Got better.

We were stumbling through the dark.

It didn't matter.

We were together...

Arms around each other.

Nothing was better.

Nothing got better.

In any weather.

You drank a drink or two

While we sat and watched Youtube

I rolled up some Gorilla glue. 

Another buzz to get us through.

It was a little island of paradise in our minds.

But one of us was destined to be left far behind...

We rose so quickly

Through the night

And the smog 

And the storm

And the wind

And the rain...

Wrapped in your arms

I could barely see

The flags and the signs

Through the pain. 

It all moved so quickly

Had no time to explain

All the odds were against me

Had no time to retain.

All of the bombs and the blast and lights and the shots

And the nights that I had to remain...

On the edge of the blade

That you tossed

And you twirled 

And you caught 

I could never escape all the shame...

We were stumbling through the steps.

But we were not alone...

That house was our home

I've loved you forever

You know my heart didn't roam...

The clouds never parted but I stayed under your dome

And all of our memories are turned into fluttering poems.

Their solid within me here, carved from bitter and broken black stones. 

And we were stumbling through the lies.

The ones that we both had.

The ones that I told.

Yeah you weren't in love

But my heart was sold...

And those words were cold.

And those eyes were bold.

And my heart was hurting itself

Just to beat for you everyday

I had no resistance to you

A weary heart floating astray.

I wish that I -did that thing...-

I wish that I -didn't do that.-

I wish that I -can't say that shit here...-

I wish I could take it all back.

I wish that we would have waited

I wish that I didn't look back...

I wish that I didn't hate it.

The time that we wasted on trash.

Another month just rolled past.

I left you in '22'

When I was just 33

And you were just doing you.

I was just bleeding out.

And you were just breathing air.

And you were feeling alone.

And I was just sitting there...

And we were stumbling through the dark.

But we were together.

Nothing was better.

But nothing got better.