Reflections

I had a hard time trying to sleep yesterday, those thoughts made it almost impossible, I wanted it to shut my mind so I hit a workout and studied a bit more at night.

If I keep studying at this rhythm I'll probably do just fine in this semester's final exams, but I'll have to adapt to a new sleeping schedule, I almost overslept.

Studying hard is definitely one of the most boring things I could engage in. I didn't hate the act of studying in and of itself, but I wasn't interested in what we were taught at school.

However, working hard toward something surely felt good, I haven't felt this good in a while.

It was like when I was working out for the first time, does that guy feel the same when he writes?

Or maybe even better?

Just as I started thinking about him, I noticed that he was walking in front of me.

" Takasaki kun, will you go with us today? " Said a girl from our class.

" I declined yesterday, so I think I'll go today ", replied Takasaki

" Great, I'll tell the others, and uhm, c can you give me your contact information? To add you in our group chat ", said the girl

" Ah, I apologise I don't bring my phone with me, I'll make sure to have it next time ", replied Takasaki

" Is that so, then I'll look forward to hanging out later today", said the girl before running to the class, probably because she was shy, she did make a bold move though.

I kept walking then Takasaki greeted me, " Good morning", he said with a bright smile

" Ah, morning " I replied

" Are you okay? " He asked, probably because of how my face looked since I didn't get enough sleep last night.

" I'm fine, you seem to be popular already " I told him

" You're probably right, what about you? I haven't seen you talking to anyone, are you the type who prefers solitude? " He asked

" Kind of " I replied, I'm not totally a loner but I indeed don't engage in much conversations and some days I don't talk to anyone at all, now that I think about it most of my conversations are with that guy, and if he didn't call out to me in the first place we'd probably never talk to each other,

"Oii!, Isn't that the new guy, oh! haru chan too ", just when I thought of him he came out of nowhere,

" Good morning, who are you if I may ask? " asked Takasaki

" No need for formality man, I'm Takeshi, Asato Takeshi, you can call me however you want " Said Asato.

" Nice to meet you Takeshi, I'm Takasaki Hikari, feel free to call me as you want too ", replied Takasaki, then he started to laugh. I think I know why.

" What's so funny?" asked Asato.

" Oh sorry it's just that the way you said " haru chan" was kinda funny, it's like you were calling a girl "

That's my name, Sato Haruka, and my first name is indeed both a masculine and feminine surname, apparently I was the only one who wasn't so happy about this joke,

" I told you to stop calling me that way ", I told Asato

" I don't see why it's a bad thing tho, you do have a nice name " he replied

Whatever, I'll let it slide.

" Hey you, homeroom will start soon", said Mori sensei urging us to enter the class quickly

" See ya haru, you too new kid ", said Asato as he made his way to his class, he was in class 3-D, while we were in class3-B

" So you do have friends, and an energetic one Haru chan ", said Takasaki while smiling,

" He does leave a kinda scary impression if you look at him without knowing who he is, but in fact he's a good guy," I replied " And don't call me by that name it's embarrassing, besides my name's Sato Haruka"

" It makes more sense now, Takeshi and Haruka, you guys are interesting", he said.

Asato's physique stands out among average highschoolers, and his piercings and dyed hair makes him look like a delinquent, he's also known for having a history with fighting,

And from what I once saw, he's very good at it.

He beat up three students from class3-A for picking on him all by himself with ease.

And yet when you engage in a conversation with him, you realise that he isn't that scary at all, he's just a joyful and ignorant high schooler.

If there's something I feel towards him it's gotta probably be respect,

Being stronger than the weak gives three options: bullying the weak, not caring at all as long as you can defend yourself, and protecting the weak.

While I fit in the second category, Asato has a strong sense of justice, and tends to protect the weak by nature. He surely largely exceeds me in some aspects as a man.

But whether he's a friend of mine or not is another story. There's a difference between acquaintances and friends, and although I know quite some people, I do not have any friends and I think that I'll probably won't have any, at least for now.

After some chit chat, we finally got into the classroom, taking notes was sill being a troublesome process,

And by the end of the school day, my notes didn't look any better from yesterday's ones, but I could notice some minor progress,

" Steady and slow huh "I muttered to myself.

Almost half of the class was gathered around Takasaki, there were even two students standing at the door in a bodyguard position so he couldn't escape from them this time.

" I'll go, I'll go" he said

They were pretty noisy as they all left the classroom. I thought of staying in class for a bit longer, but I was too tired. I almost slept during class, so I'll just go back home and rest.

" I'm home ", no response, seems that she left.

My mother was recently diagnosed with severe depression, and her overall health was only getting worse.

One of the exercises she practises recently is going out more often, and spending more time in nature and with loved ones. She probably went to a friend of hers, but I had to check if that's really the case, so I called her number,

" Haruka? Are you home? Is everything okay? "She asked

" Yeah don't worry, I just got home, just wanted to know where you are? "I replied

" My, you're remembering me of your father ", she said " I'm with a friend I'll come back soon "

" Take your time " I said before hanging up,

My father huh, I changed my clothes quickly and went to sleep.