12

I was an orphan after my parents'death. Dumb, deaf, blind, unwanted and a burden to this world. Everyone in my family, relatives, and friends don't want me either. Even music also left me.

I was devastated and wanted to die and tried to, but this darkness never left me from the accident. Everyone came to touch me and tried to communicate with me. But this darkness acted like there was nothing to do with me in this world.

A completely silent world kept me like a doll where I could eat, sleep, colourless, motionless.

I started to forget the world, joy, and sadness meant and what this dark world wanted from me.

As an 8-year-old kid who lost everything senses, emotions, unable to express... Even if I try the dried tears are also not coming. What intelligence or music can anything work on me? Except for other's sympathy who will help me...?

Days and months went by and the seasons changed.... an earpiece for hearing came to me. Everything changed. Music is the only melody which brought a smile to me. A new light which brought another life for me.

Then I was able to learn some kids wished for me and wanted to be friends with me. Wants to be a family. wants to love me as I am.

Where the whole world left me alone they all wanted me to get myself back. I wished more so that the little hope which gave me should never leave me.

Little by little I spoke a little but again lost most of my hope just because it was a female voice. Criticized, tortured, abused, neglected by other kids... The little sweet happiness vanished somewhere...

I got courage as I started speaking and righteously putting myself in. My voice came back to normal.

By learning the biliary, music I started towards the future. By mimicking, voice covering I got a new passion secretly and silently from every bad one. Keeping myself dumb, blind, deaf.

RJ Akira is just a new step for a financial base for me and enjoying this life in a new way at first. But as time went by it was the biggest secret of my life which I can't share with others. So, how did I lose control of myself at that time?

Do I have to go through all those nightmares where even my cries can't be heard?

Who knows that I can speak in a female voice? Asked Akihito using the phone.

I am the only one for now. Said Niel.

So, are you trying to threaten me now that you have a little secret...? Asked Akihito using his mobile phone.

No, what I mean is I just wanted to be friends with you. Even if you speak or not it doesn't matter to me. It was just that I was surprised to hear. That's all. Said Niel.

So are you pitting me? asked Akihito.

Everyone has their share of life. So I don't judge. I do like you because of the way you are. Not pitting for sure. Said Niel.

So, is it because you want a thing with a professor and damage my career by gossiping in university? since you are a straight guy why do you want a man anyway? Asked Akihito with suspicion.

It's not a fling or something and unnecessary following things. I genuinely appreciate and like you only. Because you are mature and cute, even though it's just one night we are comfortable with each other... Got silenced for a minute as thoughts rushed and made him blush.

If you want I will stay away from you but still, I will pursue you for sure sincerely and secretly if you don't want others to know and from the world.

As said the orphanage came and Niel stopped the car.

Simply I wanted to know you as a person. Whoever you are Akihito san. Tell me about yourself, and please date me. Said Niel in Akihito's ear while removing his seat belt.

What if I don't want to be with you and never return your feelings to you? Asked Akihito.

It's Alright. Let's date first. If you don't like it then I will break my heart and leave you. But if you like me, I will be the happiest person. Said Niel.

I will think about it but never discuss that night anymore. Said Akihito and went into the orphanage.

At night Akihito is in the car while going home.

Niel? Does he really have any feelings for me? Or is he just playing with me just because of my voice? It's not even a big deal actually since he doesn't know about AKIRA. But if I have to be in a relationship with him, he will eventually learn about my RJ AKIRA.

Even though I am not particularly into anyone before except meeting a few ladies for match making, but suddenly a guy turned on just because of me means it could only be a child's school crush for a favorite. Eventually they will lose interest in it after a while. Do I have to play with him or leave him...?

What I did with him was only driven by alcohol which I didn't remember but later kissing in the morning was somewhat a surprise for me also. Since I can also get aroused by a guy and that to him can be seen as bodily functions.

But what does liking mean? and what am I expecting him to be in this relationship? If it's just a temporary thing I can leave him behind and can go further but if it's not then?

What do I say to Nora and chica? Hm, it's giving me a headache as I am thinking. Obviously, I am the most who gets advantage in dating him by getting a new experience, since I am single and Nora is also living with her boyfriend and no one is at home.

After Niel gets a graduation he will likely leave Kyoto since he is an international student. Until then, can I get some affection? can I be a little happy?

There is always an expiry date for everything. When it comes to this child's play will I be honest and let it go?

No one is permanent so, yes it's only a small sweet sugar candy relationship like always. When he leaves me then rests the soared bitter gourd again.

Should I accept him and see the end...?

The next day. At a restaurant

He gave a voice mail to meet with him after college. so I went to his classroom and came to this karaoke club along with Akira, but he is silent for a while now.

Professor Ran. What do you want to speak with me? Asked Niel.

I am still thinking why should I be with you? Said Akihito.

Then can I order some food. I am feeling a bit hungry said Niel.

Fine with me.

orange cake, dark forest cake, cookies, choco lava brownie, espresso, capachino served.

so, have you been thinking about me from yesterday. what do you even think about me in that small brain. white hair, red lips, small but well healthy built structure wrapped in that slim fit navy blue tuxedo. while eating stroking your long hair, your touch with that spoon on your lips making me blush like we are on a date AKIRA.

Have you thought about my confession Akihito san? Asked Niel.

Hm. Said Akihito while eating dark forest cake.