ch 52 :-

---- Luna's POV ----

We read further to know why other won't accept their relationship why their mom would be disappointed

It was then that I finally learned about it. How others would see a love relationship between siblings. Apparently it's called an 'incestuous relationship', and it's something that is heavily frowned upon by society. But is it really? I can't think of any reason why it would be bad. Maybe this cursed book, really is just all bullshit.

However I was really worried. If this is real, would Mom really not want me and Linia to get married with Lith ? I thought she would be the one to support it the most. I really love her so much and I don't want to disappoint her as well.

Before I knew it, I was strangely very uneasy and nervous. I continued reading until I finally reached the end, where Mary ,Lucy and Lucien just vowed that they would find a way to make their relationships work.

"What? Atleast tell us how you were able to make it work." Linia said i also want to know how they made they relationship work

Breathing heavily, we both wanted to make sure if everything is true or not. I felt that my heart was heavy, as I lay down the bed . Linia also fell a sleep on the bed with bad mood. I couldn't think of anything else. Is it really that bad? Surely, it's not true. Mom already saw how close Lith and we are and nothing was wrong.

As I was lost in my thoughts, I didn't realize that it was already dark outside as night fell.

I was almost silent the entire during dinner. I spaced out constantly as I bit my lips in random occasions, thinking about how would Mom react if I told her about what happened.

"Mom...." I asked Mom as we were about to finish dinner

"...? Yes dear?" Mom said after she gulped down a glass of water

"I want to ask something later" I said to her

Luckily Lith still hasn't finished the book, otherwise he would be having second thoughts as well about what we did the other day.

As Dinner finally came to an end

"Lith , please go upstairs first. Kindly fix the room as well, so we can immediately read once I'm up there okay?" I said to him

"Sure Sis." he said before turning around

As Mom was cleaning the table, I felt like it was more difficult to talk to Mom all of a sudden. With small steps I crept beside her as I slowly asked.

"Mom... uhmm... Can Lith Luna and I love each other?" Linia spoke timidly as possible

Hearing her question, Mom was pretty shocked before she giggled lightly. I was expecting good answer that whatever that cursed book said is wrong

"Fufu, you two are really close with Lith eh? Of course you can~" Mom said as she rubbed my head

"Uhm then... can Lith marry us then?" I asked as I prayed that Mom would just continue giggling before saying 'Yes, of course' but mom did not said what i wanted her to say instead she said

"Marriage? Oh my~ You really like your brother, don't you?" Mom giggled as she found me cute

Hearing her giggle, I can feel my mood brighten until she continued-

"But no, Luna ... Siblings can love each other but not in the romantic sense you're thinking" Mom said as she gently smiled at me completely oblivous that she just shattered her daughter's hopes

"You two are still a young girls , for you two to think of marriage. Do you want to leave your Mom that fast?" Mom giggled as she teased me

I almost felt mad at her. I was asking her because I loved her and I don't want to disappoint her, yet she's saying things like that.

"B-but why? W-what's the problem if I love Lith like that?" Linia asked

" Yes mom tell us why sibling can't mary each other "I asked as I stuttered

Confirming my fears, my heart felt so heavy as I felt like I didn't have any energy to even stand. I don't get it... Mom really would be disappointed if me and Lith loved each other like that. Remembering what we did with Lith the other night, I felt scared of Mom ever finding out about that. We unknowingly already crossed a line we shouldn't have.

"You're still young, that's why you say things like that. Someday when the two of you grows up, you will find a man who will love you and become your husband." Mom said as she hugged me while rubbing my back

"And he will also find a wife, who he will love wholeheartedly and devote himself to"

"No Mom! we want him for our

self! I don't want some girl to just take him away from us " Linia said in a hurry

"What?" Mom was shocked by my voice

"I mean Mom what if... " I wanted to gauge Mom's actual reactions, to see just how against it could she actually be

"What if... let's say... uhmmm... we wanted to be... more than siblings with him..." I said as quietly as I could

"Luna , surely you mean like 'Best Friends', right?" Mom said in a cold tone

Cold sweat dripped from my back, as I heard Mom's tone change a little bit. But I had to see if I can perhaps coax Mom

"Uhm... I mean... like... like... Uhh..." my mind was a disordered mess, as I couldn't find the words to say without getting her angry

She then held us down by our shoulders, STRONGLY. I can't even move my body as I felt Mom's strength hold me down. Linia also seems she can't even move .Mom looked me in the eyes and Linia after that as I stared at back at her, her clear worry couldn't be more obvious.

"Luna,Linia ,Listen to mom okay?... Don't be nervous..."

"Just answer honestly... I won't get mad I promise..."

Mom said in a hushed voice as she tried to get me to relax, but it was doing the exact opposite to me because it made my chest feel heavier as my heart started palpitating in fear

"Do you... perhaps... look at your brother in 'that' way?" Mom said slowly as she looked me in the eyes

"Hiiiiii- NO! NO! Mom, I was just asking!" I said out of reflex

"...." Mom was silent for a couple of seconds but the silence just made me all the more scared, I would've preferred if she just said something, anything at all

I felt like I wanted to cry, as I saw the clear alarm and worry in Mom's reaction. That was a tone you only speak with, if you really wanted to confirm something. Just from her words I already felt like I just committed a huge crime. And that was the only confirmation that I needed to see if Mom would ever allow it.

I didn't even have the energy to ask 'Why can't I?' her reaction already told me everything. She would NEVER agree to it.

"I think... you two should stop your little reading sessions with your brother" Mom finally spoke

"W-why?" I almost choked on my own words

"I thought Lith would be the one with that problem... but I never would've thought..." Mom sighed as she looked at me

There were so many things I wanted to say. Not everyone will find a loving husband, not every man out there is good. I wanted to say that, can't we just take Lith then? He would surely love and cherish us . I wanted to say that, isn't it because her husband didn't love her, that she's alone right now?

However I knew that it's just my emotions in turmoil. The last thing I would want to do is make Mom sad, by reminding her of her sore spots. Instead I just bottled it all in, as I agreed before going upstairs myself as Mom proceeded to wash the dishes.

I didn't feel like doing anything at all as I walked down the hall. My vision became cloudy as I felt small beads of tears form in the corner my eyes. I weakly rest my shoulders on the wall to support myself.

My emotions were a mess.

I felt disheartened, as I thought about the novel that I just finished. Do I really have to hide my affections everytime we're not alone? Even at home, I can't let Mom find out about our relationship. I felt angry, why the fuck would people judge me for the person I love. I couldn't care less about other people, but I'm not selfish enough to make Mom struggle even more than she already does.

Mom said something about Lith finding a woman whom he will dedicate himself to, and I felt my insides boil.

What would that future wife of his know about him? The most she would know about him is the perfect and talented image he always projects outside. She'll probably just see his talents and looks, and she'll start thinking of how he was made just for her and shit like that. Just like she would, if she saw any other above-average men.

I was the one who taught him magic first, I was the one who corrected and guided him when he was struggling. I was there before his talents showed, when we thought he was completely talentless at magic. When he was struggling to cast even the the smallest fireball. But that future wife of his wouldn't know that. She'll only see the good side of him and somehow she has more right to be with him than I do.

My legs gave out in anger as I curled myself before hugging my knees. My skirt had some wet stains on it, as my tears slowly dropped. I was still at the hall, Mom or Lith can see me if they just took a glance in here.

I wiped my tears away as I slowly stood up, as I stopped myself from crying Linia also wiped her tears away and she slowly stood up after me . Taking deep breaths she slowly calmed herself down i did the same .

I thought about his future wife and Yeah....

She can go fuck herself.

As my head slowly cooled down, I thought that things really aren't as bad as they seemed.

There's so many sinful people in this world, someone fucking their brother isn't that special. I thought about those human scums, the criminals who go unpunished, and people who is like fucking Anna. Yeah, I'm a decent person if I think about it that way.

My only real problem is that, I don't want to betray Mom's expectations. I just want to be able to make my love known, just like everyone else does. No one is perfect, even the famous national heroes had theirs but no one points those out.

And with those thoughts I felt like my mind became clear, like everything was so simple, my mind finally went back to its usual tranquil state as I walked back to my room.

I just needed to make Mom so proud, that my 'small' love would be trivial in comparison

As I opened the door to my room, there I found Lith laying on the bed as he waited for us .

"Sis, you two are back~ Why both of your eyes swollen?" He became energetic again as he saw us , but became worried when he saw our red eyes

I didn't reply but instead went on top of him as I pinned him down the bed by holding both his arms down. I felt like I just needed some reaffirmation that what I'm doing is right.

"Lith .. you love your big Sisters right?" I gently smiled as I asked him

"...? Of course, isn't that obvious?" he tilted his head at my question

"What kind of question it is of course Lith love his two big sisters " Linia said

"I see..." I was satisfied with the answer I got

I slowly lowered my head as it looked like I was gonna give him another kiss. However my face went past his, as instead I gave him a kiss on his neck.

He probably hasn't reached those parts yet in the novel, but I knew what this does.

I felt his body shiver when he felt my lips touch the skin of his neck. I lightly bit him, before I started sucking as I performed what I learned to be called a 'love bite'. After about half a minute, I finally stopped as I raised my head before looking at my 'work'.

And as I looked down, there I saw it. I licked my lips, as I saw the mark of my love in his body. His clueless face clearly told me that he doesn't know what his Big Sisters just gave him. There was something new in what I felt when I kissed him.

Before it felt pure, fluffy, and just soothing everytime I kissed him. But now knowing how this is all wrong, there was this 'forbidden' flavor added into it, as I looked at my handiwork.

"... my neck?" he asked

"It's just a kiss~ don't worry about it... brother" I reassured him as I got my body off from him

"I also want to kiss him " saying that Linia alao kissed other side of his neck

Chu~

He usually wears clothes that covers some of his neck, so I placed it almost near his shoulders as I made sure that it would remain hidden. Though I wouldn't mind if his teachers saw it. Or maybe i want them to see it

"Mom said no more late-night reading, so let's sleep early okay?" I said to him informing that we wouldn't be reading

"Oh... it's alright" he said as he returned the book to his bookshelf

"Also... we finished that book already, the ending is really bad so I don't think you should finish it" I said as I watched him put it away

'I would probably have to hide that as well.'

"... I see~"

As he got to the bed with us , he turned his back against me. Seeing that I hugged him from behind as I spooned him and Linia hugged him from front . Thinking of any other woman doing this and becoming this intimate with him, I felt like like vomiting.

"Also Lith ," I called him

"hm?"

"I think... we can't tell Mom about what we did the other day"

"...Why?" he spoke with a sleepy voice

"Well... I think... Mom would get jealous..." I said

"if she finds out that you love me the most~"

"No Lith loves me the most right Lith "

" ... I love both of you same " I heard his weak voice as he slowly fell asleep

'Yeaaahh... I still won't let you go after all'