ELEVEN - APOLOGIES

Here I was again on the couch, cuddled up in my pillow, staring blandly at James Mayfield's 'killing Jean' , expecting a DM from Tessy any second.

"You okay?" Father asked in his usual gruff manner.

"I'm fine." I replied and adjusted to a more comfortable manner.

Kim-Jun log: Today wasn't the 'going' day for me. Cos in the morning, pa was in one of those tyrant moods, snapping at me for almost anything.

I got ignored by Tessy's crush- which I'm supposed to feel normal about, but I think it's horseshit.

I lost my paints to that same person, which I'll have to hold my Netflix subscription because of.

My only friend thinks I don't have emotions, and is angry with me for it.Pa's still feeling snappy, and grouchy, but he's fine since he had his shrimp noodles for dinner, and I'm on the edge, waiting for the 'she' to text me one message so I don't feel like shit anymore.

So there you have it. My life as it is now.

Anyone would come in, stay for about a week, and have the guts to tell me how problem free life is.

DAMN YOU!! For one, my Dad is the biggest problem I have and it's not likely to go away any time soon.

Then there's Tessy;

T-[How long have you been waiting?]

Think of the devil.

K-[Well if it isn't the devil herself.]

T-[Ouch]

K-[I had time to count my curses at least.]

T-[Your blessings. That's the phrase.]

K-[And you think I don't know my literature?]

T-[Sorry was as talking to Austin]

K- [ About?]

T- [You. He said he was sorry about your paints.]

K- [And...?]

T- [What else do you want to hear?]

K- [To think you said he doesn't give a damn??]

T- [Technically, I said I like guys who don't give a damn.]

[But then again, he probably does.]

K- [....]

T- [ So how do I round up things?]

K- [We'll burn that bridge when we get there.]

T- [Cross the bridge, not burn it. No gaslighting anything or anyone.]

"Goodnight Pa." I said in Korean, and went upstairs to my room.

K- [What makes a guy... HUMAN??]

T- [What?]

K- [!!!!]

T- [I don't know, the ability to adapt easily, I guess.]

K- [Do I qualify there?]

T- [Obviously not.]

K- [So I'm officially ALIEN?]

T- [Pfft. For a long time now.]

[ So do you accept his unreserved apologies?]

Do I accept apologies in the first place? Talk Less of unspoken ones tenderd by people who choose not to see me?

K- [I guess so.]

T- [That's new.]

K- [Structural and emotional adaptation]

T- [You're such a buzzkill]