-please just use me as you want-

After the conversation, Mr. Kaiza and I had our first meal together. The food was laid out on the table. I only looked at it, and my stomach could feel the taste. While we were having the delicious, wonderful meal, Mr. Kaiza tried not to open the emotional topic of what I had told him and his grandfather.

He picked food for me, one piece after another, from one dish to another on my plate. Like the first time I met him in the red room, I was abducted to see him.

He always and will be like this...giving me kind gestures and providing me comfort. Kindness under danger. He dangerously and consistently offers everything to me, having me in exchange. 

Or, Perhaps it is because every action he takes is based on his genuine desires.

Mr. Kaiza takes me to our garden. We sit on the bench, watching the waterfall rain down under the ground. There is a long stone on the horizon, which has the space to let the water run under without giving a splash.

I face up to the sky and let the chilly breeze blow through me.

"Zephyra, You must be hurt."

He speaks up

He slides his finger, running through my side hair and touching my right ear.

"..."

"I'm sorry for what happened…I should…be there for you and with you…at that time."

He tells me.

"...Mr. Kaiza..It's not your fault, so don't be sorry for…I was the one who didn't let you...it's not your fault."

I explain while looking at the green leaves swaying in the air.

"Even so, I wanted to be there. I wanted to be the one who consoled you…"

He talks to me while his gaze still on me, 

I tilt my face down.

"..."

I get up and walk to the pond beside the waterfall, watching the water running down hit the surface of the still water inside the stone, reflecting back my blurred face.

"You know what will happen next when we marry each other…why do you still..."

He finally asks his thoughts.

"I think you know, Mr. Kaiza."

"..."

I turn around to face him.

"So, you want to marry me because of something else…"

He walks to me.

"...Can you handle that?"

"...Yes."

He looks straight into my eyes.

"I used you before, and… I know I might not deserve you…but I told you I'm too greedy when it comes to you, Zephyra. I don't mind if you're going to use me to get what you want…I'm willing to do so…whatever you say, whatever you do. I'll do my best to help…"

He explains his feelings to me while holding my arms and moving down to my hands.

"..."

"Just let me keep on holding your hands like this, touching you like this."

He continues his words and also his gestures. He uses his right hand to hold and touch my cheek. His eyes are almost full of bitterness, but not entirely.

"Kaiza… you know me…no matter how much I want to get something…I never ever get through or approach that thing by something or someone I hate…"

"..."

He moves his left hand from my hand to my waist.

"What do you mean by that?"

"You are the first person who made my…body follow the rush and feel them all in a crazy and bitter way. You made me feel…fury when you ignored me and paid attention to some girls, or when someone talked negatively about you…"

"...Ha..."

He's a bit startled by what I say.

"Or when you touch me and hold me…you make me feel calm and make my heart beat so fast at the same time…"

"Zephy...I..."

He pulls me in closer, and my stomach touches his.

"Even if I know that fact... that you helped them to have me… still, it was from your deep desire."

"Zephyra..."

He calls my name again, and his right hand doesn't stop moving. He's touching my hair, my cheek, and my neck all around while listening to me.

"...You're not the only one who falls, Kaiza…I also...fall for you."

"!!"

He waits for me to finish, and he kisses me intensely like I never felt before. My body is in his arms, and he leads mine against the stone wall that is covered with leaves and vines. He pushes his lips more aggressively and puts his tongue inside my mouth.

"Ah…"

I accidentally cry out of the intensity he gives me. 

The waterfall splashes a little on my clothes.

My lips move together with him automatically. He uses his tongue, touches my tongue, and moves to the top and underneath smoothly, with both his lips kissing all over mine.

"Ah...Kai..za..."

I try to call him.

He holds my neck to pull into his face, not letting me get out.

It's crazy… I can feel my lungs are out of air. I can feel my heart beating so fast under my chest. I could feel his warmth and hot body through his white shirt.

"Ha…"

I try to breathe while he kisses me. Then, I kiss him gently to slow him and push him away harder because he uses his strength to lock me in his arms.

"Kaiza... Please..."

"...I...don't want to stop."

He tells me, and he moves to kiss my neck instead.

"Kaiza…"

I call him and put my left hand over his neck.

"...I'm sorry…I'll stop."

He tells me softly. He pulls his lips from my neck, but his face is still on my shoulder.

"..."

He kisses my shoulder softly, pulls himself away, and looks at me. My lips are definitely swollen and red right now.

He slightly kneels both knees before me while looking into my eyes.

What is he doing?

"Zephyra, Is it true? The things you told me… you didn't just joke with me and…"

He asks me while he hides his face into my lower stomach area.

The right side of my clothes is all wet.

"..."

His hands are still on my waist, holding himself to me.

"When I was...in the Mountain. I tried my best to get those stones…tried to crack them open, tried to understand a lot of things, tried to wait.. tried to hold that sword…I did all I could to... come back to you."

"!!"

He looks up.

"I told myself that you owe me an answer, but how much I would like to deny. I just wanted to see you again."

"...Zephyra."

He calls my name and holds me tighter while his face is still in the same position.

"!"

He kisses my crotch between my legs.

"Thank you…thank you for telling me, heh."

He tells me with a smile and a bit of a chuckle. 

He looks happy…

"Ah..."

And then he kisses through my dress harder, like the way he kisses my lips. 

And I touch his head to pause him.

…please... Kiaza.

"Please just use me as you want…"

He tells me with his words and with his eyes.