"Don't deny it. You want it." Killian said to me, stroking the nape of my neck with his thumb. His face is so close to mine and I forgot to breathe. I gasped when he pushed my dress higher, revealing my thighs to him and let his hands rest between my thighs. 

I tilted my head to the side to avoid his lustful gaze, penetrating deep into my soul. 

"Your body craves it." He said, firing kisses down my neck till his lips touched my hard, naked nipples. That sent shivers down my spine. My body erupted with goosebumps and I exhaled sharply. I want to speak, but I can't. He has that much effect on me. His tongue played with my nipples and I mewled. That felt so good. 

"You want me as much as I want you." He whispered with his lips pressed on my skin. I shouldn't be doing this. I know I should stay away from this man but how can I when he invades my thoughts daily? When he's the only one my body wants. It's frustrating because no matter how hard I try, I can't say no to him. And I am this close to making the worst mistake of my life. I swallowed, trying to fathom the words out.His fingers brushed my core and I jerked forward, pressing my body on his. 

"I don't want you." 

"You're lying." He said, playing with the strap of my thong with a lazy finger. My eyes rolled back in my socket with pleasure. I am lying but he's making it so hard.

"We shouldn't be doing this, Killian." Killian? Do I really have the right to call him that? 

"Give me one reason why and I won't touch you."

"Because you're my best friend's Fiance."

SEX WITH MY BEST FRIEND'S FIANCÉ

She’s staying in a different room. Normally I wouldn’t be this bothered if I didn’t want her to stay with me in my room. When last has it been since I actually held her in my arms? When last has it been since I had her here with me, peacefully laying by my side on my bed? The highlight of my nights back then was watching her beautiful self sleep. Even though I always had one thing or the other keeping me awake, watching her was the most reassuring and satisfying thing ever. It somewhat gave me peace. 


I always wondered how it’ll be when I finally understood what was going on with her and brought her here. I know alright, and she’s here but things seem different. Things seem strained. 


Don’t get me wrong, I am insanely angry that she did what she did but I can’t blame her. Not when I keep secrets and not when she’s at the age to be easily blackmailed by something so fickle. I let out a sigh, checking the time on my phone. 11:29pm. 


CHAPTER 187