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TRIGGER WARNING

°° SLIGHT BIPOLARITY, DISTURBING WORDS (CUSS) AND SLIGHT SMUT°°

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°°Mingi sat up from the bed, eyes quickly going over to the still sleeping male beside him, memories of the previous night replaying in his head like a projected movie. In all honesty, he was tired, not tired of his friend...who was he kidding...yunho was now more of a fuck buddy than a friend to him...he could barely start a normal conversation with the older without it been cut midway all in the name of pleasure, didn't matter how important the conversation was supposed to be for him. He was tired of the one-sided attraction he had for the older...his best friend; yeosang, been the only one who knew about his feelings towards yunho.. it was almost like the older was taking his feelings for granted because yes, he had confessed long ago, but all he got in return was constantly getting fucked by him like he was some sort of sex toy.

But now wasn't the time for mingi to wallow in his own despair, now wasn't the time for him to question the relationship he had with the other, now wasn't the time for him to constantly question why he couldn't stop the older from getting what he wants from him, now wasn't the time because there was something more worrying, more tormenting, more dreadful, more scary, more painful, more disturbing than whatever it was with he and yunho....

Truth be told, yes the memories of last night's pleasures were still fresh in his mind, but it wasn't the one that kept replaying, in fact it was just like a quarter of what was actually going on in his head, mingi had yeosang yes, yeosang was his best friend, yes, but he just couldn't bring himself to talk to him...they weren't on good terms because; according to yeosang, mingi was just been a fool for yunho, nothing more nothing less.

It happened way before he and yunho even met that night, he was seated at the gate alongside jungwon and hyunjae when he decided to take a little stroll around the area, just to get air into his lungs...yes mingi was actually on the beginner rank, but they were also very strong, they could equally protect themselves too. Everything had been going alright for him, just walking and walking with a free mind...but then....he spotted it.... almost like time had stopped during that moment, he remembered vividly how his breathing had automatically stopped, how he was quickly taken by that nostalgic feeling, how he had wanted to run into it's arms, embrace it and tell it how much he had missed it. 'It' because that wasn't his father anymore, his father who he loved wholeheartedly now reduced to nothing more than those putrid, disgusting, cannibalistic creatures. He had been hidden well between the tall trees so he couldn't be seen by the creatures that walked aimlessly at the distance.

He didn't even realise a tear had dropped from his eyes, landing on his naked torso, he stood up slowly from the bed so as not to wake the older up and went straight into the bathroom.

He could still try to talk to yunho hopefully he'd hear him out this time, he remembered wanting to tell the older immediately he came back to the community that night, but instead he ended up getting fucked by the male.

Mingi had cried during the deed, not out of pleasure, but out of pain...immense heart shattering pain.

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"YOU'RE LYING AGAIN YONGIE!!!"

"no I'm not, lis-"

"N..NO YOU YOU DON'T LOVE ME...I HEARD YOU!!!..Y..Y.. YOU TOLD THEM YOU REGRET FALLING FOR ME!!"

"jaehyun I would never-"

"YOU NEVER CALL ME JAEHYUN..do you hate me that much?...I..I..you told them .... BECAUSE I'M SICK RIGHT??...YOU FIND ME DISGUSTING LIKE THOSE CREATURES!!!...you hate me....why??"

"Will you at least let me talk?"

Jaehyun shook his head, wiping the tears away from his eyes as he stared with nothing but hatred at his boyfriend, he had overheard him talking to the newbies about him, what he didn't expect was the utterances he made about him, did it mean all those years they had spent together was just based off of pretense...he truly loved the older, sought comfort in him, but clearly he doesn't feel the same, never felt the same in fact...there was no use in trying to hear him out when obviously whatever was gonna come out of him would be nothing but lies..lies he wouldn't fall for, not anymore.

"There's nothing more to say taeyong...I heard you and that's all"

Jaehyun had turned back wanting to do nothing but leave that vicinity, he just couldn't stand taeyong's sight, he couldn't even stop crying, how pathetic of him...it just made him hate the older more.

"That's where you're wrong...you misunderstood me..."

"THEN MAKE ME UNDERSTAND!!... MAKE ME UNDERSTAND WHY YOU SAID THOSE!!...WHY YOU LIED TO ME ALL THESE YEARS!!....MAKE ME UNDERSTAND WHY I SHOULDN'T HATE YOU LEE TAEYONG!!.. because now...I do...I HATE you to the marrow for leading me on"

Taeyong couldn't help but burst into tears, he knew jaehyun didn't mean those words, he knew it because he had been with the younger almost all his life, them starting as best friends before dating, he knew it was jaehyun's sickness talking... jaehyun was bipolar...he could understand....but the fact the younger had told him he hated him was still painful, it hurt like hell...it was the first time afterall....

Taeyong was telling the newbies about he and jaehyun's early life before the whole apocalypse thingy, he was telling them how when he had first found out jaehyun was bipolar he had always told himself he regretted falling for the younger, but when he got to spend more time with jaehyun, he realised how much of a softie and sweet he could be...he truly loved him...with all his being.

"Cutie you don't mean it do you?"

Taeyong asked in a hushed tone, he knew jaehyun didn't mean it, he just couldn't help but ask.

"So now you use the pet name?!"

Jaehyun scoffed, eyes void of any emotion with the tears dropping from it been the only thing conveying emotions.

"Jaehyun i-"

He didn't want to hear it, didn't want to fall for it, didn't want to go back to been used...or whatever taeyong took him as, so he raised a hand at him, signalling for him to stop as he turned his back against him the second time wanting to leave again.

Jaehyun swore he wanted to go...he swore he hated the older, but the minute he took another step, he came to a halt and abruptly turned back to the older, eyes glistening with excitement as a smile started making it's way to his lips...

"I love you cutie...more than you could ever imagine"

And that was it, those three words, only those three words and jaehyun found himself throwing himself at the older, a giggle leaving his lips as he snuggled into his neck.

"Do you really mean it yongie?"

Back to calling him yongie and not Lee taeyong.

"Yes cutie... you're my everything you know that...I love you so much"

Jaehyun smiled...a big genuine one, taeyong loves him afterall... taeyong isn't pretending, never pretended to love him....

"I love you too yongie, so so much"

And just like that, softie jaehyun was back, as if he just didn't stare at the older with hatred filled eyes, as if he just didn't cry in front of the older, as if he just didn't tell him how much he hated him to the marrow, as if he just didn't doubt the love the older had for him, as if none of those ever happened.

Taeyong sighed in relief, pulling away from the hug as he brought his lips to the younger's tasting the sweet apple he had ate a few minutes ago, before the whole misunderstanding fiasco.

If there was one thing both of them enjoyed in each other, it'll definitely be their lips, to taeyong; it was the most sweetest thing he had ever tasted, even beating his mother's sweet dishes and to jaehyun; it was bliss in manifold, his sanctuary, his everything.

They pulled apart, staring lovingly at each other, jaehyun smiled at the older again, he loved him so so much, words couldn't even possibly describe it. Taeyong pulled him in for another kiss, this time deeper as their tongues clashed with one another, both fighting for dominance taeyong winning like he always did as he pulled the younger even closer connecting his lips to the younger's ear lobe, nibbling at it a little before going down to his neck, he placed a soft kiss to the flesh before marking him, earning a moan from the younger that managed to ignite more sparks in him.

He slowly brought them closer to the bed, hovering over the younger as he took in all his beauty, jaehyun mirroring his actions. Taeyong connected their lips in a needful manner, hands making it's way to jaehyun's buttoned shirt as he made sure to take out every last button before ridding the younger of his shirt.

"I love every inch of you Jeong jaehyun... absolutely beautiful...just perfect for me and only me"

Jaehyun bit his lip in anticipation and pulled the older back for more kisses also taking off his shirt to join the already discarded one on the floor. Taeyong trailed kisses from jaehyun's lips, to his jaw, his Adams apple, toned chest before stopping at his belly button.... jaehyun's most sensitive spot, he carefully blew on the slightly sunken flesh, jaehyun moaning below him as he brought his hands to softly caress the older's hair. Taeyong went back up to the younger's lips after blowing, slightly sucking and kissing his belly button.

"Don't you ever doubt my love for you...not even for a second"

Jaehyun managed to give a meek nod, eyes half opened as he was filled with nothing but pure ecstasy.

Jaehyun truly loved the older, loved him to the moon and back, he was someone jaehyun could never trade for something else...no matter how many times his disorder did things to his brain...he knew the older would never leave him...just like jaehyun could never hate him or bring himself to.

And as they continued through the night, bodies pressed against each other, telling each other how much they loved the other through intimate actions, the night breeze took their unspoken words with it, locking it in a safe place for no one to access but them..

As long as they had each other, everything would fall into place.. apocalypse or no apocalypse.