The Space in our Heart
Chapter 5 (suite)
I can't really help how the coldness seeped inside of me, how it's piercing through my bones freezing my heart. It is hard. How I stood here faking delight at my current predicament.
How could he say that so nonchalantly, just— just how?. I can feel how my eyes start to dry up and sting. No, not now I can't cry not Infront of them.
As I shifted my weight my eyes roamed if anyone heard anything, to my relief there was none. Releasing the breath I didn't know I was holding, I smiled once more, deceptive and as convincing as I can.
"Zion, I didn't know you were here already?"
I spoke feigning surprised, to his as well with both brows raised as he stared. Having parsed his lips he cleared his throat, standing up from his seat he walked towards me.
"You were busy with the guests a while ago so I did not interrupt." He smiled yet it didn't reach his eyes. "I am sorry." He walked leaning in to kiss my cheeks, to which I leaned away.
"Is that so?..." With brittleness I spoke, my stomach tightening in our interactions I inhaled, lifting my chin up to face him. "You should've still."
"Why's are you making a problem out of this Jade." He whispered only for us to hear eliciting a chuckle from me.
"I'm not, does it sound like that?" I cloyed my head tilting back as I forced myself to make eye contact. As our gaze met I kept mine void with his puzzled one's, with his jaws clenched and lips still forming a thin line as he studied mine.
"Yes you are being difficult right now Jade."
Sighing I move my eyes behind him to where my family's watching us. I smiled leaning towards his ear to whisper.
"I guess I am." Another chuckle as I spoke unctuously.
"Jade..." He sighed clenching his jaw tensing, his face turning towards me slightly but I kept my smile towards a particular person behind him—Jane.
"What's wrong with you? Why are you acting like this right now?" He whispered voice restrained, his hand clasping mine in a tight grasp. I winced.
"Zion let go of me." I gritted my teeth as I kept my smile, he didn't stop instead he pulled me away walking towards a far corner. I struggled to rip my wrist away but he held a tight grip on me. That'll leave a mark for sure. "Zion let go!"
Once we reached that corner of the back yard he finally let go of me. "What is wrong with you Jade."
"Nothing is wrong with me Zion." For the second time I scoffed as I stared at him with disbelief."I'll ask you the same Zion. What is wrong with you!"
He did didn't answer me as he paced fingers on the bridge of his nose. Then he stopped poking his tongue lightly in his cheek as he inhaled facing me both his hands resting on top of his hips, an annoyed expression surfacing on his face.
"Are we seriously doing this right now Jade." He looked the strain on his voice evident. "Look I'm in no mood to argue with you right now Jade—."
"You left your phone." That was all it took for all the colors to leave his face. That's it. The confirmation I needed yet a far corner of my mind fought on and held hope, hope that I know doesn't exist. I wanted this to not be real. I want this to just be one big joke. He can't do this to me. Yet he did, and his here Infront of me struggling to come up with anything.
His mouth open for several times then closing them as nothing came out. "Jade—"
"You told me you'd be taking are of something important."
"You were with Jane... Weren't you?" He didn't dare move as his gray eyes that once made me feel butterflies now made me sick to my stomach. How could he?! But then again it's not like I'm expecting any answer. God this is just unbelievable. Frustrating even.
He moved in attempt to hold my hand, yet his expression tightened as I moved my hand away. "Why are you struggling? I'm just asking simple questions Zion."