"Don't deny it. You want it." Killian said to me, stroking the nape of my neck with his thumb. His face is so close to mine and I forgot to breathe. I gasped when he pushed my dress higher, revealing my thighs to him and let his hands rest between my thighs. 

I tilted my head to the side to avoid his lustful gaze, penetrating deep into my soul. 

"Your body craves it." He said, firing kisses down my neck till his lips touched my hard, naked nipples. That sent shivers down my spine. My body erupted with goosebumps and I exhaled sharply. I want to speak, but I can't. He has that much effect on me. His tongue played with my nipples and I mewled. That felt so good. 

"You want me as much as I want you." He whispered with his lips pressed on my skin. I shouldn't be doing this. I know I should stay away from this man but how can I when he invades my thoughts daily? When he's the only one my body wants. It's frustrating because no matter how hard I try, I can't say no to him. And I am this close to making the worst mistake of my life. I swallowed, trying to fathom the words out.His fingers brushed my core and I jerked forward, pressing my body on his. 

"I don't want you." 

"You're lying." He said, playing with the strap of my thong with a lazy finger. My eyes rolled back in my socket with pleasure. I am lying but he's making it so hard.

"We shouldn't be doing this, Killian." Killian? Do I really have the right to call him that? 

"Give me one reason why and I won't touch you."

"Because you're my best friend's Fiance."

SEX WITH MY BEST FRIEND'S FIANCÉ

 My fingers are itchy. I’ve been scratching the back of my palm throughout this whole ride that it’s starting to twinge. 


 I finally decide to stop before the scratch turns into little sores across my skin and now, I’m biting my fingernails instead. 


 I am so freaking pissed. Every time my mind goes back to what happened in his place, my body fumes. Anger surges all around my body. I get consumed by it and I’ve been taking it on the back of my palm. 


 This is not me, I’m not someone to self hurt when I’m angry, but somehow, he’s got me hurting myself. Again. 


 Caro- no, Asami. Fucking Asami is her name!! I take a deep breath, trying not to escalate this burning feeling within myself. I try to calm down. 


 Every time I think about what she said, how quiet Killian was and how she acted like having broken fragments of fine porcelain all around her and probably in her skin didn’t faze a thing still gets on my nerves. 


CHAPTER 137