I need explanations

I was just jealous.. how could your brother call you babe?.. no he was lying to me.."I don't want lies Taeyang" I said.. barely a whisper... My heart still hurts... When I woke up with amnesia, I was also diagnosed with heat problem... Anything could trigger it.. I closed my eyes taking in air.. "why.. what did you see in him to ditch me?" I asked.. sitting up, I take his face in my hands and kiss his lips.. he just let me do what I want.. and I felt more angry.. I bit his lips till he bled.. I licked his blood... He still said nothing.. I burst out crying... He hugs me letting me vent my anger... "Answer me Taeyang Jinsik.. why .. I just need a fucking explanation.." I said between my sobs... "Baby" he said... I wanted to answer, but no... How could I.."don't call me that" I said... "Kim.. he is my biological brother.. he was taken in by my uncle.. and now he's back.. yes he is gay, but I can swear on my life that we only have the relationship between siblings " he says I already forgave him, but I just wanted proof and explanation that will make me say it... I take his hands and place it on my chest... It was beating rapidly and loudly... I look at him... "Tae... What did the doctor say " I asked.. as we locked eyes... He just hugged me I felt it.. he was crying.. his tear fell on my neck.. "tell me" I urged .. he quickly wipes his face and forced a smile.."you'll be ok.. I promise" he said.. I pull out of the hug.."I know what's wrong with me.. but I just want to confirm " I said.. still taking his hand on my chest... He was feeling how hard it was beating... "You.. you have... Baby I'm sorry " he began to cry.. he couldn't bring himself to say that I was dying... I just have roughly 3 years to live.. hh how funny right.. I don't want to hurt him.... I.. I don't want to.. no.. I won't die and let him suffer.. "let's break up " I said out of the blue... He recoils... "W..why?" He couldn't bring himself to talk... "I don't love you anymore" I said.. no.. I can't afford to pass out now . I have to convince him I don't love him again... "I'm sorry babe please.. please don't push me away like this.. I'll die" he says... He was serious... I can feel it... He was crying..we both were... "Then die... I hate you .. I.. can't continue to play with you" I said.. "I know.. I know you love me.. please baby" he said holding me.. he hugged me,but I pushed him away.."I just used you for sex.. yes I gave you whatever you wanted,but I truly never loved you.. you were just my whore.. my sluth.. but now.. I'm done with you.. you bore me" I said I can't.. hold on.. I passed out,but I felt his hands holding me.. he was crying.. but trying to call the doctor.. his voice was a whisper.. "please don't do this to me... I.. know I.. know you love me.. I.. I can't bare it if you leave me.. please Kim" he said.. the doctor came in, and did whatever he did..

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A week later

I woke up still in the hospital... I checked, hoping to see him.. but he was not there.. I waited for him... I knew he wouldn't leave me.. no.. I'll die if he did.. but then.. I told him to leave me .. I said many hurtful things to him.. I know he still loves me.. the door open,I turn my head in excitement,I wanted to tell him I took back all what I said.. I wanted to ask him to forgive me.. I love him.. "ba..." I pursed mid-sentence.. "ah finally you are awake" she said.. I looked away.. "yes" I answered.. she sits beside me.. I had this bad feeling.. it was bugging me "w.. where is he?" I asked.."you asked him to leave" she answered.."Yoonah please where is he" I asked.. my heart was pounding... This was not good..what have I done..I.. I needed to find him.. "Kim...calm.."but she was forced to shut up as I stood up.. "w..where did.. where did he go?" I asked.. barely able to talk.. I looked so pale and fragile.. I need my baby back.. I rushed out of the hospital clutching my chest... It hurts, but no I was stubborn to give up.. "doctor!!" A nurse shouted as I ran out..

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Tae's POV

When he said those things to me, I felt hurt.. but I know he wants to protect me from heartbreak.. the doctor said he has roughly 3 years to live... He doesn't want me to get hurt.. but without him, my life is meaningless... I'll die.. but then

"What triggered him to faint?" The doctor asked me.. I looked at him with my swollen red eyes,.. my voice breaking "he said we should break up.. but I.. I was begging him.. he.. he refused.. but.. but doctor.. I know..I know he still loves me.. he knows what is wrong with him.. he .. he wants to push me away so it doesn't affect me after 3yrs.." I said.. the doctor looks from me to him.. "then you should leave.. if you stay, he will always judge himself for hurting you.. and it can be worse than this.. if he has more than 5 break down, he might not live up to a year " the doctor said.. I.. I had to go.. I can't be selfish.. he deserves better... He's too young to die... So I left.. I was never going to cross part with him, so I traveled to Bangkok.. I was going to spend my life there.. but I gave my brother an assignment to secretly watch over him.. on no account should he let Kim know about him

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Sorry my loyal readers.. I was busy with school.. but today, I'll update as many as I can