My love: My choice

Until when should I hide this feelings?

until when should I say no?

Until when should I mind what people would say?

for the first time in my life I want to be selfish, I want to be happy the way I wanna be. but there's always restrictions, always have rules and I bound to abide those rules.



why is happiness hard to get? it seem too near yet to far. people say you just have to follow your heart and that's happiness.



can I do that? follow my heart and be happy? can I?



seeing her crying infront of me breaks my heart. I don't know what to do, should I hug her? and gives her comfort?

oh dear! her words hurt me badly,



bakit ako lang?



bakit parang ako lang ang lumalaban?



Ipaglaban mo naman ako. ipaglaban mo naman kung anu tayo?

nakakapagod na. her exact words while crying infornt of me,





I want to hug her badly at sabihin sakanya na don't worry everything will be alright. and giver her assurance that things will work out.



but I cant give her false hope. ayoko siyang paasahin. mas lalo ko siyang masasaktan.



It's not that I don't love her. I Love her very much. but I don't want to disappoint my parents. I don't want to breaks their hearts and just walk away from my responsibilities.



oh how I hate this Life. What should I do?