Wendigo's Notebook: Hunger Pains

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Date: 04/12/XX

Today is my birthday and I have received a notebook, how quant. I shall be turning 18 this year. Mother and Father want me to go camping with Olen. I don't know why they want me to go camping with him. It seems pointless to go camping with him. I suppose mother and Father want me to spend more time withy my little brother, yet... He worries to much about me, it gets annoying. 

He goes on and on about how I should eat more. Granted, I don't eat much, but what's the point in it if I'm not hungry? No matter I suppose. We shall see where time takes us.

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Date: 10/12/XX

We have been lost for seven? No, five days. I'm beginning to feel hungry. Olen wanted us to explore more, but even though I warned him we'd get lost, I still listened. I wish I hadn't listen to him. I swear, if we stay out here any longer, I'll eat him. I jest of course. As much as he annoys me, I still do love him... Though the hunger pains might drive me mad at this point. I only hope help comes soon. I heard a rumour monsters live in these woods. 

I am far to rich and beautiful to die like this. But help will come. I'm sure of it.

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Date: No clue at this point.

Olen and I are starving. We can't go on much more. We've barely survived on dead animal carcasses and berries... Everything hurts. Olen continues to try and keep my spirits high, but they are dwindling faster then kindling sparks... I just want something warm... I just want to feel full again.

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Date: 

Olen... Olen didn't make it. It has been snowing as of late, and he didn't make it through the night. I only have a fire to keep me going... His body lies here with me, yet I am unable to look at it. All I feel is hunger when I see it. I just want to go home... This is probably a nightmare. Their isn't a god cruel enough to leave me to starve to death alone, right?

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Date: Who cares anymore.

I don't know how long I have been in these woods... I don't think I'm human anymore. I don't think Mother and Father are alive either. I just feel hungry. It's all I feel. I hate it. I just want to feel full again. It's been so long.

I smell something. 

page 451

Human, Harpy, Oni, Lamia, Gorgon, Minotaur, Demi human, fury, ghoul, cyclops, giant, angel, demon, dragon, kobold, orc, goblin, troll, Pooka, fairy, pixie, I've tried them all. Each are rich in flavour. But none taste good anymore. I want to rest. But I can't. I just want more.

Page 500

I think the world has ended, nothing but ruined land. I see a church. I miss those. I miss holy flesh. 

Page 501

They let me stay in their city. They let me eat. They don't run in fear. I still feel hungry. But I get to rest... I like this place.

Page 550

Date: 04/12/XX

It appears I have become a Domain Leader along with the other candidate Tophi Lollicore. He is a rather humorous one. I've known him for about a year now... I see it as almost pointless to keep this old thing. It is just a document of my madness. But I'm happy now. I suppose the Rat was right, maybe I just needed to find someone who got me.

Tophi says he grew up broke, starving for meals. Yet, he didn't ever eat someone close to him. A shame really. I suppose immortality has it's ups and downs. I haven't been a mindless beast in a while, so I suppose that counts for something. 

Panila says that I'm allowed to serve up criminals on death row now, a wise decision for a wise leader. I think I met her mother once? Who remembers. Not me, and certainly not her. But thinking on mothers... I wonder if my family knew what would happen out there that day. 

I think they just wanted to get rid of us, or maybe it was jus bad luck. But I figured out that mortality comes through ones heart. If I truly feel guilt over a kill, I just have to self actualize what I truly want my body to do. That is my heart.

To Olen

I am sorry.