CHAPTER 8: Dream from the past

what if I run away from my wedding, can I do that?... well there is a huge possibility that I would be captured and brought back, Not only that, but what if Father, vera, and Balm would also be dragged in my plan. 

What if I just died? Can I return to my real world?

"ellie, do we have a botanical garden?"

"yes, my lady. It's on the rear of the mansion next to the fountain, why?"

"probably I would like to go on a stroll there"

"huh, you never go there because of the bugs and spiders crawling there. but this is a change of phase"

after ellie put on my sleeping gown, and turned off the candle. she took her leave and left me alone in my room. but a few hours later, I get out of my room and head to the garden where I will cocktail a potion that can kill me

I don't wanna, get married to that psycho nor I want to stay longer in this world. I miss my home, my cat, my everything. I just wanna go to the modern world, even if I am poor there. 

after searching around the manor, I found the fountain that Ellie mention and made my way to the botanical garden which is surrounded by a huge window. 

inside is filled with so many plants, unlike the Pyrene castle that it was mostly flower and roses. here I can see many recognizable plants that have medicinal properties but also poisonous. 

"aha, I found it" the Atropa belladonna also known as "deadly nightshade.". this pretty flower is an anticholinergic that blocks the action of acetylcholine neurotransmitters in the nervous system, which can cause hallucinations and delirium, In a huge dose it can cause death. In the modern world, it is used as a drug that helps relax the muscles and heart rate in the right dose. 

I wish I could make cyanide, which is a much faster death compared to belladonna. Well, I guess I gotta be resourceful. 

"10 berries, that should be enough." watching these berries in my hand made me have second thoughts but... should I live? I look back at the mansion and have few minutes of flashback. then I decided to just die. I'm sick of this medieval world, with their medieval thinking. 

"here it goes". I swallowed the berries at the same time, then my body can't move and fondled to the ground which my mind started to hallucinate......

[hallucination]

mica dream of her past where she is in high school, having a trouble with grades and being angry with herself for not be able to meet the expectation that was given to her.

mica standing on her locker, looking at her report sheet. then rayla came to her side which is best friend who recommend the book and start a conversation.

"hey mica, come check this out." said by rayla

*sigh* "what isn't rayla, I'm busy!" said by mica in a angry tone

"what's with the grumpy face? Anyway, I just got the latest book from the series of 'The Tyrant King Love" 

"what book?" 

"the book I handed to you last year, remember, where the king married the lady in waiting of the Queen and the queen was so pissed by their love affair and tried to kill lyca, but in the end, it was the queen who got killed because she was decapitated by the king and ---"

"Enough already, rayla, I don't have time for this"

"but wait, the latest chapter of the series does not focus on the king and Lyca romance but it is all about the queen and her past, there is a reason why she married the ki--"

*slam the locker door

"rayla please, I have no time for this. okay?"

"come on mica, you should just chill. I mean highschool is almost over, and college is not gonna be fun and games so why don't you--"

"that's the point!!!. I have a B+ in one of my subjects which means I don't have any more chances on becoming a valedictorian and I might disappoint father" said by mica in angrier voice and in tears

"I'm sorry mica. but you look so stress I thought maybe this could help you---" said rayla by handing the book to her then mica slamming the book to the ground

"how does this help me, don't you ever realized that this is the reason why I lost my focus, this book is the reason of my failure. maybe you should just go." 

"mica plea--"

"JUST GO" shouted mica

rayla leaves the hallway of their school with a sad face leaving Mica stressed and with tears

[hallucination ended]