One More Than The Other

Emily had two options now.

Go back to her old job at Haven Group and become Derek Haven's PA again. That was option one. 

Or, on the other hand, she could stay on at Bee's Diner, keep being a waitress, biding her time until she figured out something else. That would have been her option too. But if Emily were to say that she was seriously considering staying at Bee's Diner indefinitely, then she would have been lying to herself.

And since she was not in the habit of telling herself lies, Emily had to go with the honest option and admit that she was leaning heavily, very, very, heavily, towards going back to Haven Group. In fact, Emily had already made a decision on which option she would be taking.