CHARLOTTE

The rest of the day went really rough. I couldn't get it out of my head that I just kissed Reggie. And he called me a whore, a fucking whore. I remained in the library  for the rest of the day, too ashamed to go back into the class and still meet Reggie.

He gave me the chance to pull away, to push him away but I didn't. I fucking didn't! there weren't so many students in the Library. Well, there was never so many.

"Hey" someone said standing right in front of me. I adjusted my glasses, looking up.

Lisa stared down at me, a smile on her face.

What was she doing here?

She sat next to me with a sigh. Guess, I wasn't the only having a bad day. Just that mine was a lot more worst. It was out there that I had a skin disease.

"Hi" I whispered returning back to the back I'd just been flipping through. I had no idea what I was reading, man, I wasn't even reading.

"Uh, I saw the news on the blog" she started. A knife went through my heart but I managed to shrug.

"Yeah, it's not a big deal right?" my voice was low. Company was something I did not need right here.

She gave me a tight smile placing her hand on my shoulders.

"It's a big deal Charlotte" she said and Iet out a whiff of air closing the book and placing it on the desk.

Her eyes fell on the book and the side of her lips tugged up.

"Wuthering Heights? You read books like that?" she asked. I stared down at the cover. I had no idea that's what I'd been holding.

I chuckled.

"No, I don't. I had no idea, that's what I've been holding even" I said, my voice laced with sadness.

Her eyes turned to me softly.

"I understand" she muttered, I just shook my head. She doesn't, no one does.

"You don't" it was a whisper and again I found myself rubbing my wrists. Wouldn't it be easy if I ended this misery myself?

Lisa sighed resting into the seat.

"I once had a boyfriend and —Uh, we dated for three years. I recently found out, he was sleeping with my sister" she said and I looked at her surprised. What?

"Why would he do that?" I asked clearly shocked. I needed to quit reading fantasy romance, this was reality.

She shrugged non interestedly.

"He said I was no fun?" she muttered and I blinked. Woah, I had nothing to say to that. But nobody should be treated as cruel.

She turned to me, a lazy smile on her face.

"You understood right?" she asked and I nodded.

"I'm sorry" I whispered. Why was I whispering even?

"No, it's okay. I think I never really loved him from the start" she mumbled. Oh.

"And your sister?" I asked quietly. My mind was painting an image of Jessie and Reggie together. I wouldn't fucking forgive any of them.

But who am I? Reggie doesn't likes me, I'm made to believe now that there's something about me that pushes everyone away.

"Hm, we're cool" she stated. And I instantly knew it was her facade. She wasn't letting the pain get to her, she was trying to see the positive.

My hand reached for hers and I offered an encouraging smile.

"He just didn't deserve you. They both don't" I commented squeezing her hand lightly. She peered at me, and I saw the sadness wash over her for a second.

She squeezed my hand in return before withdrawing.

"Talk to me, I would understand" she inquired and I recoiled.

I should had known it was a ploy, kind of a trap.

"I kissed Reggie, he called me a whore" I let out a puff of air, trying to act like it didn't hurt.

She was silent. Definitely not the reaction I was expecting.

After a few seconds, she tutted.

"You like him?" it was one simple questions that had so many answers.

I buried my head in my hands, rubbing my face. The issue was I no longer knew where I stood.

"Honestly, I don't know" I uttered.

"Seems like you guys go a long way back" she asked and I nodded.

"Hm, Best friends" it actually hurts recalling the good times we had. What changed him? I know he wasn't really a fan of his dad, he preferred staying with his mum. At least, he had one good parent unlike me.

I noticed the time Reggie left, his mum took to drinking. She liked me, Yunno. I initially thought uh, his dad had fought for custody.

I would tell her I wanted to speak to Reggie but she always told me some other day and eventually she stopped letting me in.

It was awful, it felt like I'd been sent away from home. I loved hanging out with his mum. She was cool with blue eyes that sparkled like Reggie's.

After trying for some more weeks, I gave up trying.

"That must hurt" she said and I closed my eyes.

Real bad.

The third bell of the day went off. I pried open my eyes.

"So you here then? You're hiding?" she asked and Jeffrey nodded. I wasn't going to lie.

"Unfortunately, that's what I do best" it was the truth. I was always hiding.

"You think I can hangout with you and Anna later?" man, she was really good at switching topics with ease.

I shrugged.

"Uh, I think so. We're going to the beauty shop to get my lenses" I offered and she gave a brief nod standing up.

"I guess I'll see you both later then?" she asked and I sighed. Yeah.

"Don't let them crush you, you got the strong spirit. Fight" she whispered pasting a big smile on her face making her way out of the library.

Her words echoed in my head for hours to come.