vol. 1 chapter 1.

Just then my boyfriend gets out of my friends grasp and grabs me by putting an arn around my neck. Pulls a gun out of of his tux and points it to my head. In that moment I'm thinking when this all started. Like life was flashing before my eyes. If every story has its begging but I feel like it has no end.

It happened a few years ago. I was a freshmen at the time. Him and I had art class together. The teacher had assigned us seats. I was seated next to Andrew. The teacher said to introduce ourselves to our neighbors at the table we were in with just the two of us.

At the time we were just strangers. So I did what the teacher asked. "Hi I'm Andrew. Andrew Astro." Andrew says with a hand to me. I shake it and say "Hi, I'm Lewis. Lewis London." Andrew has brunette hair with a staple leo dicaprio 90s hairstyle, with a white shirt, a blue flannel some jeans and boy did he have mussels. I have dark auburn hair with a comma haircut and light green eyes where as Andrew has blue.

I didn't say my name was Lake cuase at the time it wasnt Lake it was Lewis because back then I hadn't discovered that I was agender which means lack of,gender free or gender neutral. Teacher also asked us to ask questions about each other. Like faviorte color or book. You get the idea. "So how are you?" I asked. He said " Good. You?"

"Good. Faviorte book?"

"Don't have one. Not much of a reader. How about you?"

"No I don't have a faviorte. It's hard to chose for me."

"Well what do you like to read?"

"Romance, horror, history, fiction, and slice of life"

"Out of all of those what's your favorite?"

"Romance."

"Whats your faviorte Romance novel?"

"Red,white, and blue is my faviorte?"

"No way. I've read that book too."

Just then the teacher Interupts and says "Okay class that's enough class. Let's get back to introducing ourselves to the class."

I got to admit, introducing myself was the least thing I wanted to do. But none the less I did it. I went first cause I wanted to get it out of the way. Andrew went next.

The rest of the class was boring. You know how it is when teachers go through safety measures and everything. Then the bell rang. Eventually I started to develop feelings for Andrew with each moment we had. Because at the time their were no bad memories. This might seem foolishness but back then I swear I could feel a connection between us.

Sometimes we just look at each other and look away because we had nothing to talk about or we were nervous. On day he whispered in my ear and said "would you be my boyfriend?" I whispered back "yes."

"If we become boyfriends it has to be secret because my family would never accept it."

"Okay"

I said "okay" because I knew what it was like to not feel accepted. My parents and sister accept me but my grandparents, it's a different story. We never hold hands. But said i little I love you in secret. Eventually we got each other's numbers.

Obviously we had our fights. Normally it would be a normal conversation turned into an agrurment. Sometimes he'd comment on my outfits on how good or shitty it looked to him. I know I should've left but I couldn't leave him. I loved him too much. So I stayed.

One day I get a text from Andrew saying "theirs party tonight. Wanna come?" I texted my mother first cause I know I'd get in trouble if I didn't. Once I got an "okay" from my mom I replied to Andrew "Sure. What time?"

"8 pm."

"Your gonna pick me up right? I can't drive cause I'm a freshmen."

"Of course just send me the address."

Later that night I decided to wear something causal which was a denim jacket, a white shirt, some blue jeans, and my converse. Later that night it was past 8 pm. I'm waiting for Andrew because at the time

I didn't know what to Do. My sister came out of her room and said "are you waiting for Andrew?"

My sister had black hair like my dad and blue eyes like my mom. Her name was Betty.

I replied "yes."

"Sucks to be you."

And goes back to her room gaming with friends. My mother said "Come on Betty that wasn't nice. Now apologize to your brother." My mom has hair like me and blue eyes as I have stated. Betty, while still being in her room eventually Shouts "Sorry for being rude to you Lewis." I shout back "it's okay I forgive you."

My house is really small. It's a 2 bedroom house. My sister and I have the bedrooms upstairs and my parents sleep downstairs. It's not surprising how voices carry in this house but it is surprising when no one can her my sister game. She is loud as fuck when it comes to gaming with her friends.

I'm by the window and say "come on where could he be?" My Dad who has black hair and light green eyes says "Maybe traffic was a pain in the ass." My mother says "Your father's right. Days like this it must be packed." "I guess you are right Dad." He replies "Yeah I am. Especially on game days. But just remember if anything goes wrong text me. Okay?" I replied with "Okay. I will."

Just then I see Andrew's car. It's a a teal suv car. "That's him. I gotta go." I say going out the front door." My mom comes out and says "We love you. And remember no drinking." I replied with "Love you too mom."

I get in the car and he says "Sorry I was late. Traffic was a pain in the ass. Ready to go to the party?" I replied with "yes"

"So wheres the party?" I say. He replies with "John's house. He's a friend of mine. He's also part part of the football team. He's parents are out of town so he thought why not."

"Got it.

"You look shitty."

"Oh come on. I really tried my best to look good."

"If you say so."

"Oh come one you look like a hobo with those ripped pants. Granted your shirt looks nice. But your pants are so ripped their not even called pants."

"It's suppose to be a party. Not a dress up. You look like a barbie. You look like ken."

"I'd rather look like a Ken then a hobo."

"Technically your the hobo because your family can't afford a better house."

"Oh sure, sure. Where should I live then. Like you. Sorry we can't all have a two story house like you.'

"That's enough. We almost at the party. Don't want to be seen bickering or arguing at the party."

"Sure cause you just have to be the the perfect son or whatever."

"You wanna end up in the street and walk their your self?"

"No."

"Then do me a favor and shut the fuck up."

We parked away from the house because of traffic. We walk to the house. Some opens up the door and says "Andrew! My man! How have been?" Andrew says " Yeah it's been good John." John had blond hair with an ivy league haircut with blur eyes. John says "who's your friend?" Andrew replies with "This is Lewis. My friend."

"Well nice to meet you Lewis." John says while putting his hand out. I shake his hand say "Nice to meet you too John." John says "Well come on in guys. The drinks are over in the kitchen along with pizza. And the party is over in the big room." We come in and Andrew says "I'm gonna get a drink you want anything Lewis?" I say "Nope. I'm fine."

"How about you John?" Andrew asked. John replies with "Nah man I'm fine." Just then Andrew leaves and when he is out of site John whispers in my ear. "I take it your guys are dating?"