Chapter 36 (First Part)

Since Dove’s visit in Leroy’s dreams, a terrible memory has begun to haunt him, and Lovely learns a little more about it each night when the lights go out, Leroy lies unconscious in his bed, sweating, breathless, and full of thoughts.

“I fear it. No. The organization, the discipline.”

As Lovely presses with questions, seeking to understand his fears, Leroy becomes increasingly rigid, his posture stiffens, and his hands perhaps clench in an unconscious display of his desperate need for control, revealing a man overwhelmed by the necessity that everything must proceed according to plan.

"The discipline..."

“Discipline, you are disciplined,” she mumbles, looking at him.

“Everywhere, everywhere,” he says anxiously.

“Everywhere, what’s everywhere?”

“Everyone is fleeing. The organization is bad.”