Chapter 9 Take Me Away_6

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He had a ridiculous thought: If he had been punished by the law for that incident back then, could he have found relief in his conscience?

At Li Li's grandmother's memorial service, Liu Qianren watched as Pei Shangxuan took Li Li away. She had never shown him a vulnerable expression, not even during the chaotic early morning of July 3, 1994.

As he watched them leave, a frenzied emotion named "jealousy" gnawed at his heart. Liu Qianren did not want to fall in love with anyone, especially not Li Li. Disgust was the proper attitude to have towards her.

He resolved to leave Shanghai for the distant United States, to completely abandon Li Li.

Years later, when he saw her again, Liu Qianren found that those feelings of longing still lurked in the depths of his heart, like polished pebbles revealed in the grit after the tide had receded—vivid and clear.