like a complete idiot when I talk.Not 15 minutes later he's walking back in with 2 cups of tea and another bag of popcorn in between his teeth."Thank you," I say to him. The sparks of his touches send electric volts through my body and it feels so good.We press play on the TV and we get comfortable on the bed. Over the last week or so we have been spending a lot of time together but I still feel awkward. I want to feel like I can be myself but I don't want to in the way or make him mad.After a few episodes of The Vampire Diaries, I ask him if we can watch it together as our thing and he's quick to agree. He secretly loves Stefan...but then again who doesn't..." You ready for sleep" he asks me. I take that as my cue to leave."I suppose I am. Thank you for tonight it's been lovely. I'll see myself out" I say with a smile on my face. My first genuine smile in a long time and it feels great."Or... you could stay here...with me?" I turn around and look at him quite shocked that he asked me to be honest."I'd like that" I tell him. "Can I nip back to my room so I can get a shower and grab some clothes?""You don't need to ask beautiful. Just tell me"I'm back in my room and my heart is beating so loudly that I think even Finn down the hall can hear it.10 minutes later:I've just got out of the shower and I've got into my tracksuit bottoms, a baggy top for bed and some fluffy socks. I'm on my way back to his room feeling giddy like a 12-year-old girl whose crush has just noticed her for the first time and it feels great.I knock on his door but he doesn't answer. So I decided to mind-link him now that I can."Hey, are you in your room? I'm outside and I did knock"He replies almost instantly."Just come on in I won't be long. Just in the shower" he says.I walk in and I head to the window where I can see for miles. I see mainly forests and fields but it's a beautiful site, to say the least."You alright over there beautiful" comes my mate's voice. I turn around and his longish hair is damp from his shower and he's in some shorts and a top that gathers his muscles in all the right places."I'm okay Thankyou." I walk over to the bed but before I get there he's stood in front of me. I have butterflies in my stomach and my heart is beating loudly. He's got one hand on my neck and the other hand on my waist and I can't say I'm not enjoying it because I am."Can I kiss you"Real gentle. This big bad alpha wolf who is as hard as nails and has the aura to command 500+ people has a heart of gold and is a gentle giant towards me."Hmmhmm" is all I can say. I've never done this before I don't know where my hands are supposed to go or what I'm supposed to do. Before he kisses me I pull away for a second."What's wrong princess""I've never done this before. I don't want to ruin it""I'm glad you haven't. It means the first set of lips on yours is mine and I'm so fucking grateful for it"He leans down and he is mere inches away from my lips and my legs are like jelly right now. Thankful for his grip on me."You are beautiful you know that right"I don't say anything else but I pull him forward to kiss me already. Something is happening to me between my legs and it's a feeling I have never had before. He kisses me so passionately that I forget about how shit my life has been and I put my all into this kiss with him."I can smell your arousal from up here"He just had to tell me that didn't he?"I'm sorry"I forgot that wolves have a super strong sense of smell."No baby. Don't apologise it smells so good."We finally get in the bed and I'm laying there not knowing what to do I want to kiss him again and I want to feel him on me but I'm too scared. His scent is Wafting through my nose and it's like he has the ability to see my thoughts.He leans over and his hands are wrapped around my leg pulling it towards him and his lips have met with my neck. Right in the spot where the mating mark will be and I'm lifting my head to give him further access to my neck."Are you okay princess?" He asks me while near enough on top of me. We've managed to get entangled in the bed and I've somehow managed to remove his top while kissing him."I'm good. I've just never had this before and I'm scared about it""You don't need to do anything, baby. You tell me what you want and we will do it. If you want to stop I will stop if you want to just kiss we will just do that okay? There's no rush"" I want you. You've seen me at my weakest and I'm now getting stronger thanks to you and your family. I want you.""Are you sure?""I'm sure"He leans back down and is instantly kissing my lips with full confidence and passion and I'm genuinely happy. He removes my top and I'm left in just my trousers and underwear as I didn't have a bra on.My boobs aren't small but they are big either they are a decent size I believe."Your fucking beautiful Esme"He's kissing down my neck, past my marking spot and is holding my boobs with his teeth, he's gripping hold of my waist above my trousers and my body is certainly reacting to his touches.He asks me again if I want this and I do. I truly do want him."Esme I have to be honest with you here""What's wrong? Did I do something?"He chuckles and leans back over me and whispers in my ear."You're my first too""Your...first..?""Yes. I wanted to wait until I found my mate to do this"He had me there. He's a beautiful man and I could imagine a long line of girls wanting him."I've kissed girls before and I've had girlfriends but I never went this far with anyone. I didn't want to""Are you sure you want me though""100% princess"