what it takes to be me

My life could be an interesting journey to embark on, while it could be a disturbing one to read at all. Don’t get me wrong; I am not saying no one could actually fit in my shoes or do the things I have done. I’m just saying nobody can… Yeah, you heard me right.



It’s like I don’t know you anymore. You’ve changed since this past week, and I don’t know what is wrong with you. I’m just— Esther kept in with the nagging and nagging; her voice felt like it was scratching the veins inside my head until—



Well, in that case, to hell with the relationship, to hell with school, and to hell with every other person who thinks I’m going through a phase… except my mum… I love my mummy so much.



I raised my voice back at her. As everyone around the school block stopped and watched me perform my madness, just like my mum would have said if she was here, and I could notice the shock of my outburst in Esther’s expression as she took steps away from me.



Yeah! Just go! Just walk away just like every other person in my life. I don’t care!!! Not anymore!! I let out my mind loudly this time, and I felt satisfied in a way and a little weary from all the screaming.



Letting out a deep breath, I fell back into the school fountain. I just didn’t give a damn what anyone else thought anymore… including me.



Well, I have had a lot on my mind, okay? I just lost fifty thousand to a twelve-year-old. My dog was hurt, and my uncle just completed one whole month on the couch. Now, so yeah, I have got responsibilities in my hands.



I poured out my mind to the old man as he stared at me with an unreadable expression on his face.



“For a month”? How?



And how can your d-



“Don’t bother asking trust me you don’t wanna know you don’t wanna know”