Comfort

(Asaka Point of View)

When I am waiting for the meat to thaw so I can make seasoning while I cook the meat. It took me far too long just to decide to have tacos tonight for dinner. Nothing else really sounds good and I already have Frey going to the store for me. They said that they can't stay but they did want to see Lev before she leaves. I wonder if the two lions can have some kind of play date. I know they are far apart in age but it might be good for Lev to have an adult lion that he can play with. If Frey's lion will play with him that is. I do believe the lion's name is… 

I am taken out of my thoughts with a text message. I look down at my phone and it's from Abaddon telling me to come into the living room. I do have time to so might as well. I walk into the living room and I see my darling shaking a bit as he cries. I hear the last thing that he says "I hate the fact that I am thinking about death now more than I did when I was suicidal." Did I do that? Am I the reason he is thinking about death now?

I walk up to him and I hug him. I never wanted to do that to him. "I'm sorry. I never wanted that to happen. "

I feel him hug me back. I feel so bad that I did that to him. That was never my goal. "I'm scared." His voice is so quiet. I hold him tighter. I scared him. I didn't want to scare him. I knew this was going to happen and yet it hurts. I hate that I did this to him. 

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen like this." I hold him close to me. I can't believe that I had this effect on him.

"I'm just scared that I could die or how many times I almost died."

"Don't worry darling. I will make sure no one hurts you. No one is going to take you away from me. No one is going to get close to you. I will kill them if they do and I know you know I am telling the truth. You have seen me do it." I'm not going to hide what I will do for him. I have no reason to. He knows the truth so he should know the full truth. I should tell him fully how I feel. 

"Thank you." He still sounds so quiet but not as scared.

"How about we do something together until it's closer to dinner time?"

He nods his head. "Can I ask you some questions?"

I should have expected this. I can imagine that there is a lot on his mind that he wants to ask me and he has a lot of questions that he wants answered. "Go ahead. I will answer anything you ask."

He nods his head. "How long have you been in the mafia?"

"Since I was 16. I killed my father since I am the oldest and some rule my father had in his will, I was in charge. I didn't know about it so it took me a year or two to get a handle on it and I was still in school."

"Alright. That also answered my next question. Do you like being in the mafia?"

I'm glad that I answered his next question as well but this is a bit hard to answer. I guess I will just have to try my best. "Yes and no. I am used to it now but at first, I hated it. I like the power and resources that I get and I try to stay moral. I don't bring anyone from outside of the mafia in. People have to come to us. Anyone that does things like sex trafficking I can stop, which is nice but once I was part of the sex trafficking, which I hated. I also have a lot of people that want me dead. I have learned a lot as well. I do have several ways of income but I mainly keep my money as cash, it's easier and I don't trust the government. I have learned a lot of sneaky things that the government does." I think that covered it all. I don't really think about this a lot.

I can see he is a bit surprised. "I have heard a lot about what the mafia does and I thought yours was like that as well."

"Well, my mafia doesn't really exist so almost no one knows about mine other than other mafias. That was the first thing I did, which made everything easier. My men still get caught but they have nothing on us so we are let out. It makes it easier and a while ago when we had a lot of men caught, they were let go so I wasn't worried about it. Plus, every mafia is a bit different in what they do, how they do it, why they do it, and their men. I know one mafia that is just women. Wait, where have you heard about other mafias?" Now that I think about what he said, it is a bit off. I have never seen him be big in the news and even if he was, the mafias around here aren't in the news a lot. There isn't a lot. Just mine and two others but they are still a bit away. Also, when other maifa come to make deals, they do their best to make sure they aren't known.

"I hear a lot of things from being a bartender. A lot of people confess things when they are drunk or even tipsy. People loosen up when alcohol is in their system." 

Oh. I didn't think about that. There were a lot of criminals that went there so that makes sense. I guess that's why he is so calm, he is used to being around criminals all day. I go to replay when I hear the doorbell go off.