I end up opening my eyes even when I didn't want too in the first place, after I felt the space next to me. It's just me laying on the Alpha's bed now.
I pouted my lips and was about to get up completely when I felt a searing pain coming from my lower body, between my legs in particular.
The memory of the Alpha claiming me as if I were meant to become his from the very start flashes in my head. Those very same memory brought me both bliss and mental suffering.
I closed my eyes, trying to calm my inner wolf, who is very much angry at me.
"I don't have a choice. I know that even when you were weak at that time. You heard him. The Alpha would kill me if I didn't do what he wanted," I whispered to argue with the little voice of my inner wolf inside my head.