Family drama

I step into the restaurant as my mind lingers through last night ..

It was too quick to see your one night stand the every next evening.

I wasn't planning on it last night.

I stop hesitantly as I question myself

"Do I really want this ?"

50%I want this > 50% I don't want this ...

I continue to walk , this isn't about what I want , this is about what I need , I need to get a date for my bestfriend wedding and I need to get him in my bed, Steve has already been in my bed , well it Wasn't any of us bed.. but we have been in a bed .. you should get the point by now ..

I walk in to search for my date but he didn't make me searched, my eyes landed on a handsome white man with Gold wavy hair, he seated in table at the window as he tapes on his computer.

Are we here for a computer date?" That's cool!', I heard about movie date and all of those stuffs but computer date " Yey " I never heard of it ...

I stood in my place as I watch him , he looks different from lastnight, he doesn't look like anyone who would want to eat me whole, fuck!"

Don't think about it kate " I scold myself. I mean like serious, not the flirting type or the ones that plays around or the ones that have one night stand every night ..

He typ a few things then delete it, he seems stress , he looks outside the window, searching for peace, yeah I'm familiar with that feelings.

I gather the courage to go to him

"Thump-thump " my heartbeats faster as the memories of last night replays in my mind.

**Thump-thump **"

As I took two steps my phone buzz, catching me off guard. I almost jump out of my skin as my nervousness rise , almost giving me a panic attack. I will definitely curse that person about how their mother made them.

I quickly turn and took it . I sighed when I saw its mom , because it's her " i take back what I said, well I could still tell her how her mother makes her but that would only give her a heart attack, probably the same one I almost got ..

Hello mom " I wispher.

Hey honey , it's me " kesha said in a mimicked mom voice .

What's it?" I question.

Mom is running hot with fever, she wants you back here " She said before I could say anything She hangs up .

Mom is having fever , I sighed as now I'm truly having panic attacks. It's always like this but am still not use to it ..

I glance at Steve, he seems to be in another little world of his .

I turn around and left , I need to be there with mom , I stay away for 5 years , I don't think i should stay away for another 5 ..

I return home and took all I need , since I didn't unpack , I just took my suitcase and left ,

In no time I was in the city i left only yesterday..

My brother ,Anthony was waiting for me , he wore a shades that cover his brown eyes.

His dark hair part on the right side as it falls at the side of his face .

He wore a white shirt with a blue long jeans.

He talks on his phone,

When he saw me he hangs up and give me a small smile , I smile back, he is the one who really appreciate me beside my parents .

I have 5 siblings but only one care about me.

Hey sis " he pull me into a huge as I hug him back .

Where is she ?" I question.

She is in the hospital, they say she has low blood pressure and she needs blood again ' Anthony sighed heavily.

Let's go then " I said as I felt the urge to be there ..

Mmm" he hummed as he held my hands and leads me to a car then we left to go to the hospital.

We reach there , late , just for visiting time , perfect time .

We walks in and notice every one was there , my entire family . Aunty, Uncle, cousins, sister , brother , in-laws and grandparents. And two cute kids that I do not know , how could I when they looks like 3 and 1 . I wasn't here when they were born.

Good evening everyone " I said and kenesha - my cousin- smirk as she mumbled just as I thought no one would respond ..

"Good to see you still have manners " I nod as what she said is true , I still have manners

I walk in without bothering looking at anyone as i know i will only see disappointment and dislike in their face.

How are you mother ?" I question holding her hands as she smile.

I'm feeling better now that you're here " mom said and I nod . Knowing she is lying ..

There is no need for her here , she is not a doctor to cure you "kesha said and kenesha nod so did my other cousin , Ken, Anna, Chris, Cindy , also my other siblings, Kevin , kevon , Voila and Angel.

What are you doing here ?" I hear an Angry tone that am use to .

I didn't mumbled a word.

With my head down , I am actually surprised he held back the urge to strangled me alive here, I think he would have the moment I walks in . Hehe lucky me !!'

After all these years , what are you doing here , you little bastard??" He questioned in a high tone that sent shivers down my spines but not in a good way.

Are you dumb or deaf?" He said a little louder , I shiver in discomfort. As I saw it reflected on mother face , she is in discomfort .

I lose mom hands as I stood up straight, I didn't had to look to see their angry glare at me , I feel it on my skin and fear it in my heart , I fear - I will never be good enough .

Sorry Mr Gilbert but can we have this conversation outside, my mother is not feeling very fine " I said and walk out without waiting for him , I hear him blubbering his mouth but I just wanted him away from mom.

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You are not allowed here " he said in a very high tone but I smirked, i'm nolonger that girl he think I'm .

"I'm not scared of him "

Lair *

I'm scare of him ... but he doesn't need to know that ...

I'm only here to visit mother " I explained

Did you not hear a word I said " he snap,

And if I'm to answer him , he be so disappointed....

Ehh, I didn't listen ....

Your. Mother is always sick and needed you but you little slut wasn't here " he shout sending angere down my spines.

I tap on my phone volume bottom and turn up my song.

I know I would snap the second I let my hurt insane self take control .

I know i'm wrong but he is not allowed to tell me about that , what about him ?", he is the reason mom got married at a very early age because her mom and dad could fight very night ...They always separate and leaves mom and her siblings with her grandparents, who was known as drunky , they are always drunk , like they are addicted to alcohol.

I turn up the music and luckily for me , my hair was down and no one could notice I have on a little earpods.

"Nightcore_-_not my job anymore_-_Thomes_Day. .plays as i listen while look at my used to be grandfather led out his anger and I had to wonder, did he know this could cuz him high blood pressure too.

*&*

After a while , he sighed and I turn down the music .

Moncia need blood , I hope you have the money to paided for her medical bills " he said and I nod..

I turn up the music and left to see the doctor, I wasn't going to let my grandfather hurt me, he has no right ..

I lend against the wall as I heard his voice from the past .

What is this ugly bastard doing here " he said

Gosh , papa , she is also your granddaughter, doesn't she has a right to be here for your birthday " Mom said.

"She is not my granddaughter, you of all people should know that " he said angry .

Kate go play with your cousins outside ,okay ?" Mom said with a smile I still remember pretty well.

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"We don't have space here for outsiders " he snap as I sat in between my sisters in the sofa .

I stood up as I know where this leads, I look at mom , she gives me a helpless smile as she put out her hands for me to take.

I took it as we walks into our room. .

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If you do as much to hurt my granddaughter again I will kill you" he threatened as he pick up Voila . Leaving me in my own blood. As it run down my legs.

I sat and cry , it wasn't my fault but yet it was my fault .

**

It's not your fault, you couldn't protect her from those bullies " Momma said ask she pat my head. While I held my injury leg , it's a huge cut , I was sure it will leave a big scare too but right then all that hurts was what was happening around me , it hurt my heart more then the wound did .

*&*

[It's my fault mama , papa is right , I am not his granddaughter ] I said as I open my eyes.

" you are not a Jackson or a Gilbert, I will not let you take my name and ruined my family reputation , " I still heard his voice in my head , mom father title is Gilbert , he use to be dad - father bestfriend ...

My scar are still there , the hurt and pain is still in my heart . Once I did everything to make him accept me but he never did , besides mom and Dad I don't remember anyone that stood up for me , that loves me beside Doctor - Steve , but then again he didn't love me , he leaves me again in this cruel world.