We used to run around the playground right after lunch time.
Back before the world wide web was such a major thing.
And.
I remember being out of breath and having nothing left
To pour into my tank while chasing you in the warmth of an early spring.
And
Life was different then, and you were just my newest friend.
And hardly that, I was just to lonely to let you run away...
And.
I told myself
To tell myself
To tell myself to wait, I knew that I was desperate
That energy pushes people away...
And.
You were probably nine
Because I had recently turned 10
And
I would always be so bold
In all of my friendly attempts
And
That year the winter was so cold,
To me, the coldest it had ever been
And
I just wanted a hand to hold...
But I was struggling against the wind.
I remember seeing her face for the first time.
Seeing her blooming smile.
Seeing her become more than some stranger
I imagined her laughing with me after a while.
And.
I remember her coat, all purple and green all over
Remember her height as we slowly got older.
Remember her scent.
I remember the sound
Of her tennis shoes pounding firmly off the ground.
We ran
And we ran
And we ran
And we ran until on or both of us eventually fell down.
I remember wanting to see you everyday.
I never tested well or got all the best grades...I couldn't bring myself to pay attention.
I think a lot of times, my thoughts of you would get in my way.
I didn't care, if you were there? I'd try to get detention.
My heart and mind
Were always several years ahead of their time
And I just wanted to spend those days with you
It all just made so much sense in my mind.
I never imagined
That anything else mattered
A long as I was around you, my growing pains scattered
I was probably just a bit to mature for my age
Emotional bars I was too young to shatter.
But those are some of my best and fondest recollections
Good and bad, their all a part of the same faded collection.
But you took up so many shelves in that little red section
That my memories of you probably need a little correction.
I remember all the frequent missed calls...
There was no text then.
And as we got a little bit older and stated our textin'
Free minutes after 7pm
That really was the best then.
I hit a wall along the way...
Suddenly I was your best friend.
The friendzone was very real
there's no romancing in that carriage.
I even stood as witness
Bit my tongue off for the marriage.
And nostalgia can toxic
We were just some pre-teens.
So many mixed emotions
Not of it meant the same things.
I wrote so many poems
So many letters
Even a ring...
Young me would have done anything
Just to hear your young heart sing.
Looking back, it was pretty much a one way street.
And.
I was to giving then, and boy did my love come quite cheap
And.
I pour it our for you
Between the lines of black and white sheets
Its been 9000 days
The only thing that changed
Was not me.
Time rolls by
You have several children
None of which are mine.
And
Love is tough.
And blind.
And stupid.
Mine has stood the text of time.
And
You have a new man now
I hope his love is tougher then a diamond.
I wish you both the best
I'll cheer here form the same sideline
And.
And...
And...