THE WEIGHT OF SILENCE

It was hours after we were done eating and chatting. He was good company when he did speak his heart out and our conversation was easy and flowing. I appreciated this side of Rahim more; unfortunately, it only came out to play once in a while.

I realized I missed this and he made me feel nostalgic, and the loneliness wave hit me. I wanted something like this, someone for me, not thinking about anyone else but me; having early breakfasts with them in the middle of the night, random shit like this.

Unfortunately, I haven't had exactly this, not when I am always compromising something; this felt right. I wanted exactly this; I wasn't ready to settle for anything that I didn't feel it suited me; I had done that already with Nate.

This was beautiful and I wished it could last forever but, I knew that wasn't going to happen. I better enjoy this, be in the moment, and never know what kind of Rahim I get the next time we meet or get together.