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Perhaps after ten years of hard work, he could catch up with his sister's current footsteps, but at that time, she had no idea how far she had traveled.
The same performance performed by a ten-year-old child is completely different from that performed by a twenty-year-old adult.
In fact, from this moment on, Liang has been shrouded in the shadow of "genius". When he raises his head, he can only see the corners of his clothes and the footprints left behind.
Naturally, they regard the loved ones on the road ahead as role models and pursue a futile pursuit in vain.
Children who are still young have to rely on the simple concept of surpassing someone to move forward. Maybe they just want to gain the recognition of others at the beginning, but gradually they move forward and actually forget the original purpose.
I want to surpass her and catch up with her.
Then what...
have no idea.
Then why would such a goal be set?
Because maybe at this time, I already know that I will never surpass the other person.
Those who walk along the path of others cannot really surpass them even if they catch up with them one day.
Because if the other party stops, he himself will be at a loss and stagnant.
Walking on the road that the other person has walked is also staying in a twisted comfort zone.
If you get used to walking, you won't be able to move forward on your own.
It wasn't until Qiu committed suicide on the stage that Liang understood these things.
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As the city's most famous child star, Qiu's most iconic role is the heroine "Ophelia" in "Hamlet". Every audience who has watched her performance will be amazed by her interpretation of death, the image of drowning in a river of flowers. Always impresses.
So when the other party actually swallowed the poison and lay there quietly without getting up for a long time, most of the audience just thought it was a performance.
"Hey, Liang, where did my Qiu go?"
Since Qiu's death, his father's state has become very strange. He drinks at home all day and night, or spends a lot of money in the casino.
"Where did that child go? Where did my pride, my hard work, my masterpiece go?"
He drank heavily, and the wine dripped down his lips and spread everywhere. He seemed to have suddenly aged, and there were more wrinkles on his face. He was no longer as free and unrestrained as before, obviously. He was just a man in his forties, but now he looked like an old man waiting for death.
"Father..."
Liang collected the vomit and garbage on the ground and spoke in a low voice.
Mother and Firefly hid in the room and did not dare to come out.
Hearing Liang's voice, his father threw an empty bottle on the ground in annoyance. Because of the carpet, the bottle just rolled twice and rolled under the sofa.
"Ah, why can't you change with Qiu? Why can't you die in her place?"
"Hey, Ryo, do you know that compared to your sister, your acting skills are so bad that I can't stand you."
"I knew this from the beginning, so when you were training as children, you only played her supporting roles, ha, supporting roles."
While his father would scold Liang, he would also start to fantasize about the days when Qi Liang was still around. Those were the days when the Beichuan family was at its peak, and it was also the peak of his father's fame.
"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...It's obviously because of my training that she can become like that."
"Why why why why why!"
My father's eyes were blurred, and he would cry and laugh until he was exhausted before falling asleep, and then snoring like thunder.
Two months later, my mother left the Beichuan family in the snowy winter.
Less than two years later, their father also left Ryo and Hotaru without a trace.
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"Oh, I remembered. He must be the old man with the long beard. I remember he often came to our house."
In front of the hospital bed, Liang was carefully peeling an apple for Yingying, and Yingying also clapped her hands and remembered what happened at that time:
"But that time was a long time ago, when my sister was still here."
After speaking out, Yingying suddenly realized that she seemed to have said something bad. She quickly covered her mouth and secretly watched her brother's reaction.
"It's been a long time indeed. Eat."
Liang didn't show any strange expression. He handed the bare apple to Ying. He didn't mind it either. He threw the bunch of apple peels into his mouth and chewed it. Fruits are not cheap.
"oh."
Eating the apple in small bites like a little hamster, Hotaru kept stealing glances at Ryo's side face:
"Actually, the past is in the past, so you don't have to worry about it, brother."
Hearing his sister, who was two years younger than him, preach in such an adult tone, Liang shook his head in amusement.
Of course he knew that Yingying was afraid that he would take the blame for the collapse of the family on himself. After all, if Liang was as good as Qiu, the Kitagawa family wouldn't be left with only their brother and sister in the corner of the city. Life.
"Actually, I thought about following in her footsteps and continuing on the path of drama."
"But later I realized that this doesn't work. Everyone has their own way."
"Except for the geniuses at the top and the idiots at the bottom, everyone in the world is more than above or below."
"Although it may sound like a cop-out, getting your own approval is more important."
Ryo told his sister what he thought.
"And maybe I like chess more than drama."
"International chess?"
Firefly tilted her head cutely:
"Is it the chess game where the cannon jumps over the knight?"
"I can also play! But I only know the rules of turning over all the chess pieces and then opening them up one by one."
"That's Chinese chess, and the flip-flop game you mentioned... well, forget it, just be happy."
Liang looked at his sister and explained with some difficulty:
"Chess is kind of black and white, with kings, queens, knights and stuff like that."
"Can't understand."
Firefly shook her head cleanly, she was very self-aware of her intelligence in this area.
In chess, I can only play flip chess, and in Go, I can only play backgammon. Of course, the best one is flying chess.
Firefly has always felt that she is very lucky.
"Brother, you eat too."
She handed half of the apple to Ryo's mouth and watched with satisfaction as Ryo took a bite of the fruit.
"You should eat more, get more nutrition and be discharged from the hospital soon."
Liang just took a bite and handed the apple back.
"My health is fine. I can leave the hospital as soon as possible."
Yingying waved her little fist:
"You can run a thousand meters in one run, and you can jump two meters high in one jump!"
"Then Firefly is no longer Firefly, but Superman."
Liang shook his head and smiled.
The afternoon sun is warm, and I feel at peace deep in my heart.
This is his own path.
ps: This chapter corresponds to Horikita Suzune's BE: a twisted childhood growing up in the shadow of her genius brother.
ps2: A reader mentioned the "Gray Trilogy" earlier. Part of the inspiration for this book does come from this series of works, about redeeming others and then being redeemed by others.
ps3: Thank you for reading and subscribing. The next chapter is all explained, and this volume ends for time travel.
The Abyss of Youth: Chapter 5: The Genius Swallowed by Reality (End of this Volume)
"It's really hard to imagine that you are actually a newbie who didn't know much about the rules half a month ago."
The middle-aged man dropped the chess piece in his hand and admitted defeat cleanly. He didn't care about the 5,000 yen he spent, but he was fully amazed and curious about the player playing against him behind the screen.
In this encyclopedia game software based on chess, players from all over the world can match opponents through the Internet. As a retired former professional chess player, the man can be said to be an expert in this game environment filled with novice and amateur level players. Stand out from the crowd, win more and lose less.
Half a month ago, he had matched with this player whose game ID was "Firefly". At that time, the player was almost a complete novice, and he was easily killed by him. Logically speaking, novices would be able to play against each other. After seeing a veteran like me who has a bit of "fish frying" intention, he should be disappointed or even stop for a while, but the other party doesn't seem to have such intention, and he always looks for players in the game hall for a long time in the future. Have a battle.
It was only now that the two met again that the man discovered with some disbelief that the opponent's chess skills had improved by leaps and bounds. Although his failure in this game was partly because he underestimated the opponent and did not pay attention to it at first, after all, if he lost, he would lose. From this perspective, it only took half a month for the opponent to reach the level of an amateur player.
Slightly unconvinced, he proposed to fight again, but his opponent asked for a bet of 5,000 yen. This amount was just the level of a dinner for a man. He quickly agreed, and then came the The second game was a bit promising but ultimately lost.
After transferring 5,000 yen to the account provided by the other party, the man still wanted to ask a few questions about his age and draw him into the professional field. After all, if the player named "Hotaro" really If it only takes such a short period of time to transform from a novice to this level, the other party will definitely have professional-level talents and talents.
But just a minute after the money was transferred, the other party's profile picture turned gray and he logged off.
The man began to wait patiently for "Firefly" to come online again. After all, judging from the past, the other party loved chess very much and spent a lot of time here every day.
As long as he can get in touch with the other person and confirm that the other person does have such talent, the man will have the confidence to use his connections to train him into a professional player.
He reviewed the match between the two and marveled at the opponent's chess moves.
The opponent definitely has the level to become a top professional and pursue the highest glory in chess——
[Grand Master]
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After Hotaru's condition improved slightly, Ryo chose to take her sister home to rest.
This is not because he is unwilling to let his sister get better care, but because the two people's financial situation is indeed unable to support the high hospitalization expenses.
The expected amount of compensation from the school was quite small, but it was already the result of mediation. In fact, if Liang hadn't asked someone to come forward, let alone the compensation, the school could have directly found a reason to fire him. student status.
Although I used the few favors I had left and borrowed some money, my sister's condition was always a bottomless pit that couldn't be filled.
If it were the Beichuan family in the past, they could still rely on Qiu's income to make up for it, but when this burden really fell on Ryo's shoulders, it became particularly unbearable.
He tried his best to find any job that could make money. Many places rejected Liang who was underage and had no education, but occasionally he could find some temporary work.
I worked in the kitchen of a restaurant and worked in the sewers of the city. The coffee shop where I worked before has closed down. The sign with the pink bunny was taken down. The new one opened is a game arcade. It is filled with the acrid smell of smoke and the noise of young people every day.
Liang worked as a temporary worker there for two days. Those were the most popular days during the holidays in the game arcade. The staff at the front desk were overwhelmed. Liang saw the opportunity and volunteered to promote himself, as if in It is the same as recommending a cheap and easy-to-use product.
The boss only agreed to hire him for two days and assigned him to the outermost circle, which was also the noisiest and busiest area.
This is a gathering place for NS and switch players. With the development of virtual reality technology, these game consoles that were popular in the past have lagged behind this era. Inside the game arcade, richer people are enjoying the technology of the new era. As a result, you can put on a virtual helmet and start your second life in the virtual game world.
But Ryo will still look enviously at these peers who are shouting and moving the controllers. The characters on the screen are going back and forth with the bosses under their control. For Ryo, who has never had the opportunity to come into contact with this kind of thing since he was a child. , it's really a novel experience.
During the process of picking up trash and cleaning the floor, he would also find opportunities to sneak closer.
During this period, some players felt Liang's gaze, and some even generously offered to let him play for a life, but they were all rejected by Liang.
He is very aware of his current situation, and things like game consoles should definitely not be within his consideration range.
When I was working in a dessert shop, the owner would sometimes give the employees some leftover scraps from the day, which were basically charred bread, and for a long time, Liang used these as his own dinner.
Occasionally, I would get some normal desserts, such as a quarter of a blueberry pie, and Liang would wrap them up carefully and take them home.
"Actually, this is not difficult. If I have the conditions in the future, I can make it myself. Then Yingying can eat as many as she wants."
After refusing his sister's offer to share the meager dessert with him, Liang waved his hand and said.
"Oh, brother is so awesome."
Although she has entered junior high school according to her age, Hotaru still behaves like a child in front of Ryo as before.
"And I made an extra five thousand yen today."
Showing the account records on his mobile phone with a bit of pride, Liang said:
"I didn't expect that I could actually make money by playing chess."
"Actually, my brother can also make a fortune through trapping."
"But the fireworks show is only once a year, and I can't leave you alone at home this year."
Ryo stretched out his hand to wipe away the debris from the corner of his sister's mouth, and pressed the quilt feet so that both of Yingying's legs were wrapped in warmth.