First Stream (PT. 2)

"Oh my- you- what?" I ask as I unmute, totally confused as I look back at the screen. "How? You won before we even knew what was happening! I don't even know who killed me!" I say, Kozu chuckling as I run a hand through my hair. "I knew it was that guy again, I knew it…" Suna grumbles, not seeming particularly upset as I take a deep breath. "Let's play the skeld map; I'll set up the lobby. How do you not know who killed you?" Kozu asks as I slowly blow out my breath, groaning as I rub my face. "She was looking up how to not be suspicious, the tab covered up her screen." Kuroo says and I pout as the boys chuckle, exiting the lobby. I drag the game tab to my other screen, joining the new game before carefully putting it back without showing the code. "We're just doing two imposters this time?" I ask as everyone joins, kicking my feet lightly. "Yeah, but with more tasks." Kozu says and I hum, though instead of Kita someone dark green named 'Better Twin' joins the game. "Eh? Is that one of the twins?" I ask, Suna snorting as he hums affirmatively. "I'm glad they stopped fighting." I chime as Kozu starts the game. "I missed recording it." Suna sighs, making me shake my head as I smile.

"Stick with me so you don't die first." Suna says, making me feel bubbly- though I was an imposter with Ryu. I mute my mic, running up top and pretending to do the key task with the mass of bodies. I then move down and wait for Suna, following him to the medbay- he scans, proving that he was safe. He starts running back out though I run around in circles, making him pause. I run down to the decontam doors, though he doesn't follow. I pop back up, waiting for him- he follows me over to the vent. I pop in and out real quick, showing him that I was the imposter. "Okay… what are you going to do about it?" I whisper to myself, watching him carefully as we stare at each other for a moment. I move first, running back up- he follows, taking the lead and bringing me to his next task, one of the electric node things. I can't help but feel amused knowing that he was just going with it, not running for the button. I see Bokuto run by and I turn off the lights, running after him and killing him before returning to Suna's side. We run around doing his tasks for a while, though I also vent kill Toru. After a while, someone calls the twins body- I didn't kill them, it must be Ryu's kill. [AU1]

After an hour of playing Among Us with our friends- we traded some in and out so everyone got a chance to play with us- we all put our streams back on pause. I head back to Arthur's room again, collapsing on one of the beanbags and covering my face. "Who knew it would be so difficult to sit and play video games for hours on end." I joke lightly, stretching my legs and body out. "That's what the breaks and changes are for." Arthur says, taking a sip of his drink and beginning to tap around more on his laptop. The others come in, taking their spots on the ottoman and the other beanbag. "How's the other thing coming along?" I ask and he shrugs his shoulders, setting his drink down. "It's going fine, don't worry your pretty little head about that mk?" He says and I nod, sliding my hands behind my head and looking at the ceiling. "An hour of solo play? I've been excited to play that one game, the… um… what's it called? The sea monster one?" I ask, Arthur chuckling softly as he leans back in his chair. "Subnautica?" He says and I click my fingers, pointing at him. "Yes. That. I'm excited to play that." I chime happily as I clap my hands together, though I feel my stomach start to cramp-

I groan, rolling over and burying my head into the beanbag as I squeeze it as tight as I could- I had started my period two days ago, unfortunately it was a painful heavy flow that had left me uncomfortable. "How much longer, Arthur?" I whine as I peek my head out of the beanbag, though he just snorts and rolls his eyes. "I already told you not to worry about it." He says though I pick up the little pack of sticky notes off his desk and through it at him. I giggle softly when it bounces off his head, making him flinch. "Oh my- I swear." Arthur groans, picking up the sticky notes and putting them back. "It'll get here soon." Arthur says and I smile, rolling back over- the cramp had passed, they were coming in waves. "Entertain yourself with chocolate or something while you're waiting, you're always a giggling violent mess when you're with me." Arthur says and I snort, sliding off the beanbag and sticking my tongue out at him. "Whatever. You're always talking about how you like when I'm violent." I chime as I head downstairs, raiding the kitchen and finding my kitkats. I pull down my jar of Nutella, popping off the lid and beginning to dig in- I moan in delight at the combination, my one weakness.

I make happy moaning noises with every little bite of the chocolate candy dipped in Nutella, my fingers gathering a thin layer of chocolate though I managed to keep my face from getting dirty. "God, you sound like you're having sex in here." Kuroo snorts as he walks in, making me giggle as I dip my KitKat in the jar of Nutella. "Shh. Enjoying." I say, taking a bite and moaning sweetly at the taste- fucking heaven, I swear. "Ahh, I see. You're having tongue sex with KitKats and Nutella." Kuroo chuckles, coming over to me as I dip the last of my KitKat in the Nutella. "Gimme." Kuroo says though I quickly toss the piece into my mouth, giggling as I flip him off with my chocolate covered finger. He takes my hand, wrapping his arm around my waist and lifting my fingers to his lips. "Kuroo-" I protest as I feel my face burning, though he licks my chocolatey finger, making me feel hot. He captures my finger in his mouth, sucking and licking all the chocolate off of them one by one. He presses me back against the counter, letting me feel his hard cock against my stomach as I suck in a sharp breath. "K-Kuroo…" I squeak, my face feeling like it was on fire as he finishes licking my last chocolatey finger clean.

He leans down, capturing my lips in a kiss as he grabs my ass, lifting me up and onto the counter. I moan softly as his tongue slides into my mouth, clutching onto his shirt as he pulls my hips against his. He grinds himself into me, my whole body feeling hot with him pressed against me- I groan in pain as another wave of cramps comes, pulling my lips from his kiss. I bury my head into his chest as I whimper, clutching onto him as I press myself into his comforting heat. "Kitten… Are You?" Kuroo asks, his voice low and rough as I take slow deep breaths, trying to ride through the wave. The doorbell rings and I lightly push him back, sliding off the desk and heading to answer it while clutching onto my stomach. "Hello?" I ask, peeking out of the door and seeing a guy with a package. "I've got a package for a Kimiko Suzuki?" The guy says and I nod, holding out a hand. He gives me the clipboard, setting the box down as I sign it. "Thank you, have a good day." I say, giving him back the clipboard as he bows, turning and leaving. I open the door up, grabbing the big box and wincing as it presses into my aching stomach. "Here." Kuroo says, taking the box and carrying it up the stairs.

"Kuroo!" I protest, closing and locking the door as I jog up the stairs after him. "It was hurting you. It's fine, Kitten." Kuroo says, carrying the box into my room and setting it down. "Go ahead and get yourself comfortable, okay? The stream restarts in ten minutes." Kuroo says, walking over and kissing my forehead. "If you need anything, just ask okay? I'll bring you a drink and some chocolates." He says, giving me a hug and making me feel fuzzy as he heads back out of my room. I unpack the box- some feminine supplies that I run and stash in my private bathroom, a heating pad and a big fluffy blanket. I wrap myself up in the fluffy snuggy, plugging in the heating pad and wrapping it around my stomach under the snuggy. I settle down on my gaming chair, looking over at the door as someone knocks softly. "I brought you peppermint tea and some pain killer." Kuroo says as he walks over, setting a steaming cup of tea, a bottle of tylenol and a bag of assorted chocolates in front of me on my desk. "Thank you…" I say as he leans down and kisses my forehead. "No problem, Kitten." He says as he runs his fingers through my hair, making me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

He was being so sweet and considerate- I looked at him shyly, wondering what he was thinking. He gives me a sweet smile, crouching down beside me as I stare at him curiously. "Do you often get bad cramps?" Kuroo asks and my cheeks burn as I look away, shrugging my shoulders as I fiddle with my fingers. "Mm. They come in waves…" I admit, avoiding looking at him as I feel sheepish. "I see. It must've been hard just sitting through them this whole time…" Kuroo says and I shift lightly, brushing a strand of hair behind my ear. "Usually I can stretch my way through them or just curl up in bed and get cozy." I say and Kuroo nods, gently stroking me through the snuggy. "Well, if you need anything, just ask okay? Even if we're mid stream, I don't mind. I'll run and get it for you so you can be as cozy as possible. Before you even protest, the streams are only this popular cause you're pushing through like a champ. I can at least do this." Kuroo says, offering me a smile and making me feel all warm and fuzzy again. "Okay… thank you." I say, offering him my own sweet smile. "No problem, Kitten. I love taking care of you." Kuroo says and I feel thousands of butterflies taking flight in my blood.

"Ah… Mm." I say, my face burning as I look away again and cover my face. "You know… there's one thing that helps with cramps." Kuroo says and I hum softly, looking down at my hands in my lap. "Orgasms. Sex." Kuroo says and I turn to him with wide eyes, making a weird flustered face. "Kuroo! No! It's nasty!" I say and he chuckles softly, grinning at me as he leans his head on his elbow. "Mm, not if you go about it the right way." He says though I quickly shake my head. "No! It'll be nasty either way!" I protest, making him laugh even more as his eyes twinkle with mischief. "How will you know until you try?" He says and I huff, shaking my head again. "Nope. Nasty. Besides, we don't have time. We're streaming, remember?" I say and Kuroo hums, standing up and patting my head. He leaves without another word, leaving me confused as I watch him shut the door behind him. Did I upset him? I don't think I did, but then again I couldn't really tell. I don't think I've ever really upset Kuroo, it was always me getting peeved with him. I take some tylenol and put on my headphones, blowing lightly on my tea. Actually, I've never seen Kuroo upset- petty, sure. But upset? No, never upset.

"Alright, let's start in 3...2...1… go!" Arthur says and we all start our streams up again, double checking that everyone is running properly. "Welcome back critters, or welcome to the picnic if you're just now joining us. Next we'll be playing solo games! I'll play Subnautica, Apple Pi will play Hello Neighbor, Super Sloth will play Octodad and Black Cat will play Dante's Inferno. If we do not finish the game today, we will finish it another time." I say, opening up Subnautica and getting it started. "So what's Subnautica? I've never heard of it." Kozu says and I smile, watching the intro. "It's a underwater survival game on a different planet. I mean, it seemed really cool from the store when I was looking at it." I say as I put out the fire, checking the pod and everything in it. "Oh… that's neat…" I mumble, leaving most of the goods in the chest but repairing everything in the pod. "Hm?" Kozu asks as I climb out of the top, looking out at the big ship. "Wahh! That's awesome!" I gush, seeing the crashed spaceship in the distance. "Come in, Pudding. Tell me, I want to know." Kozu says as I look out at the rest of the world. "The ship crashed! Everything is underwater but the ship." I say as I see nothing but the ship above water.

"I wonder if I'll be able to explore it?" I giggle as I hop into the water- wow, the artwork and just- it was all so beautiful. "This… is… so… awesome." I breath as I start exploring around, making sure to get plenty of oxygen. "Hello fishies, you look weird." I chime as I swim over to a seal like fish with a big weird tail. "Ah! Ew! Fart fish!" I squeal as I swim away from the gas it releases, Kuroo laughing. "Wait, really?" Kuroo asks, though I'm already swimming back to the pod. "Yeah, yuck. This game is awesome! Like, I love it already and I'm just exploring." I say as I hop up into my pod, opening up the fabricator. "Hmm… okay. I think my main focus is to explore this world and collect materials, potentially build a base… this is going to take a while, I don't think this game was taken lightly. I'm going to look for any potential survivors, I think I should prioritize helpful tools, oxygen and transport when it comes to crafting for now…" I mumble, though I pull up the other streams on my left screen so I can watch them as I'm gathering material and exploring. "I have no clue what to do." Kozu admits, making me smile as I glance over to his stream, diving into the water and beginning to gather materials.

"I actually read a bit about your game, it's based on an AI to calculate your moves and prevent you from rescuing the kidnapped person. Outsmart the robot trying to outsmart you, Gamer boi!" I chime, though Kozu starts slowly walking along the street, looking into the house. "Okay… but how should I start?" He says and I shrug, turning back to my screen. "I dunno. If it was me, I'd knock on all of the neighbors doors and smash all the guys windows." I say, heading back to the surface for air. "If it was you… huh…" Kozu mumbles, though he dashes to the house across from the AI's and starts exploring. "I wouldn't even want to go onto the lawn. He doesn't come onto the street, so it's a safe zone I guess." I say, catching my breath as I check what materials I collected and my open inventory space. "Congratulations, Sleepyhead!" I chime as Suna snorts, putting the ring on the woman's hand. "Thank you very much, Ms. Fox." Suna says, making me giggle as I go back to collecting my materials. "Do you know anything about my game, Kitten?" Kuroo asks and I hum softly, taking a sip of my tea. "Yeah actually, I've completed it." I say, carefully setting my cup down.

"Oh yeah? Care to give me a little insight?" Kuroo asks and I settle down into my chair, turning back to my screen. "Um, so, Dante, the guy you're playing, was a soldier who committed a lot of sins. Like, a lot; before the war he was married to a woman, Beatrice. The brother of a woman that Dante raped kills his family, servants and Beatrice to get revenge for his sister cause the only reason she did it was so Dante would have mercy. Because of Dante's sins, Lucifer takes Beatrice to hell and intends to marry her. Dante goes to hell to prevent that from happening, to save Beatrice. The cutscenes will tell you more, but it's all based on a book. The story is messed up in my opinion, but it's a good game." I say, Kuroo humming as I glance back at Suna's game. "Ha ha! The lady of the house knows what's up, ain't that right, Sleepy Head!" I tease, making Suna snort as he makes the pot of coffee. "Are you watching our streams?" Kuroo asks and I hum as I resurface for more air, heading back to my pod. "Yupp, I am. Did you get the hang of it, Pi?" I ask, glancing at Kozu's screen- he was intensely focused on his game. "Take that as a yes." I giggle, turning back to my game and getting to work.

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After a while I get up, changing my pad and washing my hands. I then sit on the floor, feeling nauseous as I take a meditating pose. I hear a soft knock on the door and I hum softly, keeping my eyes closed. "You okay? You've been in there for a minute." Arthur asks and I hum, taking a deep breath and slowly blowing it out. "Do you need anything?" He asks and I open my eyes, blinking all the tears away. "Water." I say simply, hearing Arthur shuffle away as I pry myself off the floor and unlock the door. I then take a few steps back, beginning to do some light stretches in hope that they would help with the pain. I take deep, steadying breaths to make sure my blood is circulating plenty of oxygen, getting it flowing with my stretches. "Am I good to come in?" Arthur asks and I hum, finally feeling the pain start to subside. "That bad, huh?" Arthur asks as he opens the door, offering me a bottle of water. I shrug, taking the bottle and taking a few gulps to get my body hydrated. "What can you do?" I snort as I walk out of the bathroom, Arthur following behind me with his hands in his pockets. "Get pregnant. That'll keep it away for 9 months." Arthur chimes and I can't help but laugh as I shake my head.

"No, no. It'll stall it for 9 months; it all collects and then-" I chime but Arthur groans loudly, covering his ears and sneering. "Ew! I don't want to hear it! I'm as interested in hearing that as you are when I tell you about my sex life!" Arthur says, making me laugh even more as I head back to my room. "Does that mean that I can torture you with it anyway, that way you have to suffer through the trauma of knowledge you never even wanted?" I joke, though Arthur makes a horrified face. "You know what, I uh, I gotta go do a thing. Yeah, a thing. Bye!" Arthur says, dashing off into his room and making me laugh even more. I slide back into my room, taking the heating pad and wrapping it back around myself and putting on my snuggy. I curl into a tight ball, picking up my lukewarm cup of tea and taking little sips. The wave had passed, but I was right in the peek of all the fun times- another one would come, and it would be a guessing game on the scale of pain. I might as well spin a wheel and see what it landed on, because either way it didn't matter and it'd still hurt. Sometimes I really hated being a woman, I mean really, it was so painful with all the cramps and mood swings- did I mention it was painful?

"You okay, Kitten?" Kuroo asks and I peak over, seeing him leaning in the doorway. "Eternal pain and never ending suffering. My guts feel like literal hell." I groan softly, Kuroo humming as he walks over and stuffs his hands in his pockets. "Maybe we should send in Dante." Kuroo says, making me snort as I carefully set down my cup. "If you know a Dante who specializes in saving poor girls from their hellish menstrual cramps, by all means let 'im at it." I tease lightly, though Kuroo grins as he gestures to his lap. "It's no Dante but… it does specialize in saving poor girls from cramps." Kuroo says and I feel my face burn as I turn away. "Kuroo, I said no!" I squeak, burying my head into my arms as he chuckles. "Don't you want to see if it helps even a little bit?" Kuroo says and I peek out, pouting my cheek. "It's nasty~ Besides! We have to stream!" I say, Kuroo chuckling as he shrugs his shoulders. "Which means that time is ticking down for you to agree." Kuroo says and I roll my eyes, shaking my head. "Kuroo~" I sigh and he kneels down in front of me, raising an eyebrow at me. "You really want to deal with it for three more hours?" Kuroo asks and I pause, opening my mouth to protest.

"Okay, so maybe you don't want it because it's dirty. But I can do other things, too. No mess at all, other than the one in your panties." Kuroo chuckles as he pulls my legs down, making my cheeks burn. "Kuroo…" I sigh, knowing that he was being stubborn. "Just let me do this now and then you can tell me no as many times as you want; I'm just trying to help, Kitten. I know it hurts, so just bite on and scratch as much as you want." Kuroo says as he pries my snuggy off, making me huff. "You're not even gonna listen anyways…" I grumble, making him chuckle as he tosses my snuggy over the back of my neck. "Yeah, you're right." Kuroo says as he leans up, capturing my lips in a soft kiss. I let my eyes fall closed as I slowly wrap my arms around his neck, his hands settling on my hips and caging me into my chair. His hot arms lay beside my thighs as he leaned up, pulling my chair right up to him and me with it. He wrapped his arms around my waist, his tongue sliding over my bottom lip and eliciting a soft moan from me. He tilts his head as he slides his hot tongue into my mouth, tangling with mine and deepening our kiss. I whimper softly as I press into him, feeling another wave of cramps coming on.

"Another one?" Kuroo asks and I nod, though he drops his lips down to my neck, kissing it softly. "Forgive me, Kitten." Kuroo whispers, confusing me- he drops his head down, pulling my shirt out of the way. He tugs my bra cup out of the way as his other hand slides down between my legs, unbuttoning and unzipping my jeans. "K-Kuroo!" I protest though he captures my nipple in his mouth, beginning to suck, lick and nip at it. I cry out in surprise, his hot mouth assaulting my tender swollen breast and sending potent pleasure through my body. I slap my hand over my mouth, feeling hot all over as he rolls his tongue over my nipple and slides his hand into my pants. I whimper helplessly as I lean back in my chair, Kuroo's mouth following my breast and continuing his torment. "Tet… su… ro..." I whimper helplessly, squeezing my eyes shut as he suckles on my nipple. I wrap my arm around his neck and tangle my fingers in his hair, whimpering as my body trembles. Kuroo cups his hand to my core through my panties and pad, beginning to lightly grope and spread the heat of his palm within. "Guess it's lucky that I memorized your body…" Kuroo chuckles as he adjusts his hand lightly.

His finger suddenly presses through my pad, right against my aching bud and making me suck in a sharp breath as he starts rubbing it. "There…" Kuroo whispers, circling his finger around my bud through my pad as he returns his mouth to my breast. It felt strange- the heat between my legs, the soft pad and harsh pressure of his finger- it felt good. The pleasure fought against the pain of my cramp, putting me in a weird state of limbo as it seemed to stop my cramp right as it was building up to torment me. My body was hot, pleasure pulsing through me and the baited tension of a cramp in my stomach. "Come on Kitten, cum for your daddy." Kuroo whispers, making me shiver as I felt my face burning. "Let daddy take care of you… let daddy soothe those pesky cramps of yours." He whispers, my whole body feeling like it was on fire as I tug gently on his hair. He chuckles softly, dipping his head back down to my breast and capturing my nipple in his mouth. I whimper desperately as I arch my back into his hot mouth, my head spinning as all the pleasure builds in my core. I pant softly as my head falls back on the headrest of my gaming chair, my whole body trembling with anticipation.

"Cum for your daddy, princess." Kuroo says and I let out a shuddering breath as bliss washes over me, my head spinning as I pant desperately for air. "Good girl…" Kuroo chuckles, slowly circling my aching bud and making me writhe and whimper at the overwhelming bliss. "Shh… this will help, trust me." Kuroo says, my body feeling like goo as I curl around his torso, moaning helplessly. "It'll relieve that ache." Kuroo whispers softly as I dig my nails into the back of his head, burying my head into his neck and biting on. Kuroo groans softly, pressing his finger harder against my aching bud, giving it two deft rolls. My teeth tremble in his neck as my body convulses, stars flying across my vision as I feel like I can't catch my breath. Kuroo pulls his hand from my pants and I pry my teeth from his neck, sucking in a sharp breath. I moan sweetly as I collapse back into my chair, my cramp long forgotten. "All better now." Kuroo says as he fixes my bra and shirt, chuckling softly as I try to catch my breath. My head felt like it was in the clouds, just light as my body felt like goo. Kuroo hums softly as he takes my snuggy, sliding it back onto me and kissing my forehead before he leaves me alone.

"Welcome back! So, we had a ton of fans request that we play the game Little Nightmares. Now, this is a solo game, but we will be playing it together and giving our thoughts and opinions as we go along. We will progress at different paces, but we will do our best not to spoil anything. That being said, I've been informed this is a horror game. I may scream and get scared, I'm not good with horror. I will do my best to moderate myself so the others can enjoy the experience, but I am not immune to jump scares and the involuntary fear they bring. However, I have reason to believe that I'm the only one that will be screaming here." I say, though Suna snorts as I hear Kuroo chuckle. "Nothing new, Pudding." Kozu teases, making my cheeks burn as I make a flustered face. "Oh my- come on guys, let's play!" I grumble as we all start the game at the same time. "Okay, hello doll lady!" I chime, a little freaked out as she creepily turns around. "Are you already getting scared, Sunshine?" Suna asks, though I quickly shake my head as we spawn in as a little cloaked kid. "Nope! Totally not! Oh my gosh, look at me! I'm so tiny and cute with my little raincoat!" I say as I dash around in little circles- so cute!!!

"What little kid would have a lighter like that?! Oh my gosh, bending over like that with a lit lighter- you're begging to catch your hair on fire! Don't play with fire, ladies and gentlemen! It is not a- holy cow that's huge!" I gasp as I look out at the chains and spacious background, the boys chuckling lightly. "Cheez~ my little bean is tiny compared to those!" I say, using my nickname for my tiny character; I had already developed an attachment. "Where was I? Oh yeah, fire is not a toy!" I chime as I keep moving forward, noticing a little figure of a glass lady. "Oh! It's the lady, can I pick her up?" I hum as I walk over, Kozu telling me the button. "Aww yeah, let's go little lady." I chime as I crouch into the next room, holding the figure. "Oh… Oh. Trigger warning for those who haven't seen." Kozu mumbles, seeming a bit put off as I hum softly. "Okay, I can't climb with the little lady… how do I put her down?" I ask, running around as Kuroo tells me a button, though it makes me throw her, making her break. "Wha- ah! Ahh! You- Stupid rooster head! My friend! Oh, I'm so sorry little lady, blame that stupid rooster, even though I got an achievement…" I grumble as I climb onto the bed, hopping around.

"Mama called the doctor and the doctor said!" I chime as I hop up to the window, climbing through. "Oh." I say, my face falling when I see the man hanging from the ceiling. "I- oh. Oh. Um. Wow. Okay. That's uh… that's some long legs you got there, mister, but uh, they should be on the ground." I say, itching the back of my neck as I find it hard to smile at the scene. "You saw it?" Kuroo asks as I just stare, my lips in a tight frown. "You okay?" Suna asks softly as I slowly drop my hand down, lightly fiddling with my fingers. "Bad memories." I whisper softly, knowing that at one point I had been in the man's position. The boys are all silent as I take a deep breath, closing my eyes. "It's not the answer. Suicide is never going to be the right answer; It's simply a means to an end. An end that absolutely no one deserves, no matter who you are or what you've done. It's okay to not be happy, it's okay to want to scream and cry your way through life… it's okay to not be okay. Once you acknowledge that… you can work on your road to recovery. Suicide… it just does a lot more harm than good. It hurts everyone and it destroys you as a person." I say softly, dropping my head and fiddling with my fingers.

"It's not okay to give up on yourself, not entirely. Someone out there has faith in you, your life has meaning to them… your parents, your grandparents… siblings, friends, family. I have faith in you. I have faith in everyone… and I can say without a doubt in my mind that suicide is not an option. I've seen father's cry, I've seen mother's scream like their heart has been torn out of their chests… I've seen the joy fade from grandparents eyes. I've seen siblings frown, cry, the light fade from their eyes as they're told that their loved one isn't coming home. I've seen sobbing, begging, just pure pain and guilt. I've seen friends blame themselves for not being there, for not being enough… it is never the answer. It is simply more pain and suffering for those who are dearest to you." I say softly, tears gathering in my eyes though I let them come. "It's perfectly normal to need help, to reach out in your time of need… someone out there is waiting to listen. Just be open, honest… tell them you're not okay, that you just need someone to talk to, or you just need them to come over and sit with you. You're not alone, there is hope out there for you." I say, the tears dropping down my face and falling on my snuggy.

"You matter. Your life is precious and valuable, don't let anyone tell you different. Diamonds are formed under pressure, so the more pressure you take the stronger you get. Everyday will get a little easier, everyday is another reason to live; every day we are given on this planet is a gift, but it can feel like a burden. Just because you're not happy now doesn't mean you won't be happy someday. One day, you'll look back at your past… all those moments when you were crying and alone… just wishing for it all to go away, that the pain and suffering would just stop…That you could just give up and throw in the towel… you'll look back on that someday… and you'll think, wow. If you could see where I am now… it's worth it. Yeah, life is tough, shit hits the fan. But life isn't gonna meet you halfway. Never has, never will. You've got to want a better life, strive for a better life. You have to fight all the odds, stand against your fears and overcome them to have a better life. When you acknowledge you're not okay, when you find your will to live through those around you… they will help set the foundation so you can truly live." I say, a lump forming in my throat though I take my water, taking a sip.

"Suicide is never the answer. Never was, never will be. Life is like the ultimate challenge, and it's constantly taunting you, asking you if you can take it. Can you handle that? Yes, you can. I believe in you. There are people out there who will take your hand and help you through it all… even if their hand isn't much, even if they're weak and broken just like you. Get through it together, life wasn't meant to be spent alone. Never was, never will be. You think humanity got this far alone? Nope. Isolating yourself, closing yourself off… that's not the answer either. I get it though, it just seems easier to not reach out when you're hurting because you know they might not care, they might just brush you off… you just need to find someone who does. Surround yourself with the right kind of people and you'll have a happy life. Toxic people will just drag you down and poison your life until you feel like you're choking for air. Good people… they're like a breath of life, a nice cool breeze on a sunny day. The kind that just makes you smile because- damn, that feels good. You want more breezes like that, you want more beautiful days like that." I say, a small smile forming on my face as I wipe my tears.

"It's okay to want more, to seek out more… you don't have to lie. Lying will get you nowhere. The truth will set you free and it'll open up paths you never knew existed. Don't hide who you are just because you're scared to be rejected. What's the point of being with someone if you're not yourself? They should accept you, your flaws, quirks and deep dark secrets. Have faith, have hope, have love and laughter… you can never get enough of that. Just… your heart isn't the same after you've felt love. Life isn't the same after you've felt love. Being loved, loving someone… No matter the degree, no matter the scale… never hide it. Don't be ashamed of your love. It's okay to reach out if you think someone's not okay, too. Extending a hand can save a life. Lemme tell you, there's nothing like changing a life for the better." I laugh softly, brushing a strand of hair back behind my ear. "Ah… that's some heavy talk for just a game, huh? I don't know... Maybe it's the words someone needed to hear, you know? Words of the wise, I guess. Let's get back to the game, shall we? Rest in peace, game guy. I hope you're in a better place." I say sheepishly, knowing it was weird to say to pixels.

"Damn girl, talk about a speech. The chat was flooded with tears and wholesomeness." Arthur chuckles as I set my headphones down, the stream paused as we had finished the game. "Mm. You gonna come get this hug or not? I'm not moving." I say and Arthur chuckles as he comes over, hugging me tight- Arthur hugs are best hugs. I give a big shit about you kind of hugs, the rare hugs to receive. "Ugh, jeez. Had me tearing up there with your words." Arthur says as he buries his head into my neck, making me smile as I pat his back. "Aww, is wittle Artur gonna be a wuss and cry a wittle?" I tease, making Arthur laugh as he pulls away from me. "Okay, moment ruined." Arthur says though I take his hand, squeezing it lightly as I smile up at him. "I love you." I chime and he makes a pretend disgusted face, pulling his hand away. "Aww, is wittle Kiki gonna get sentimental and show a wittle affection?" Arthur teases, making me let out a giddy laugh as I kick him in the shin. "Ow! Fuck! Jeez, always in the same place!" Arthur says as he scowls, rubbing his shin. "Ha~ Ha~" I tease, though he chuckles as he shoves me lightly. We get into a little play flight, both of us laughing in a little hand slap battle.

"Hey, I'm gonna smoke. Wanna join?" Suna asks from the door, scaring Arthur and making him jump out of his skin. "Ha! Little bitch got scared!" I laugh hysterically as his face turns red, furiously shaking his head. "What?! No! He was just quiet, I didn't hear him coming up! Besides, you're the little bitch here!" Arthur protests though I just grin up at him and giggle softly. "That the best you got, cock sucker?" I ask, Arthur laughing as he shakes his head. "Whatever! Come on, let's go smoke! It'll help!" Arthur chimes, walking to the door as I groan softly. "Go ahead, I'll catch up." I say as Arthur grins back at me, a twinkle in his eye. "Oh, don't blame me when the roll isn't up to par." Arthur says and I snort as he and Suna head to Arthur's room. I take a deep breath before peeling off my snuggy and heating pad. I then head to my bathroom and clean up, changing my pad again before I head to Arthur's room. I stretch my arms over my head as I hum, walking over to my beanbag and collapsing down onto it. Everyone was here, Suna taking a hit off a blunt before passing it to Kuroo. "Was it easier this time, Kitten?" Kuroo says before he hits the blunt, passing it to Kozu as he slowly exhales.

"Mm." I say as I settle into my beanbag, feeling my eyelids grow heavy- we still had two hours of minecraft to play, but all the cramps, sitting around, gaming, Kuroo's 'help' and the jump scares were weighing down on me. It had been a long tiring week in general, especially since I had been planning Aima's surprise baby shower and the surprise valentine's day for my friends and family. "You got two more hours to go." Arthur says and I hum affirmatively, Kozu hitting the blunt before passing it to me. I close my eyes and hit it, laying my head back as I pass it to Arthur. "You gonna make it?" Arthur asks and I hum softly, slowly exhaling the smoke as I stretch my legs out. "Who rolled it?" I ask, Arthur cackling as I slowly pried my eyes open. "I did." Suna says and I hum, slowly lifting my head up. "Figures. Arthur's ass can't roll to save his life. He can't even split." I snort, grinning at Arthur as he rolls his eyes, passing the blunt to Suna. "Whatever. I never smoke alone and other people know how to roll." Arthur says and I giggle softly as Suna passes the blunt to Kuroo. "What will you do when you and your bud don't know how to roll?" I tease, Arthur humming softly as he sits back in his chair.

"I'll call you to roll for me." Arthur chimes, making me laugh as I shake my head. "Hopeless, I swear." I snort and giggle as Kuroo passes the blunt to Kozu. "We can get through anything together right?" Arthur says and I roll my eyes at his antics. "Better than doing your dishes." I say, Arthur laughing as Kozu passes me the blunt. I take a hit, though I wince as I feel another cramp coming on. Nope- I pass it to Arthur and he takes it before I turn to my right and bury my head into my arm, starting to cough out a lung. "Shit, you okay?" Arthur laughs as I curl into a ball, putting my head between my legs. "I'm fucking dying!" I groan as I feel tears gathering in my eyes. "On the contrary, you're a mature and capable woman." Arthur says as I take a deep breath, lifting the hair off the back of my neck. "Mature and capable of kicking your ass." I say as I catch my breath, slowly steadying it. "It's just a little blood, Kiki." Arthur snorts and I turn to glare at him as he passes the blunt to Suna. "'It's just a little blood,' bitch shut the fuck up. I'd like to see you try dealing with blood coming out of your ass and having cramps for days." I say, though I can already tell I fucked up as Arthur gives me a mischievous grin.

"I do on a particular rough night, so man up and quit being a little bitch." Arthur says and I make a disgusted face, gagging at the thought. "Oh my- oh my fucking- Arthur you are fucking disgusting! How many times do I gotta tell you I don't want to fucking know?!" I say, taking the sticky notes from his desk and throwing them at him. "Oh, but it's so absolutely wonderful getting absolutely railed Kiki. I mean, just absolutely having your shit torn up- it hits differently." Arthur says as he catches the sticky notes and puts them back on his desk. "I'm about to hit you differently if you don't shut your nasty ass mouth, Arthur Motherfucking Nasty Ass Pendragon." I grumble, Arthur cackling softly as he leans forward. "That's the best part though, the nasty ass mess-" Arthur says though I bolt up and he screeches, moving so fast he knocks his chair over. He falls flat on his ass with a loud thud, though he automatically scrambles up and out of the door. "That's what I thought, you little bitch! Keep your nasty motherfucking ass out there!" I call after him, hearing him laughing maniacally. "I'm a daddy fucker and so are you, you little bitch!" Arthur says though I leap over his chair, fully intent on kicking his ass.

"You know when they say blow your back out and that you'd be walking funny for a year, they usually mean in a fun sexy way, not literally…" Arthur grumbles as he hobbles back up the stairs, Suna looking at his phone with a big grin- he got the whole thing on recording. Kuroo had been laughing his ass off, rolling around and banging his fist on the ground. "Bork." I say and Arthur yelps, jumping up two stairs. "Sorry, what was that you big scaredy cat?" I snort as Arthur gives me a playful glare, jogging up the stairs. "Ow, ow, ow… shit, my ass hurts." Arthur asks and I can't help but smile as I shove my hands in my pockets. "Maybe if you go wash it it'll feel better. Nasty Ass." I snort and Arthur rolls his eyes, a light grin spreading over his face. "Whatever. I'll have my revenge, just you wait." Arthur says and I snort as I head into my game room. "For now you'll have to ice your ass and pray to the gods that it doesn't fall off." I chime as I take a seat in my gaming chair, putting on my heating pad and snuggy and getting comfy. I did feel better after kicking his ass- it always helped to see other people suffer, especially if they were annoying the shit out of you and asking for it.

"Okay, um… I'll collect wood." I say as I dash to a nearby forest, beginning to wack at a tree. "I'll make tools." Kozu says as he follows me, beginning to cut down a tree with me. "Can you make me a pickaxe? I'll gather cobblestone." Suna says and I make a crafting bench and set it down. "Yeah, just gather till it breaks." Kozu says as he hops over to it and I get back to the trees, smacking them down. "I'll start gathering food, then." Kuroo says, beginning to dash around and kill animals. "You put the food on the table." I giggle, Kuroo chuckling softly as I start gathering the sticks and saplings from the ground. I plant the saplings as I go, humming softly. "Here you go, Pudding." Kozu says as he drops me a stone axe, making me smile. "Ooh~ Tank ya very much!" I chime as I use it to start gathering wood, going faster now. I collect all the saplings, sticks and even an apple. I run over to Kozu who's at the crafting table, hopping on top and crouch dancing until he looks up at me. "I offer you a gift." I chime as I drop the apple from my inventory to him. "An apple for my Pi." I giggle and Kozu chuckles softly, eating it. "Yum." He says and I run back to gather more wood- I had about two stacks now.

"Beautiful mistakes. I make inside my head, she's naked in my bed and now we lie awake, makin' beautiful mistakes." I sing softly as I build us a shack using the spare stone and all the wood I had gathered. Kuroo was off getting me sand, Kozu and Suna were strip mining and exploring caves. "I wouldn't take 'em back, I'm in love with the past; and now we lie awake, makin' beautiful mistakes." Suna sings, making me smile as I build another layer up so I can start the roof. "Nah-nah-nah, in my head." I sing, crouch walking my way around the build. "Nah-nah-nah, in my bed." Suna sings, though I see something green walk into the house. "Wahh! No! Why'd you have to come inside?" I groan disappointedly, knowing that I left my sword in the chest down there. "That's what she said." Suna mumbles, making Kuroo laugh as I roll my eyes at their antics. "Are you okay, Pudding?" Kozu asks and I blow out a breath- I could hop down and lead him out, but I wouldn't have a sword to fight him with. If I jump in and grab my sword he'll probably blow up. "There's a creeper in the house and my swords in the chest right next to him…" I mumble as I see Kuroo running over and brandishing his sword.

"W-wait! Not inside! Please not inside!" I protest as Kuroo runs in, wacking the creeper twice- it explodes, destroying the chest and floor. "No! Oh… no…" I whimper, covering my face and letting out a disappointed groan. "How could you? I told you, not inside… look at the mess you made." I whine, hopping down and gathering everything up. "Oops. It exploded." Kuroo chuckles throatily though I smack him, clicking my tongue and huffing. "No shit! Now I gotta clean this up… jeez, it's all messy…" I grumble, beginning to fix the floor and placing the chest back down. "I'm so gonna take that audio clip, edit a bit and uh… I'll send it to you guys for your enjoyment." Arthur chuckles and I open my mouth to protest. "I'm sorry Kitten, but I brought you a gift." Kuroo says and I pause, raising an eyebrow as Kuroo runs over to me. "Here." He says, dropping me a flower- I snort, giggling as I walk over to the chest. "I think I have some…" I mumble as I look in my other chest and Kuroo runs over to the furnace, beginning to toss the sand I had him gather in. "No?" I mumble, looking closer through the chest- did I not have clay? "Two steps ahead of you, Kitten." Kuroo says, tossing me a pot and making me smile.

"Thank you~" I chime, humming as I look around the room. There was really no place to put it- this was just a simple shack, a hub for everyone before I built my house. "Urgh." I groan as I squint at the screen, running my tongue over my teeth. "What?" Kuroo asks as I hum, walking to the middle of the shack and looking around. "Nowhere to put it." I mumble, making Kuroo chuckle as I huff, tapping my finger. "Okay… we've got about an hour left…" I mumble as I run over to the chest, looking through- I had planned on making a farm, but I had been eyeing a clearing nearby as a project area. Kuroo had kept the wool from all his kills, so we had quite a bit… I toss the flower and pot in the bottom right corner of the chest, grabbing all the wool. I could do this- I could use slabs other than the ground level and make a two story. The roof could be an attic with a balcony- the second story could also have a balcony, I could use fences as a terrace and support for aesthetics. Ground level could be a gathering area- the right side could be a couch like fireplace room, the left could be a kitchen/crafting area. Second floor could be the bedroom area, I could make it nice- third would be storage…

"Can you get me more? Oh… shoot, books would be nice but… ah, I can just add it later. Mm, I think that's enough glass… I'm gonna use the cobble in the chest. Good thing I kept the logs… torches and sticks..." I mumble as I gather up materials, already thinking up the foundation as I go through. "Okay. Don't mind me if I'm out of the shack for a while." I say as I run to the clearing I had been scouting- it was a ways away. "Where are you going? What do you need more for?" Kuroo asks as I disappear into the trees, bouncing through. "You'll see when it's finished. I need the dye. Don't use the wool, glass or stone please." I say as I get to work, extending the clearing and making it as flat as I can. I then lay down the foundation, a 40 by 20 floor with a log rim, a space for stone brick to line the inside, using wood to fill in the floor though I leave the 4 entryway blocks empty so I can make them into red wool. I build each story 5 blocks tall, using wood slabs as the balconies and stairs on the roof. I make sure to finish off the roof with slabs so mobs don't spawn on top, then going back in and setting the frame for windows. "I got your flowers." Kuroo says and I hum- I needed to get the glass and stone.

I dash back to the shack, walking over to furnaces and taking the glass and stone out. I eat something and grab the wool, Kuroo tossing me the red flowers. "We don't have silk…" I mumble as I go through the chests- anything else that could come handy? "Are you going to use that brick?" I ask as I grab some decorative stuff for the bed level. "No, go ahead." Kuroo says and I hum, taking all the bricks before I dash back out of the shack. "Thanks." I say as I dash my way back to the house, getting to work on finishing it up- I lay down crafting benches, 2 per room before I fill in the gaps on base level with the stone brick. I then use the brick to make a makeshift fireplace, complete with a chimney. I then make sitting areas, a couch like area complete with red carpet. I fill in the entryway empty spaces with red wool, then make glass panes and fill in the empty spaces on the walls. I place the dark oak doors, heading back in and heading to the bedroom. I would do the kitchen later, right now we really needed a spawn point. I feel another cramp coming on and I take a deep breath, this one was gonna be painful. I lay my head on my desk for a minute, slowly breathing out.

I sit back up, pressing my lips tightly together as I make the bed frames, making sure they look nice. I put two beds on each side of the room, two per frame. I wince as my stomach starts hurting, parting my lips slightly as I took steady shallow breaths- fuck that hurt. "I made you books." Kuroo says and I hum softly, biting my lip in an attempt to distract myself from the pain in my stomach. "We're coming back now." Kozu says as I finish the bedroom- the house was done for the most part, just in need of some decorating. I head up to the attic and place two chests, emptying my inventory into it before I dash back to the shack. "Hey, books are in the chest." Kuroo says as he sees me dashing in, though I start filling my inventory with all the stuff in the chests. "Uh, what are you doing?" Kuroo asks though I don't say anything, dashing back to the house and emptying my inventory into the chest. I then run back, grabbing the rest of the stuff from the chest before I break it and the furnaces, grabbing everything up. "Hey, what are you doing?" Kuroo asks though I don't say anything, instead typing 'grab and follow' in chat, not trusting my voice as I was in pain.

"Uh… okay." Kuroo says, swooping in and grabbing the rest of the stuff from the floor just as Kozu and Suna get back from their mining trip. "Okay, uh, what happened to everything?" Suna asks as I pass him out the door, starting to walk to the house. "She took it all. I'm just as confused as you are." Kuroo says though Kozu hums, following me. "Well, she wants us to follow so…" Kozu says and I feel a wave of stabbing pain in my stomach. I suck in a sharp breath and drop my head down, pulling my hands off of my keyboard as I clench my teeth. I groan softly in pain as I squeeze my eyes shut, taking deep breaths through my nose. "Are you okay, Kitten?" Kuroo asks as I slowly exhale, regaining my composure and lifting my head. "Fine." I say, putting my hands back on the keyboard and continuing to lead them back to the house. "Doesn't sound fine." Suna says as we walk through the forest, getting close to the house. "I just got a sudden headache." I say as I bite my cheek softly, bouncing my legs- fuck, it hurt. "Oh. Do you want to hop off?" Kozu asks softly though I just hum softly. "We're almost finished anyway." I say as we break through the trees, the house coming into view.

"Whoa- is that what you've been doing this whole time?" Kuroo asks and I hum, heading into the house and up the stairs, stashing the stuff away. "This is… wow." Suna says as I head back down, putting the furnaces into the Kitchen. "I'll decorate it more later on, when I have more stuff…" I mumble as the boys all head into the house and explore. "Wow, there's even a living room; is that a fireplace?" Kuroo says as I head upstairs, walking over to my bed, the one to the back left. "We should get a campfire and set it up in the fireplace." Kozu says as I place the pot behind my bed on the headboard, putting the flower inside. I can't help but smile as I back up- it fit right in, looking beautiful with the bedframe. "There." I say softly, leaning back in my chair and taking a deep breath. "Did you build this whole place just for that?" Kuroo chuckles softly as he comes up, walking over to the bed. "No, I built this house cause our shack was just temporary and not with much space. It was motivation cause there was nowhere to put it… but I didn't build the house for just that reason." I admit, the others coming up and checking out the bedroom. "Nice." Suna says as he runs over and sleeps in the bed beside mine.

"Looks like you and Pi get the other beds, Kitty Cat." I say as I sleep in my bed, though Kuroo scoffs. "Uh, no, I'm sleeping next to you." Kuroo says, making me snort as I hear something breaking. "Hey, first come first serve. Get your own bed, this spot is mine." Suna says and I laugh as I realize that Kuroo broke Suna's bed. "No sabotaging the beds, guys. Come on, set your spawn points." I say, Suna placing his bed back down and going back to sleep. Kuroo hops onto my bed, creeping over me and peeking into my view. "Wouldn't you rather sleep with me?" Kuroo asks and I roll my eyes as I smile. "I'd rather not spend the next hour arguing with you about who's sleeping next to who. Go to your bed, Kitty Cat." I say, Kuroo groaning as he runs over to his bed. "I see how it is. You want to sleep with Suna instead of me." Kuroo says and I can't help but feel a bit amused at his slight jealousy. "At least I'll actually get to sleep." I joke, making Kuroo chuckle as he sleeps in the other bed frame. "What are you doing, Pudding Head?" Kuroo asks as we all wait for him to come lay down. "I'm putting all the stuff up and smelting the ores real quick." Kozu says and I lean back in my chair, twining my fingers.

"Oh, hold on." Suna mumbles as he hops up, running downstairs as Kozu runs up to the attic, hearing a chest open. I cover my mouth as I yawn softly, curling up in a ball as I wait patiently. I giggle as I see Kuroo hop out of his bed, dashing over and taking the bed next to mine. "No Kitty Cat, what'd I say?" I sigh as he chuckles softly, not budging from his spot. "No take backs." Kuroo says as Kozu comes down from the attic, walking over. He breaks the bed out from under Kuroo, making him gasp. "Really, you too Pudding Head?" Kuroo groans, though I roll my eyes and smile at their antics. "Oh my- guys, I'm sleeping next to Sloth. He got the spot first, we're not gonna start something petty like bed breaking and stealing." I say, though I hear Suna sigh as he heads up to the attic. "But we always sleep together, Pudding." Kozu says as Kuroo puts the bed back down, though he doesn't move to take it. "Well yeah, but Suna claimed that spot." I say and Kozu hums, running over to the other bed frame. I hear a chest open as I hear something break, Kozu coming back over. I laugh as he places his bed next to mine, covering my face and curling tighter into my ball.

"Oh my- really? Why didn't I think of that?" Kuroo groans as I lift my head, shaking it as I smile. "Pi… I put two beds on each side for a reason, you know I like symmetry." I say as he doesn't say anything- I glance over at his screen, seeing him pouting. "Please? You're right across the room, it's only to sleep." I beg softly and he sighs, hopping back up. "Fine… I guess…" he mumbles as he breaks his bed, taking it back across the room and setting it down. "Thank you, I owe you." I say as Kuroo lays back in Suna's bed as Kozu lays down in his spot. "Mhm." Kozu hums as Suna comes back down, breaking the bed out from under Kuroo. "Hey! No bed sabotage!" Kuroo protests and Suna snorts as he smacks Kuroo away. "No bed stealing. It's not bed sabotage if it's my bed in the first place." Suna says as he takes the bed, setting it back down and laying down in it. "I- Well- uh- I-" Kuroo protests and I sigh, laying my head on my shoulder. "Please… just sleep, Kitty Cat…" I beg softly and Kuroo huffs, running over to his bed. "Fine. I'm not happy, though." Kuroo says as he finally lays down, all of us sleeping. "I don't see why it's a big deal." I say as I run down to the fireplace room, hopping on the couch.

"It's who gets to lay next to you." Kuroo grumbles, coming up and parkouring the couches. "Yeah, who gets to sleep next to me… in a game. Where the beds are separate, placed together and used solely for respawning." I say, lightly mocking him for being so petty. "You've never had a minecraft boyfriend, huh?" Kuroo says and I snort, a smile spreading over my face. "Actually, I haven't. I've only ever dated one person, in game or not. I'm guessing you've had minecraft girlfriends, though." I say, glancing over at his stream- he opens his mouth, closing it, then opening it again. His face turns pink as he covers it, dropping his hands down. "When I was like, 12." He says shyly, making me giggle as he uncovers his face, perching his head on his palm. "Must be a nerd thing." I giggle and his face turns bright red, making me smile as I knew I had flustered him. "Alright critters, that's all our time today! Get a full night's rest tonight, we'll be back again tomorrow! Like, comment, subscribe and hit the notification bell to keep up with us! I look forward to more fun times with you all! Ciao!" I chime before we all end our streams- I take a deep breath, taking off my headset and setting it down.