I don't want to be sad

After this episode, I knew I had to take my mind off things. Work seemed to be the best medicine, at least temporarily. Wiping away my tears and doing my best to regain a calm appearance, I decided to focus on my task for the day.

-What do I have to do for today?

-You have to attend a romance film shoot, my manager explained to me

-A film shooting ?

-Yeah you have to write the ending song for the film, he explained to me

-Write an ending song?, I repeated in surprise

-Yes, I've had it for several weeks now, my manager said to me, nodding, have you forgotten?

-A little, I admitted to him

Being reborn and resuming my life as if nothing had happened sometimes seems so unreal to me.

-If only you're parents let you know your schedule, sighed his manager

-They're afraid that I won't go to my appointments, I whispered

-They should have understood that if you didn't go to your appointments it was because you were exhausted...

-Anything for the glory, I smiled weakly, my parents would do anything for the glory

-Hyun, he whispered sadly

-Do you think I'm unlucky? I asked him suddenly.

-Why do you say that?, he asked me in a soft voice.

-Because no matter how much I do everything to get away from Donovan, nothing works, I sighed bitterly with my fists clenched

-I think the only way to get away from him permanently is to ruin his reputation, my manager suggested.

-Ruin his reputation, I repeated while thinking, but how I have no proof

-You need to go see Colette, my manager advised me, she may know more than you think

-Yeah, you're probably right, I replied, I'll go see her in a few days

Since that night, me and Colette had lost touch. She had become someone accomplished just like me and I was really happy for her. But it's true that if I could go back in time to the day when we were always stuck together, I would make sure not to disappoint her and not move away from her just for Donovan who had her for me. request.

-But before that, let's have a little bite to eat, my manager told me

-Good idea, I'm starting to feel hungry, I replied, nodding my head, I hope you won't force me to eat salad

-Sorry darling but yes, my manager replied, you have to keep your figure especially since at the moment I see you ingesting everything and anything

My manager placed several online orders for food.

-But you know very well that I don't gain a single gram, I replied.

-Still happy, he replied

A few hours later

I was going to watch a romance film being filmed and write the ending song. An exciting opportunity.

The film studio was a world apart, filled with actors and sets of all kinds. Upon entering the set, I was transported into a world filled with romance.

-Welcome Hyun, the director smiles at me, thank you for coming

-You're welcome, I replied, returning his smile.

-An armchair was installed right next to mine, the director explained to me

-THANKS

-That way many people won't dare to bother you, the director whispered to me

-GO ACTION!, the director suddenly shouted to those present on the set

I watched the actors perform their scenes with passion and emotion, capturing the romance on screen. Every look, every gesture, seemed charged with intense feelings, recalling the very essence of love.

Damon looked through the foggy window of the little cafe where he used to meet Lila. There she was, sitting at a table a few feet away from him, her face lit by the soft glow of the candles. But she wasn't alone. Beside her stood a man, a beaming smile on his face, his hands sliding over hers.

A feeling of emptiness grew inside him, as he saw his first love, Lila, with another man. It was as if the world was collapsing around him, leaving his heart shattered into a million pieces.

He still remembered those carefree days when they would walk the cobbled streets of the city, laughing and sharing their wildest dreams.

But now here she was, sharing these moments with someone else, someone who wasn't him.

-DAMON TEARS!, shouted the director in disappointment

-I can't pretend to cry, replied the actor in a small voice

-SOMEONE BRING AN ONION!

The actors played the scene so well that I felt like I was watching a real scene.

-HURRY UP AND PASS HIM THE ONION!

-Yes Mr.

-BUT NO DON'T PUT THE ONION IN HIM'S EYES!

During the short breaks, I took notes, absorbing the atmosphere and nuances of the interactions between the characters. My mind was buzzing with ideas for the final song.

And during one of his breaks, one of the actors had the courage to approach me.

-Hi my name is Nolan, he introduces himself, I have always been a big fan of your songs

-Nice to meet you, I smiled at him, thank you, I'm really happy that you like my music

He looked young with a small baby face and brown hair that seemed so soft to the touch. It was cute

-Can I have an autograph?, he asked me, blushing.

-Yes, no worries, I replied.

He held out his arm and a pen to me.

-I want to go get your signature tattooed afterwards, he whispered shyly

-Are you sure?, I asked him, laughing amusedly

-Yes, he told me seriously

I took the pen and gave him my signature on his arm.

-Actually, I would like to get into music one day, he suddenly admitted to me.

I looked at him surprised.

"It's one of my dreams," he added, smiling at me.

-Being a kpop idol is very hard, I explained to him, you have to be ready to put your physical and mental health at risk

-I'm ready for this, he told me with determination

-No, you're not ready for that, I replied with amusement

-Do you think so, he asked me surprised

-I'm sure of it, he replied in a resolute tone.

-...You're the only one to tell me that, he suddenly whispered

I smile at him.

-I'm not going to give you my manager's number and if one day you really need me, call me

I wasn't surprised to be the only one to tell him, because everyone tries to get actors out of the competition. Fewer competitors equals more chances of being known.

-WE'RE STARTING AGAIN!, says the producer

At the end of the day, as the studio lights went out, I felt a weight added to my shoulders.