Should have shot...

She's so beautiful...

Even from up here on the 65th floor.

I can see her face in the clouds.

I can hear her voice in my mind

As the mid-day wind roars. 

But she'll never see me again

Because there is nothing between us

Or me and the ground...

And as the 62nd floor comes around

I can only imagine how she will feel

When she hears the news tomorrow

Of how I stepped from the sill.

Maybe she won't care...

Like the people dining on 58.

Another shot to end the night

I bet their meal was fucking great.

Or she'll wish that she could have saved me.

Like the woman that I made eye contact with

On 54, who screamed and reached after me...

But by then

 It was far too late.

Either way, I don't care.

I never did...

I always did...

50th

47th

The emotions that I always hid...

Maybe this is my fault!

42 was her favorite number!

Maybe I always called too late?

Interrupting her beautiful slumber.

Maybe I shouldn't have followed her...

I just wanted her to feel safe!

Maybe I shouldn't have asked her to dance

At the office party on 38...

Maybe she shouldn't be so fucking beautiful...

This is her fault!

It's her fault that I am tumbling

Past 33

I didn't fucking jump off of this building

Her rejection pushed me!

I hate her!

More now at floor 29 than I ever did!

All I wanted was a picket fence,

A little dog,

Maybe a kid.

So here I am at 26

Years old

And it's all about to end

That stupid bitch wouldn't except my love

"Well, let's just keep it as friends."

She said...

Fuck that...

I hope her window is open on 22,

Maybe she'll hear all of the screams 

When this plummet is through...

Oh god...

OH GOD!

OH GOD!

I CAN'T BREATHE!

I DON'T WANT TO DIE!

I SHOULD HAVE THOUGHT THIS THROUGH 

AS I TEETERED UP THERE ON 65!

That "wage strike" on 17,

Was the worst thing

I had going on in my life! 

I LUST LOVED HER SO FUCKING MUCH THAT IT HURT!

I couldn't even sleep at night...

FUCK HER!

I HATE HER!

I...

I...love her.

I needed her...

The 10th floor 

Was always my favorite

That's where I first greeted her...

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I should have just shot myself...