As it was...

Low, all alone, and lonely...

But I could never tell

You to your face, If only...

And I could never expect

You to come and console me...

And you were only looking for a means to disown me...

And My heart only needed

10 years to feel irrelevant

I tamed that pachyderm but your still ridding the elephant.

You had me out of sorts, 

So far out of development.

So caught up in your wave, fucking out of my element...

I think I might just pop a couple pills for the hell of it

So very traumatized, how the journals are telling it... 

And we had just one summer

But it seemed like the whole of life.

Condensing all the memories now, it seems like a single night...

I couldn't see the stars

All I seen was you single light.

You sought a gilded court, I was naught but a single knight...

And I thought that I was not enough...but you were the one who was lackin' 

You might have hit a lick on me that once...cause yeah, I was slackin'

You left me high and dry...out to die with the love I was packin'

But karma misses nobody...I'm sure that the guilt can be taxin' 

I still wish you all the best...from your fall there's no satisfaction. 

Shit, we are only human...maybe this is a call to action. 

Cause I've been feeling low, all alone, and lonely...

But I could never tell you that your love was just killing me.

And I could never expect you to come and console me...

And you will never sit and take the accountability. 

And I will never see your name the same and I live with it.

I took the jagged hole you left and I started to feel the shit. 

And I posted all the poetry to let the world deal with it.

Emotions get so heavy for me, I just post the realist of shit.

I hate to vent to all of you, but you get a thrill from this shit.

I think, I think, and think to much...I can't sort the real from this shit.

My world is full of shattered pieces, how do I seal all the leaks?

How do I move on from you when you were my tallest of peaks?

But you were my lowest lows.

But you were my all of me...

But you were my Achilles heel 

Yeah you were the fall of me... 

I wanted to hang myself for you.

I wanted the tallest tree...

I wanted to kill myself

For all your love

That's no falsity... 

I was feeling so low

So all alone

And so lonely...

I was never 

Looking for 

Somebody to

Own me.

And maybe

All I needed

Was the truth

Lay it on me...

But you will never see it as it was

As it was.

As it was.

As it...