[Maybe because you're now living in the future instead of the present. You're worried about what might occur, your imminent failure, the burden you now have on you.
But like it or not, you already have them for a pretty long while now, and you have been doing quite alright.
Maybe, you take it a step at a time. Focus on what needs to be done right now. And tackle all preceding problems after this. Slowly walk your way up the stairs, instead of looking at the last one and worrying that it reaches into the sky itself.
Hmmmm?]
"Harder said than done. I don't even know if I can believe a word of yours anymore. I don't know if I still don't hate you at all..." Hael replied to it. Now even though he was filled with energy, he couldn't have felt more tired than ever.