Zhang Zhentian feels that what he should do most now is to stay by his father's side, to make up for all he owes him. His father has never even asked him for compensation, so what reason does he have to repeatedly let his father suffer all the harm while he just stands by, watching? Is it really the life he wants for his father, as a son? Such a life would only bring his father more pain, again and again.
Sometimes, he thinks he should really consider whether his actions are wrong from his father's perspective. Only through empathy can one experience a different life; standing in others' shoes might truly change the outcome.
At times, he feels like a mere clown, used easily by others, swayed by a few sweet words, making him run around in circles. In others' eyes, he might be worth nothing until everyone realizes this truth: no one in his family chooses to trust their kin anymore—the only one they can trust is themselves.