chapter twenty eight

Tessa pov

She slowly took my hands in her's which made me look at her in the eyes and she continued saying that she was sorry for all I've gone through with the divorce which happened between her and Dad, and how much she knew it would have an impact on me the most cause I've always loved Dad which made me looked away from her gaze; she apologized saying that she thought she could make it up to me by always being around to give me all the support which I ever needed but I guess I was more into Dad than her which made her only her tried countless times to have a proper conversation with me, I buried myself into her embrace drowning in the comfort which I found in her cause I've always wanted to feel this way with Dad.

I rather found this comfort in mom instead who I've always never really given much time too; talk less of spend a day with her which made me more regretful of myself for constantly pushing the one person who has always cared for me so much even though I never knew about it, she patted my back so gently that made me feel like crying all over again which made her told me to stop already that I don't deserve it but rather smile cause I got two men who loves me like crazy which made me laugh amidst sobbing, and I guess mom have always been a great person all along but I just didn't noticed.

We stayed there for a couple of minutes enjoying the calm atmosphere present in the room after which I lifted my head and stared at mom while she smiled at me, which made me asked her one question which I never knew I would ask "" why did you divorced dad "" she moved a bit from me this time and watched my face closely before answering; "" well he was never around much when you were growing up even if he did try keeping most of his responsibilities towards the family but I saw how sad you would always be whenever you see your class mates father taking them out and showing off which made me talk to him countless times about it which made him got sick of it and asked for a divorce which I thought would really make him see things differently but I'm sorry dear "" she sighed at the end of it all which made me stared at my laps, I raised my head up again and asked her why she didn't get remarried when her marriage with dad end.

She smiled at me which made me feel more relaxed around her while she said cause she wanted to spend all her time with me cause she knew the divorce had an impact on me and she was waiting for me to see that she was always here waiting to show me how much she really cared for me, and I was really getting mad at myself now cause I was really stupid running after Dad who was just as he was back then ten years ago; I asked her if she had any issues with gram's which made her nudged me lightly while smiling and said enough with the questions now go wash your face cause your gram's planned a day of relaxation on the beach for you today, which made me look at her with surprise in my eyes while she explained it all to me.

Soon I was all set for the beach which made me walked towards mom who was also ready downstairs and motioned for the both of us to leave together; well gram's did invite only me to the beach but I guess I can't leave Mom alone who I've known only wanted to spend time with me more than anything and we got into the car while driving off towards the beach, we got there and saw gram's already settled down while we joined her and she was filled with more stories to tell already which made mom and i laugh hard while grams called out to mom and asked her to forgive her if she could as well as grandpa, even though I felt lost at it all I only watched mom who only nodded at her while saying she has placed the past behind her.