Chapter 22: First time…?, Part 2

Hina was looking at me with such intensity…

A mad look full of lust and desire.

My hands were gently holding her face while she was caressing them.

I wanted to do it so much with her… but deep down i knew my heart there was a glimpse of bitterness.

Something was still feeling off, but despite that, i was feeling such an intense sense of love in general…

Maybe rushing things wasn't the right choice, but at the same time, i wanted to be honest with my self.

My eyes were still locked into Hina's , and then, after thinking, i said:

"Yes, Hina. I want to do it with you… but it's my first time…" i said after taking all my courage.

At my answer , Hina's eyes widened and her pupils became really small.

Then, i felt her whole body shaking from emotion and her lips curved into a mischievous smile.

"Haha…" Hina giggled softly.

Her voice was a mix of desire and… happiness…?

"Hahaha… HAHAHAHA!" Hina laughed, but this time her laugh seems like a maniacal one.

That scared me a little, I must admit, but my mind was filled by naughty thoughts so I didn't care about it.

Then, Hina suddenly stopped and looked up for some seconds before lowering her gaze again to me.

"So… you really want to do it… I'm so happy…" she said , with a shaking voice.

A little tear fell from her left eye.

She seemed truly happy to be accepted.

Doing it with me, despite this being her first time probably meant a lot to her…

But still, we've been dating for only two months… was this really the right thing to do?

So, to be sure, I asked her:

"Hina… but are you sure that you want to do it? This is your first time… it should be something important…" I said, with a glimpse of sadness in my voice.

I didn't want to take advantage of the situation.

Hina looked straight into my soul and her smile widened even more than before, but after an instant, she gently caressed my cheek and her expression turned from a crazy one to a lovely and caring one.

"Kai… I'm 100% sure… and after what happened earlier, I decided to live moment by moment… I don't want anything or someone bad to take you away from me… because…" Hina then stopped and leaned closer to my face.

"Because I love you… and I 100% mean it… despite the short time we've been a couple…" she whispered, before landing a quick kiss on my lips.

My eyes widened after what she said.

"I love you…" she said.

The most important words that someone could say to another.

For some strange reason, her kisses felt much sweeter than usual.

More than that, her words literally melted my heart… she seemed so genuine and sincere.

I wanted to believe her.

I wanted to believe her gentle and sweet side, that the real Hina was the one who said all these beautiful things to me.

"Then… if you're okay… I'm okay too… but I must tell you that this is my first time too. I… I think I live you too." I said , with a low and soft voice, filled with nothing more than genuine love.

I said these three words too.

Maybe it was too early… maybe not…

They came out naturally from my mouth… I didn't even notice.

Her body twitched after my reply.

Some tears fell from her eyes, showing her vulnerable side to me.

It was such a lovely scene.

"I'm so happy… y-you love me… *sob*" she said, still with her smile on her face.

Then, I pulled her head on my chest in a tight embrace.

Hina's hands wrapped around me , to return the hug, and she started moving her lower body to seduce me.

We stayed hugged for some minutes before Hina took the lead.

"I'm ready…" Hina whispered while getting off me.

I got up with her.

She then lay down and opened her arms widely, like she was inviting me to become one.

"I have to do this, there's no turning back now." I said to myself, trying to get some courage.

After that, i rapidly removed my boxes and looked right into Hina's eyes.

And then, i finally managed to speak.

"Hina... Are you ready?" I asked, with a voice full of mixed emotions.

Hina slighlty nodded, smiling lovingly at me.

Her arms were still open wide, waiting for an embrace.

"Yes, Kai... please, do. Just be gentle..." She whispered with passion and love. "Come to me..." She added while shaking her arms a little, to invite me more.

I didn't think about it twicec and , slowly, i entered inside her.

Hina grabbed my back and pulled me close to her.

We were close into a tight embrace and my cheeks were gently rubbing against hers.

I heard her soft moans in my ear, she was really enjoying the moment.

I moved in a little bit more and i was feeling the soft and pleasant heat of her insides.

HIna let out louder moans and i was getting worried that i could hurt her.

So, i stopped for a second and asked "Are you okay, Hina?" before gently caressing her head to calm her down.

She nodded and said "Yes... it's just... so new to me... please move..." She whispered into my ear.

I didn't think twice and i entered inside of her completely.

Hina was really enjoying it and she tightened her embrace around me, felling her nails digging directly into my skin.

"Please... move..." Hina whispered with a desperate and lustful tone of voice while gently caressing my back.

In silence, i followed her request and started moving in and out.

I was totally inexperienced so my movements weren't perfect, but the sensation of being inside of her felt so amazing.

Everything in the moment felt so great.

The atmosphere, the sensations, the feeling... everything looked so perfect.

"Ah...! A-Ah...! Mmph~ Ah...."  Hina kept moaning, getting louder by every passing second.

She was also shaking her hips to match my movements.

Hina was probably feeling so much pleasure...

I became a man... finally... one of my few dreams actually became true.

I lost my virginity, and most of all, it was with a beautiful girl like Hina.

In that moment, it seemed like we were the only two people living on the planet: Only me and her.

"Oh my god...! This feel so amazing!! Please! Keep going...!" Hina said while moaning even more loudly.

Her arms were gently wrapped around my neck and she gave me some kisses during our act.

I did the same and kissed her a few times while moving.

Everything seemed so beautiful... but still... i knew that something was feeling off.

There was something dark and i couldn't understand what.

But i didn't care about it, i was focused on pleasuring Hina.

We kept shaking our hips in a synchronized way and we kept going for a while, trying different positions and things.

Then, after some hours, we finally ended.

We lay down next to each other in a tight embrace, sweating and breathing heavily.

"Wow... this felt so amazing..." I said, panting.

"Yeah... y-you were amazing..." Hina replied, while snuggling into my chest.

She kept gently caressing my body while looking deeply into my eyes.

Her gaze seemed full of genuine love.

But i had a strange sensation.

It seemed like Hina had a glimpse of sadness in them, like she was hiding something.

She was probably wondering about what happened and thinking that i could get hurt...

Or maybe, there was something that she didn't want to say to me that was hurting her.

But i didn't want to ask.

All i wanted was enjoying the moment.

I knew that i needed answers, i knew that Hina murdered people and that she could do the same with my friends with no hesitation if they might hurt me... 

But after our first time, i only saw a fragile girl who only wanted some love and affection.

The thought that the next day i had to do lots of things and that i had to investigate and tame Hina, was bothering me a little, i must admit.

So many things happened in such a short period of time.

"Hina... thank you for... choosing me." I said, with a slight blush on my face.

Hina giggled playfully after my comment and then she gently caressed my cheek.

"Haha... you're so cute when you blush, you know...? And don't worry... i'm not the one who has choosen you... Destiny made us meet..." She said with a tone full of love and affection for me.

"I'm glad you were my first..." I replied.

"And i'm glad that you'll be my last...～"  Hina said while nuzzling into my shoulder.

She stayed like this in silence, without saying any word.

I kept caressing her hair and , without even noticing, she drifted into a deep sleep.

"Ah... this felt so great..." I said to myself. 

"I think that i need to sleep." I thought while taking a look at the clock inside my room.

The time was... 3:42 A.M. 

I then remembered that Hina had to go to school.

I still had the days to recover from my "fever". 

Too many things and secret were still undiscovered and i wanted to take advantage of my free days to investigate some more.

The priority was the letter from Rina Kobayashi and why those two men assaulted me.

Bad people knew where i lived and they could assault me in every moment.

I probably needed to stay into another place... maybe.

So, before drifting to sleep, i decided to go to see Sakura.

I needed to talk to her, pretending that i didn't notice all of her incongrueces and to tell what happened.

After some minutes of thinking and reflecting, i decided to close my eyes and drift into a deep sleep... finally enjoying the most beautiful thing that life gave to us humans: Dreaming...