End

Eighty-Two:

'Our end…'

Is it really getting nearer? I continuously ask myself while looking at the horizon in silence.

"I'm sorry, Jeanne." He breaks the silence.

"Why?"

"For everything."

I gave up a sighed. "The truth, I never knew how we end up being here. The memories we slowly knowing, I still doubt it since it wasn't me in first place. I have no idea of who am I before I became me. Not as Fe you met when you first came here as a Guardian Angel not even the Special Spirit they were talking about. I don't know anything about the past they were showing. Mostly you," I turned to look him in the eyes. "I don't know who you are, Almos."

He stares at me longer enough to make me feel kind of awkward and I finally surrender and look back at the horizon.

'I don't know you either.' He answered through telepathy. 'Yet, the feeling is too strong I couldn't just ignore it.'

'But you were letting it go now.'

'Indeed. And I'm so sorry about everything.'

Silence. I don't know what else I should say after hearing it from him. However, if this is the end then…

'What now?' I asked anyway.

He approached me and holds my hand tightly. 'I never intend to be a part of your life, from the past or even to this present day. Because being a part of your life means you'll be in danger and that is what I wanted to avoid. I don't want to see you hurt or in sorrow. So now, let's forget about our meeting and live your life in a normal state.'

Normal? How can I live normally after meeting you? After meeting everyone else? I can't.

I wanted to yell what I truly feel yet I can't and just silently listen to the wind blowing in front of us. And in silence I try to find my peace.

"Jeanne." His warm hand caresses me that made me smile.

"Thank you for being a part of my life." I said since the end is near though my heart suddenly feels heavier I could hardly breathe.

"It was I should say 'thank you'. Because, you change me." He answered. 'Now, I have to do what I should do from the very beginning I met Lady Fe. And it will be my goal to finally reveal everything hidden from the past.'

'Without me by your side?'

'I don't want to hurt you or put you in danger, so, I'll go on my own. I'll find out the truth and save you. I'll do everything and anything just to make sure you are safe. I'll––'

'For how long will I wait?' I badly wanted to ask of him however, I can sense that this is the end. Everything he had done for me, saving me out of danger. Coming unnoticed or even meeting unexpected. Every moment I shared with him will also end.

'Don't wait.' He suddenly answered that I already expected.

I sighed before I smile while still looking at the sunset. 'Then, can we cherish this last moment together?' I asked with a hope he will agreed but then the silence he gave me breaks my hope until the warm from his hand gradually lose and the sunset we were watching also fading. Until my eyes blinks in a sudden wind and when I open it, I'm back at my room standing at the front door.

In daze I try to reach the doorknob however in a second I begin to be alert and stop in the midst of reaching and just stare at the front door hoping he will speak up. Yet, he never said a word, he just walks away as I hear his footstep going far rather than going closer, he chooses to leave in silence after all the conversation we just had from his dream illusion.

I wanted to scream to call his name, to stop him, to ask him why, to help me to understand what is going on however I choose not to. I just let him leave without a word and just let everything end without attachment.

Then why? There's a tear coming down my cheek. From a single fall to an unstoppable and uncontrollable fall, this blurred my vision and can no longer see the door in front me.

Is the end this painful?

Even though I have no right to get hurt in first place, not even a chance to feel this pain.

Still, I feel it as if something in me has been cut off. Something was broken. And I can longer know how I'll fix it or even heal it.

It will be my eternal illness, no cure at all. Simply end.

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Next Day

"Anne!" I didn't turn to look at Dione and just continue looking at nowhere until she tap my shoulder and asked. "Are you alright?"

"Yes, I'm fine." I answered without any emotions.

What exactly is the right feeling that I should show to everyone? I don't know and I have no idea. I just wanted to feel nothing.

I heard her sighed deeply that halt my thinking. "Anyway, you and Asim… I mean Chadd, will return to Earth."

"When?"

"Now."

"Is everything alright on Earth? I mean, is the world back to normal?"

"Yes, it is. After what Ilmatar did, everything and every living being were back to normal and you are safe to go back."

"Then this is really the end." I said as a fact.

"We can still meet in––"

"Will I ever meet him?" I asked cutting her off.

Silence and I already knew she exactly get what I mean.

"You two are meant not to meet in the first place so all you have to do is just go back to your normal life and––"

"And what? After learning something about my past life, do you really think I can easily go back to my normal life? Because I don't," I seriously stated.

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