Chap 8

"If an illegitimate child were to take the top spot at the Empire's academy.... you can't imagine the humiliation the nobles' children would feel. They will hold our Roar family responsible."

She spoke elegantly yet firmly.

"It's a matter of order. Lorisha."

Humiliation. Humiliation. Humiliation....

I felt like my head was going to explode. The shock she gave me on top of the fatigue from studying almost every night left me dizzy.

I fumbled, pulling out my last card.

"I'll discuss it with the Count."

But she shook her head lightly.

"You'd better not. I want to handle this matter as quietly as possible."

"Countess!"

"You can take the exam if you really want to. But even if you pass, you won't be able to continue at the academy. Who would want to study with the daughter of a street prostitute? You'll be expelled for some reason or another."

It was a threat to spread the rumor that my mother was a street prostitute, that I was the daughter of such a woman.

I sprang up from my seat, my fists trembling, fearful that my legs would not support me.

"My, my mother is.... not like that. You know that!"

"But the rumor will spread that way, and you'll have no way to deny it. Lorisha."

I managed to speak calmly, catching my rattling breath.

"But then, the honor of the Roar family and the Count? You know better than anyone that the Count isn't like that. He can't lie like that."

"I can. I will."

She stood up slowly and faced me. Her beauty was chilling.

"If I can prevent my daughter from getting hurt, even at the cost of my husband's, His Majesty's third lion's honor, I will do it. Think about it."

My rough breathing sounded in my ears.

"You'll be known as the daughter of a prostitute all your life. Even if you resist to the end using your cunning, no nobles will hire you as a private tutor. And if that happens, I will stop it."

"...."

My legs gave way. I sank slowly, and the Countess moved toward the door with the soft rustle of her gown.

Before she closed the door, she spoke softly.

"If I can't have my husband's love, shouldn't I have something else?"

(This is a time separator.)

It was strange. My life had shattered, but I didn't even cry. I just felt a bit sleepy.

An empire law notebook I had yet to memorize came to mind, but I pushed it away and went outside.

By the time I arrived in town, it was already night. The lights streaming from the shops made the commercial street appear quite enchanting as always. Suddenly, that familiar street seemed terribly strange.

I went to find the Tolman herbalist at the end of the street, wearing ordinary clothes with a cloak hood. The Tolman herbalist's grandfather didn't know I was Roar.

He was amazed that a young girl knew herbs well, and even served me tea. Then I entertained the customers as a clerk, and increased the sales, earning my tea.

He offered me a job at his shop several times.

"What's going on? You said you wouldn't come for a while."

"Ah.... I was just passing by. How's your knee?"

"It's the same every day, what's it to you?"

"Then I'll be going."

"Eh? Already? Why come if you're leaving so soon."

I turned awkwardly. Suddenly, I knew nothing. What to answer if someone spoke, what the grandfather's knee was, what the herbs were.

I just walked the night street.

I tried to think that not getting into the academy wasn't the end of the world, but the more I tried, the more it felt like there was no end to the world for me now.

Just as my mother suddenly disappeared, the opportunity of the academy suddenly disappeared. I was afraid to go on, wondering what else was before me now.

I didn't know if I should have come to this street earlier. A halfnoble is not a noble. Having such a child attached to the earl's house, I didn't know if that's where things went wrong from the start.

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