BRANDON
What am I doing here?
Deep in the hollow corner of my heart, I know the answer. I
know it so well that I can taste the nausea that slithered down my
throat and hooked onto my bones the moment I got that godforsaken text.
A text I should've very well ignored, deleted, and then blocked the
number.
A text I shouldn't have dignified with a look, let alone given it enough
weight to intervene with my decision-making.
I did.
And that's the reason I'm here.
I did.
And now, I've put myself in an irreversible position.
I did.
And I'm not sure I can shove this lapse of judgment on to the possibility
of having no choice.
In reality, I do.
I've just never been good with choices. Don't appreciate them. Don't
care for them. Would rather not be presented with one.
The text was an obligation or, more accurately, a pertinent piece of
information.
It was not a choice and certainly not a situation I could've escaped.
The reason I'm here is sorely due to my sense of responsibility that I've
carried like excess baggage since I started learning what life is all about.
I'm at what looks like an indoctrination center. Other students stand on
either side of me, forming parallel lines and wearing white rabbit masks that
cover their features.
We're facing a huge three-story mansion with old-looking stone walls
and an ancient tower on the far right.
The longer I remain unmoving, the more unsteady my breathing
becomes.
My inhales and exhales flow in a fast, fractured rhythm, forming
condensation on the plastic and forcing me to breathe my own air.
Tick.
The sound is low, but it slams into my brain like a fatal crash. My
mouth starts to fill with saliva and I gulp it down, forcing my stomach to
settle.
Tick.
I lift my hand, about to pull at my skull. Sometimes, I wish I could
smash it against the nearest wall and watch as everything spills and shatters.
Once and for fucking all.
Tick.
My fingers curl in midair, but I lower my hand and force it to hang limp
at my side.
It's fine. I can do this.
Breathe.
You're in control.
My soothing words of affirmation splinter and crack as the scene around
me comes back into focus.
No matter how much I attempt to delude myself, the reality is that I'm
in the last place I should be.
And I'm not one to challenge fate or go places I'm not supposed to.
In my twenty-three years of life, I've always been the type of man who
follows the rules. I've never deviated from what's expected of me and I'm
creeped out at the notion of being different.
In any sense.
For whatever reason.
And yet here I am at the Heathens' mansion because I received a text
and made the conscious decision not to ignore it.
I made the decision to attend the initiation of the most notorious club on
Brighton Island—a secluded place near the UK's southwest coast.
For a university I'm not even enrolled in.
The Heathens are the leading club of The King's U college. A uni that
reeks of mafia money and la nouveau bourgeoisie, where all American
students flock like birds of a feather.
We have our own malicious club at Royal Elite University—or REU—
where I'm working on my master's degree in art. It's called the Elites and is
led by none other than my headache of a twin brother, Landon.
However, The King's U's clubs—the Heathens and the Serpents—are
much more nefarious since they come from real mafia families and are
using the uni experience to sharpen their fangs for the leading roles
awaiting them back in the States.
If a week ago someone had told me I'd be standing here wearing a
creepy rabbit mask and waiting for the entitled, violence-thirsty Americans
to make their appearance, I would've laughed.
I'm certainly not laughing now. A lot of variables have changed in the
span of a week and I find myself under the obligation to be here.
As part of the herd.
And it has everything to do with that headache of a brother I mentioned
earlier.
Though they took my phone at the entrance, I can still recall the text I
received yesterday word for word.
HEATHENS
[Congratulations! You are invited to the Heathens' initiation
ceremony. Please show the attached QR code upon arrival at
the club's compound at four p.m. sharp.]
While I'd heard of their nefarious initiations, I had absolutely no
interest in them or the clubs. If I did, I would've joined the Elites since Lan
has been asking for years.
So I ignored that text and was about to block the number, but then I got
another one.
UNKNOWN NUMBER
[If you want to see your twin brother breathing instead of being
shoved in a casket and showcased to all participants, be at
the initiation.]
That's the reason I came here, even though every fiber of my being
revolted against the idea of taking part in this madness. I called and texted Lan, but he didn't reply, so I had to save him from himself as usual.
My brother has always been the reason I've deviated from the core of
my existence, though he'd argue this is my true character, and what I
consider normal is a product of repressing.
Hiding.
Shackling my real self.
A sudden movement comes from my side and I tighten my muscles,
ready to run away, move from the center of danger and pretend none of this
has taken place.
The girl beside me—judging by her breasts and frame—laughs as she
hits her companion's shoulder.
A general murmur of excitement bubbles in the air.
I don't understand people's obsession with these types of events. Is it
the feeling of grandiosity? The opportunity to walk amongst gods?
But then again, it's impossible for me to understand some people due to
how drastically different my personality is compared to the rest of my
peers.
Don't get me wrong. I get along with almost everyone and I'm often
described as extremely polite and a good sport, but my close friends are
only a few. The only reason we're tight is because we grew up together and
I spent several years familiarizing myself with their personalities.
Maybe my inability to form close connections after my childhood is due
to being completely detached from most people's source of happiness. A
glaring example is my complete bafflement at these people's sense of a
thrill. They talk about the Heathens as if they're the personification of
everything they aspire to be.
Wealth, influence, and, most importantly, morbid power.
I, Brandon King, belong to one of the most influential families in the
UK, if not the most influential, but I still don't get people's obsession with
selected elites.
Is it the illusion? The unknown? Something entirely different?
The girl's chatter comes to a halt and she looks up as everyone else
grows silent. I follow her field of vision and pause when the balcony doors
on the second floor open and five men stroll outside, all of them wearing
neon-stitch Halloween-esque masks.
The one in the middle has an orange mask and carries a metal club. He's
tall and broad, but the guy by his side who's wearing a yellow mask is taller and buffer, and he reeks of hostility, even from this distance.
He stands out because he's the only one without a weapon, but he still
emanates a nefarious energy. The rest of them, however, seem to have their
thoughts and tempers under control.
Red Mask's fingers wrap around a bat, letting it rest nonchalantly on his
shoulder.
A recurve bow is nestled in Green Mask's hand and there's a quiver
attached to his back, and White Mask strokes a heavy-looking chain that's
hanging around his neck.
They're all dressed in black T-shirts and trousers like a conformist unit
of destruction.
Fortunately, I've never crossed the Heathens' paths or interacted with
them, which can't be said about my prick of a brother. Is he with them?
Perhaps he's playing a sick game to be part of their inner circle?
Or is he maybe somewhere in front of me or behind me? Maybe next to
me?
The problem is, I can never imagine Lan being a participant in another
group's glory or a mere follower in someone else's mayhem. He's too
narcissistic for that. Besides, how could he possibly get an invitation?
The same way I got invited?
Probably.
Maybe.
I watch the five Heathens closely. The one in orange, standing tall in the
middle, is most likely Jeremy Volkov, the leader of the Heathens and a
Russian mafia prince. If my friends' gossip can be trusted, he's ruthless to a
fault and is rumored to kill everyone in his wake.
Green and Red Masks are possibly Gareth and Killian Carson. The
siblings are affiliated with the mafia but are more American royalty instead
of mafia princes. However, I'm not sure which is which. White Mask seems
like the leanest of the bunch, so he can't be any of the three previously
mentioned.
Yellow Mask can only be Nikolai Sokolov. Another Russian mafia
prince, Killian and Gareth's cousin, and the craziest twat who ever walked
the earth.
If rumors are anything to go by—and in Nikolai's case, they probably
are—he's capable of punching someone to death just because they had the
audacity to piss him off. I've only stood close to him once, a week ago when—again—my twin brother was fighting him in an underground fight
club.
I honest to God thought he'd pummel Lan to death.
He didn't, because my brother is a cat with nine lives.
My concern about Lan shifted to disturbing unease when Nikolai looked
at me with a manic expression while wearing my brother's blood on his
bandaged hands.
I had this inherent need to get the hell out of there. And I did—after
dragging my brother along, of course.
I've never gotten that feeling from someone younger than me, and
Nikolai is way younger. Nineteen, I think. A kid right out of secondary
school—high school for Americans.
Only, he looks nothing like a kid.
Even now, while wearing black clothes, his build stands out as if he's
sculpted from pure muscle and malicious intent.
Good thing I don't run in these people's circle and never will.
Today is an exception. The sooner I locate Lan, the faster I can leave
this immoral place.
Static rings in the air before a distorted voice speaks from all around us.
"Congratulations on making it to the Heathens' highly competitive
initiation. You are the selected elite the leaders of the club think are worthy
of joining their world of power and connections. The price to pay for such
privileges is higher than money, status, or name. The reason everyone wears
a mask is because you are all the same in the eyes of the club's founders.
The price of becoming a Heathen is handing over your life. In the literal
sense of the word. If you aren't willing to pay that, please exit through the
small door to your left. Once you leave, you'll lose any chance to join us
again."
A door beside the big gate opens, and about a dozen or less people exit.
I contemplate joining them and putting an end to this madness, but I'd
never, in good conscience, abandon my brother.
Never.
The distorted voice returns. "Congratulations again, ladies and
gentlemen. We shall now begin our initiation."
I lift my head to the five Heathens, who remain unmoving. Completely
grounded, absolutely apathetic about the promise of violence they're
unleashing on the world.
All except for one.
The anomaly.
Violence on steroids.
Yellow Mask clenches and unclenches his fists at a rhythmic pace as if
he's performing a ritual. That guy needs to be locked up instead of being
allowed to be part of this nonsensical initiation.
"Tonight's game is predator and prey," the voice continues. "You'll be
hunted down by the club's founding members. That will be five to ninety,
so you have the upper hand. If you manage to reach the edge of the property
before they hunt you down, you'll be a Heathen. If not, you'll be eliminated
and escorted out. The founding members have the right to use any methods
available to hunt you down—including violence. If their weapon of choice
touches you, you'll be automatically eliminated. Bodily harm can and will
happen. You are also allowed to inflict violence on the founding members
—if you can. The only rule is not taking a life. Not intentionally, at least.
No questions are allowed and no mercy shall be granted. We don't want any
weaklings in our ranks."
Barbarians. The lot of them. Hopeless, outrageous savages with no
grace whatsoever.
But then again, what to expect from mafia people?
"You have a ten-minute head start. I suggest you run. The initiation has
officially begun."
The girl beside me and her companions sprint so fast, the pebbles
crunch beneath their trainers. Everyone else rushes in the direction of the
forest and I'm left with the option of following or remaining here like easy
prey.
Cursing under my breath, I run as fast as possible. My heart rate
remains the same—unperturbed, calm, and completely unaffected by the
lick of danger and the lust for the thrill that hangs in the air like splashes of
magenta on turquoise blue.
I guess that's the upside of having an abnormal brain. This type of
nonsense doesn't affect it.
Despite going late, I manage to run faster and farther than the other
participants. I might not be into these types of events, but I'm an athlete,
pretty much a professional runner and also the captain of the lacrosse team
at REU.
I take my physical activities seriously and never miss a day of training
and running, whether for the team or for myself.
It's important to keep order and discipline, and I'm nothing short of
perfection in creating stability and habits.
Besides, if I don't maintain a routine, I'll only slither down that rabbit
hole of nothingness and eventually skid into an unfortunate freak accident.
No thanks.
In no time, I manage to reach what looks like the middle of the forest
after losing the rest of the students. Late afternoon light casts ominous
patches of orange on the dirt and between the huge trees. But soon enough,
the gray clouds strangle the beams of hope and swallow them into darkness.
I crouch behind a large bush that covers my entire frame and wait.
That's all I can do at this point.
Stay low. Wait. Observe. And never ever draw attention to my presence.
An activity I excel at.
If Lan shows up, whether as one of the Heathens—which is highly
unlikely—or one of the participants, I'll get a gut feeling thanks to the
useless twin hunch.
A few people run by like a pack of wolves, squeals of excitement falling
from their lips and painting the sky in blotches of brick red on midnight
black.
The stench of mindless violence lingers in the air and forms sinister
halos around the participants' heads.
Their thrill is short-lived, though. Orange Mask stalks right after them,
carrying his vicious club. I silently cringe when he hits one of them so hard,
their face swings to the side, and blood explodes on his mask, which cracks
in two.
I catch a glimpse of someone walking around dazed with an arrow stuck
in his shoulder and a limp arm glued to his side.
Eliminated students' numbers are announced by that disturbing robotic
voice, sometimes one after the other. I think the process is automatic,
because whenever I catch a glimpse of someone getting hit by an arrow or
Orange Mask's club, their number is immediately announced.
Throughout the whole freak show, I don't move, and when I do, it's
only to adjust my position.
Where are you, Lan?.
While I take pride in my stamina, I probably can't keep this up for an
extended period of time.
Maybe I should strategically move to another nook of this extravagant
forest in case my brother is on the other side—
A sudden chill scrapes the back of my neck, followed by scorching hot
heat as a deep, rumbling voice whispers in my ear, "Why aren't you
running?"
My senses saturate in a rush of overwhelming external stimuli and my
brain is unable to keep up with the overload. I lose balance and fall on my
arse, hitting the ground with an impact that reverberates in my bones.
I stare up, my eyes clashing with the yellow-stitch mask that's marred
with splashes of dark red.
Blood.
It's everywhere—clinging to his mask, staining his dark shirt, forming
rivulets on his neck, covering the tattoos on the backs of his hands like
gloves, and sticking to strands of his jet-black hair that falls in waves to his
shoulder blades.
Nausea floods my mouth and shoots straight to my fucked-up brain.
Tick.
Tick.
Tick tick tick tick—
"You didn't answer the question." Yellow Mask's gruff tone ripples
down my throat and drowns the nausea, only to substitute it with dread.
Harsh and poignant.
What's worse is that I can't breathe.
The wanker is crouching close. So close that my nostrils fill with the
metallic stench of blood and the smell of cigarettes, alcohol, and a hint of
mint and bergamot.
The overwhelming mixture flows and floods my senses like a chaotic
swirl of colors that blend and throttle each pigment until they settle on
unassuming gray.
Faultless. Timeless. Empty.
Yellow Mask, who can only be Nikolai, pokes my forehead with a
bloody finger. And although he's only touching the mask and not my skin,
my stomach cramps, choking out rampant nausea that's ready to lurch
forward and leave me heaving.
"Oy. You listening?" He's only using a forefinger, yet so much power
emanates off the single action that I crack under the pressure.
I've never been good with direct confrontations and prefer not to engage
in them. Besides, if what I've heard of his infamous reputation is true, I
could never take on Nikolai Sokolov, even if I were reincarnated a few
times in the spirit of a warrior.
He's notorious for his savage behavior, unhinged tendencies, and
penchant for breathing violence instead of oxygen. The evidence is
splattered in red all over his person.
Definitely the last person I'd want to get in a disagreement with.
He clucks his tongue, the sound exceptionally loud despite the constant
announcements of eliminated numbers.
I don't hear mine, eighty-nine, but Nikolai doesn't have a weapon like
the rest, so maybe he has to do it himself.
Meaning, if I escape, I can resume my hiding game and look for my
brother. I swear I'm going to be so cross with him about this mess—
Nikolai circles his forefinger against my forehead, but then he seems to
wipe something. His movements come to a halt and his body remains so
completely still, I cease to breathe.
The hostility and thirst for blood that emanated off him subside. Or
more like, they lessen in intensity, no longer tightening his outrageously
ludicrous muscles and bulging biceps.
Although he's crouching, his height and broadness are unmistakable. At
six-foot-three, I'm not short by any stretch of the imagination, but Nikolai
has an inch or two on me, and he's ridiculously pumped with more muscles
than anyone needs.
But then again, he seems like the archetype of a sadist who gets off on
inflicting pain.
However, that doesn't seem to be the case right now.
The flood of violence that he exuded in threatening waves a few
seconds ago has been replaced by something a lot more morbid.
Amusement.
No, curiosity?
Interest?
His finger falls from the mask, but before I can release a breath, he
suddenly wraps his hand around my nape, near the hairs I constantly
assault.
Maybe it's because that area is particularly battered and sensitive, but
the moment his rough skin touches mine, a flood of what I assume is nausea
threatens to spill from my gut.
Only, it's not nausea.
It's—
Nikolai barks out laughter that echoes around us in a swell of burgundy
and hot red-orange. "There you are. I've been looking everywhere for you,
eighty-nine."