I did what you did

I feel completely betrayed. The man I have loved all my life could be the father of the child my wife is expecting. Just when I thought my life was going to get back to normal, I find out: my boyfriend is having an affair with my wife. I go up in the elevator of my hotel, I need to lock myself in my room and forget about the world. I don't know how to explain what I'm feeling, nor do I want to explain it. I just want to lock myself in my room.

Tears are inevitable. Now I allow myself to cry, I am alone and no one will judge me. I spent a lifetime nurturing a love, suffering for the feeling that I thought was genuine. I punch the bed when I think about how much I love Tiago. And I cry. I sit down still sobbing, I remember everything I feel for him, all his care for me could only be a lie, I suddenly think. It was guilt. That's why he got me a lawyer. He felt guilty.