13th April, 20??
Pain and Hurt.
Dear Dia,
With the way today started, I never thought I would write.
Begging for sleep was one thing, but the baggage it came with, was another. I remember thrashing and thrashing throughout the night, but never waking up until the sun took its place in the sky.
It was like being trapped in that unending nightmare. It was my punishment. The words I said, echoing, rippling and reverberating without end. They were the very cords binding me in place.
I suppose I deserved it… still deserve it because I know it will be the same tonight no matter how long I try to stay awake.
Writing about my day and experiences has always been my way of holding onto memories. But this… this, I would gladly give anything to have it erased from my memory.